Jaunty crossword clue 4 letters

Throwaway as ex partner knows my account.
Hi all I'm in shock still and very angry and upset over what's happened. My fiancé of 9 years had a 2 month affair with some girl he met.
It's completely blindsided me. The girl in question messaged me that she's having an affair and the minute I seen this, I phoned my fiance, met him, threw the engagement ring at him and drove off hysterical.
I've dumped all his clothes, items, pictures, everything relating to him off at his parents. I'm in complete shock. I feel like my entire life has been ripped apart. I told him not to contact me as I can't even bare to see him, hear him at all.
He broke no contact after a few days and started messaging me horrifying things about how he's going to end his life, he can't handle what he's done, he needs to die to atone what he's done. Saying I deserve better and he's sorry he's put me through this. He's been self harming and his mental health has deteriorated. He ended up going on a psych ward for a few days due to suicide attempt.
I lashed back as I can't even focus on my own healing or myself because I'm so worried about him. It's breaking my heart how could he do this to me?!?
Before all this, I new he had some sort of mental problem like autism or bipolar but I'm not sure what. Since then, he's been in counselling/therapy multiple times a week, started taking medication but he's still very suicidal and depressed. I think they're trying to figure out what exactly is wrong to find the right medication.
He sent me a message about 4 weeks after dday asking where my head is at because he recognises he has an issue and that he's remorseful for all the pain and suffering he's caused me. He wants to reconcile but is aware he needs to work on himself as he's currently not healthy. He's said his mental issues aren't an excuse for what he's done and he's struggling to come to terms with betraying me. He's in shock. I told him to leave me alone and I need space.
He respected that and then another month later he sent me a message and posted me a letter. Ive not read the letter but the message was similar again, asking where my head is at because he wants to make things right. And said he can apologize over and over again but his actions speak louder and he wants to know I'm okay, make me feel safe and make this work as a team. I replied saying I need time.
Later that day he messages me and it went downhill fast. Not arguing but he started to become very suicidal over text and It just upset me and angered me because I can't focus on my healing when I'm worried about him. Its so selfish. The next morning he apologized and said he's sorry for putting this unnecessary pressure on me and he has to learn to desk with his emotions on his own and learn new healthy coping mechanisms and he apologised profusely. I replied angrily saying it's out of order, you're the one who cheated, I've just had my life ripped apart out of no where.
And I've not heard anything since.
All my life, I've told myself if anyone cheated, that would be it, I'd move on and never look back, but he's my first love. I lost my virginity to him. He seems deeply sorry and remorseful for what he's done. I'm 32 and with him gone, I'm in no position to get a house or start a family I want. I have some underlying issues so it would be hard for me to find a partner now who understands me.
I just don't know how he could do that to me. To us. I'm in complete awe and shock and angry and devastated.
I've not even seen him in person or spoke on phone for 2 months and I don't know when I can even see him. I want answers. I deserve them.
I don't know if I want to reconcile but I don't want him out of my life. I'm at a complete loss. I don't know what to do. I'm heartbroken.

Hey everyone. So when I got married in 2021, I forgot to change my Marital Status on CRA. I had called them recently and they said to send in a letter with some information and I should be Good to go.
I did this and a few days later recieve notice that my Marital status had changed. BUT, when they put my wife's name, they just put the first 4 letters .. is this normal or what? Do I now need to send them another letter to fix it?

myquals - 62/79/65 in 10th/12th/Grad
My father owns a small industrial tools supply business and I have been working there for past one and a half years. Since it is small business, I don't get any salary as such. What we earn is used for family expenses and I take money as and when I need. I have joining letter though. I helped my father in sales and inventory management. I also experimented with counter sale as one big issue with our business has always been 3-4 months payment cycle which messes up our working capital. So with counter sale we get payment as and when the sale is made. The thing about all this is that I have no paper proof to show it. How can I write it on my resume? Will joining letter be enough? I have been searching for a job as there isn't much money in this business.

Hi all. Doing a village quiz and am stuck with the final answer. All answers can be found on the London Underground map (including overground, DLR and so forth).
The cryptic clue is "Sounds bigger than big" (7 letters).
Any ideas?

This is driving me nuts to understand... In the past leading up to 7 months ago I wear pretty much the same 4 pairs of clothes. I didn't wash them much from long extended wear times. Nor did I use any soap that could cash discoloration. I was in the sun a lot during that time and thought maybe my sweat exposed to visible light on the outside from perhaps cheap fabric? I have no clue it's just weird it looks brand new in the inside. One last thing the shirt is made by Hanes and it's 60© cotton and 40% polyester.
here's a photo of said shirt

My father owns a small industrial tools supply business and I have been working there for past one and a half years. Since it is small business, I don't get any salary as such. What we earn is used for family expenses and I take money as and when I need. I have joining letter though. I helped my father in sales and inventory management. I also experimented with counter sale as one big issue with our business has always been 3-4 months payment cycle which messes up our working capital. So with counter sale we get payment as and when the sale is made. The thing about all this is that I have no paper proof to show it. How can I write it on my resume? Will joining letter be enough? I have been searching for a job as there isn't much money in this business.

My father owns a small industrial tools supply business and I have been working there for past one and a half years. Since it is small business, I don't get any salary as such. What we earn is used for family expenses and I take money as and when I need. I have joining letter though. I helped my father in sales and inventory management. I also experimented with counter sale as one big issue with our business has always been 3-4 months payment cycle which messes up our working capital. So with counter sale we get payment as and when the sale is made. The thing about all this is that I have no paper proof to show it. How can I write it on my resume? Will joining letter be enough? I have been searching for a job as there isn't much money in this business.

My father owns a small industrial tools supply business and I have been working there for past one and a half years. Since it is small business, I don't get any salary as such. What we earn is used for family expenses and I take money as and when I need. I have joining letter though. I helped my father in sales and inventory management. I also experimented with counter sale as one big issue with our business has always been 3-4 months payment cycle which messes up our working capital. So with counter sale we get payment as and when the sale is made. The thing about all this is that I have no paper proof to show it. How can I write it on my resume? Will joining letter be enough? I have been searching for a job as there isn't much money in this business.

I'm really struggling managing core training/exams. I've passed my exams now (PACES took more than one attempt haha) and after looking into why I failed I wondered if I could be neurodiverse, especially as women present differently to men.
I have a longstanding history of anxiety (had CBT but didn't work that well, previously had SSRIs) so it's hard to know if it's just overlap with anxiety but some symptoms I have are:

1. Speaking over people, talking way too much. I have to count the seconds in my head before I let myself speak again or I say in my head I won't speak again until at least 2 others in the group have spoken (?masking). I come across as very confident, lots of friends but am deeply insecure and found social interactions as a child very difficult so I think I now have lots of friends to compensate for previous pariah status as an 8 year old (I am always trying to make new ones)
2. Struggle with organisation massively, things like applying for a course then study budget/leave seem overwhelming so I just don't even really try
3. I can't just write a jobs list down on a medical handover e.g. writing LFTs next to bed 5 amongst lots of other tasks and get them done. I can write that but to get anything done I have to write a separate list which when I'm tired will be broken down into minutiae things like 1. Order 5s bloods and print labels 2. Take Bed 5 bloods 3. Pod bed 5s bloods or I get distracted and will start doing something else like Bed 7s d/c letter
4. I can watch a film but I get an overwhelming urge to know things such as age gap between two love interests, how old is the actor etc and have to google it on my phone. Cannot resist impulse to find random things out, easily get lost in very specific Wikipedia wormholes for hours
5. Fidget quite a lot
6. I sleep fine, but cannot really nap in the day at all
7. Always feel on edge/on the go
8. When I speak I often go on tangents and mind jumps from topic to topic which other people have commented on as weird
9. I get really anxious about things like packing to go on holiday, it takes me HOURS and I deliberate over so many things. How as a doctor can I not just pack a suitcase?
10. I don't overspend massively, I actually struggle to make any decision about buying something. Anything over about £15 and I will massively deliberate and not buy unless I have to
11. I'm not a "self starter" I struggle with the organisation and motivation to complete even a basic QI project, I need someone pushing me to do things and a set structure with a deadline or I will never actually DO anything
12. I struggle to focus on tasks, I am easily distracted, it's hard to know if this is just anxiety though?
13. My IMT application was written the night before, we had no interviews so it came down to the white space questions but due to my disorganisation and last minute ramblings on the form I scored quite poorly, I could not get my shit together to actually do this in advance. My life is a series of panicky procrastination and struggling to manage longer term projects.
14. I do not do risky behaviours as I am quite anxious! I'm a worrier so I don't do things such as bungee jumping for adrenaline which I know some people with ADHD apparently love. I also never had issues with risky sexual behaviour and have never had issues with unhealthy romantic relationships. I was raised in a very loving and supportive household (very lucky) and have always had good relationship role models and I think I have a fairly secure attachment style.
15. I always overshare and can't help saying things, like expressing my pro strike views in front of people who I shouldn't (like rota coordinator who will approve or deny my annual leave) I know my life would be better if I didn't say these things but I cannot help it I just blurt things out like verbal diarrhoea

These all seem quite random. But I just feel "different" to other people and really struggle to manage the admin of owning a house and being in training. I only have a mortgage because my partner sorted all of it out. I struggle day to day and can't imagine coping with work and having children (which I hope to do in next few years). I do have the means to get a private assessment, but getting a diagnosis of ADHD seems "trendy" at the moment so I don't wanna be some idiot jumping on a bandwagon and don't wanna be put on meds for something I don't have if a private clinic just wants to make money.
Also as a child I was top of class (in my terrible primary school) and obviously managed to do all of my exams and as a doctor that makes me a "high achiever" so I don't know if I would meet the criteria.
If you've read all this then thank you :).

My father owns a small industrial tools supply business and I have been working there for past one and a half years. Since it is small business, I don't get any salary as such. What we earn is used for family expenses and I take money as and when I need. I have joining letter though. I helped my father in sales and inventory management. I also experimented with counter sale as one big issue with our business has always been 3-4 months payment cycle which messes up our working capital. So with counter sale we get payment as and when the sale is made. The thing about all this is that I have no paper proof to show it. How can I write it on my resume? Will joining letter be enough? I have been searching for a job as there isn't much money in this business.

One artist/song per week, clues to be released weekly as well. First episode April 4

10 yr engineering professional that had multiple onsite interviews with a prospective new employer. A week after my latest on-site interview their HR person calls me and tells me I’m the candidate and to expect an offer letter over the next 4-5 days. I emailed them at day 6 reconfirming my interest and asking if anything had changed. No response, and now it’s been 2 weeks. Don’t want to seem desperate but do I email again? It is a position i would be excited to take. Not sure how to handle.
Thanks!

Is this normal? I know the contract says 3 days for each attorney to respond.
So at 750 am we said we’d like to withdraw our offer then our paralegal said things take longer in the real estate world but up to us. Now the sellers attorney sent their rider @807.

Came into the lab, checked my data, had a breakdown.
My experiments are looking at toxicity of niclosamide (NCL) to snail embryos, so I've been making solutions and dosing them across a range of concentrations. Every trial takes ~10 days. Ideally there should be a toxicity (sigmoid) curve, where non-hatch/mortality rate is 0% and goes up to 100%.

• Trial 1: a writeoff due to a silly mistake, all the embryos died after day 1
• Trial 2: I did a range and got 0% mortality for the first 4 concentrations, then 100% mortality for the last two. Promising, but since there's no in-between values, I have to "zoom in" on the 3rd and 4th concentration.
  • nominal: 5, 20, 40, 80, 160, 500 µg/L (what I was theoretically making based on maths)
  • measured: 1, 3, 15, 21, 90, 126 µg/L (results from analytical chem lab)
• Trial 3: 0% mortality for all reps - measured concentration was WAY below nominal concentration. I finished Trial 3 before I got the sample analyses back for Trial 2 and Trial 3, so I was going off Trial 2 data and made solutions with a nominal range of 80 - 160 µg/L solutions. Sample analysis came back after I had finished the trial and indicated that the actual concentrations were way, way lower, which explained the 100% survival rate.
  • nominal: 80, 100, 140, 120, 160 µg/L
  • measured: 12, 23, 28, 31, 41 µg/L

Sample analysis calculations showed that NCL was degrading by 70-80%, so e.g. if I made a nominal 100 µg/L NCL solution, the actual measured concentration was 30 µg/L.
Ok good to know, so now when I do Trial 4, I'll just divide all my ideal measurements by 30%, so I'll make a nominal solution of e.g. 300 µg/L and due to degradation, it'll be 100 µg/L in reality, right?

• Trial 4: 100% mortality for all reps.

So it turns out that all the solutions were not degrading by 70%-80% as they are all higher than expected. Not sure how much less they degraded as I haven't gotten analysis results from my Trial 4 samples yet.
I don't think I can pool my data from multiple trials, but even if I did, I'd get a shitty sigmoid curve with 10 data points at 0% mortality and 10 data points at 100% mortality, with no in-between.
I feel like I've done everything I should and am still getting bad results. I'm making fresh stock every time, dosing and sampling right after making the concentrations, my maths is correct, I made an SOP and am following it to the letter.
I feel like I'm just making shots in the dark at this point - I tried to base T4 concentrations off what I learned in T2 and T3, and it didn't work out.
I just don't know what to do - there's 4 weeks left, so that means running 2 more trials at the max (along with the usual assignments and exams from a full university courseload....).
How can I even piece together a paper, a poster, and a presentation from this? I've emailed my prof but am nervously awaiting their reply.
Anyway, if you made it this far, thank you for reading! Any advice appreciated.

Chance me LACs Northwestern UPenn and USC and any kind of school you think I can get in please!
Demographics • Gender: Non-Binary • Race/Ethnicity: Asian • Residence: NY • Income Bracket: $30K • Type of School: Public, small • Hooks: First-Gen/Low-income/Interesting life story
Intended Major(s): Sociology/Sciences and Society QUESTBRIDGE!!!
Academics • GPA (UW/W): 4.0UW/Former sch(100 UW) • # of Honors/AP/IB/Dual Enrollment etc.: 6APs 3Honors 3Dual [email protected]
Standardized Testing List the highest scores earned and all scores that were reported. • SAT I: 1460 (700RW, 760M) • AP/IB: Will take 9APs this year
Award/Honors • iGEM Team Gold • Tennis Governor's Cup Gold • Few Volunteer Award • Few School Award • Full-ride admission scholarship at former school
Extracurriculars/Activities List all extracurricular involvements, including leadership roles, time commitments, major achievements, etc.
• Volunteer at 2 Hospitals and 1 Community Center for over 1,200 hours • Founded Non-Profit to help Caribbean countries obtain pure drinking water, covering a population of 6,000 and raising over $30K (Still growing up) • Founded Non-Profit to help undocumented and low-income experience colleges (summer campus and academic year program) currently have over 2,000 members and raising over $50K • Startup w/ UC Berkeley group co-founder Email-bot still working on that • Intern at one of Caribbean countries Embassy in China for 2 months • Intern at Japanese government office in China for 2 months • Leader and founder of school club • President of Student Council at Former school
Summer Schools/Research/Paid Jobs University of Science and Technology of China-Summer Seminar and Research on Quantum information and communication-2 months University of Science and Technology of China-Undergrads Admission Assistent-4 months(Paid) University of Science and Technology of China-Academic Year Program-Research Assistent at one of the lab at School of CS-7months (Paid) Beijing institute of Technology-Summer Research Assistent on VAR and neuroscience-2months(Paid) Nike China-Store Sales-4months(Paid) Youth Hostel at Beijing-Front Desk-months(Paid)
Letters of Recommendation Dual Enrollment Business teacher - 8/10 Former School Principal - 10/10 One of the professors or PhD student at UChicago - 7-9/10

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5. Follow up: Follow up with the employer after the interview to show your continued interest in the position.
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So for the past 3 months I had a dispute with a Walmart over a $500 gift card purchase that never activated properly. The retailer was unwilling to help nor very responsive after seeking out help a number of times through them and Green Dot Bank (issuer of the gift card). So I filed a chargeback on my Chase Freedom credit card. Charge was removed. However much to my surprise today I just got a letter from Green Dot that they will refund me and should expect a check in my mailbox by 4/7/23. Can I call Chase and cancel my chargeback and have them re-charge me?

In about 3 weeks I will move to California (San Jose area). Currently I am in Switzerland. I am a bit concerned about getting ADHD treatment in the US.
In Switzerland getting the right medication is very complicated since it is a controlled substance (which is also the case for the same medication in California as far I know). I am an adult and my ADHD was diagnosed while I was already an adult. Getting the diagnosis was a nightmare. I had to get an appointment with a special unit at a university hospital (6 months wait time). Then I had to show them my school reports from when I was 6-10 years old. In Switzerland teachers describe a person using words as opposed to numbers. The specialist doctor who diagnosed me was looking for clues about ADHD in my childhood. He also interviewed my parents (awkward) and I had to do a lot of tests - including a 4 hour long IQ test. I had to get an EED (measured my brain waves). It took about 9 months (6 months waiting for the appointment and then 3 months to get the diagnosis).
I will move to California to work and life there. I will be insured via my employer. So that should not be the issue. But I also was insured in Switzerland.
I had a look and there seem to be health provider that do the diagnosis online. They also do not seem to require the kind of testing I had to go through. Those providers claim that you can get to your diagnosis + first prescription within 3-4 days. Is this trustworthy? What is the most convenient way to get what I need in California / San Jose?

My nursing job prefers you put in a 4 week notice. I plan to submit my letter of resignation June 1 and my last day of work will be June 29.
I’m pretty sure I’m calculating my PTO correctly between how much I have now, how much I will still be earning, and already approved time off.
At the end of it all I would have just over 60 hours of PTO left which I could take off another 5 days since our shifts are 12 hours.
My question is… is it frowned upon to use up your PTO hours before your last day of work? I want to avoid using my PTO by calling in because that is definitely a crappy thing to do since I’d be leaving the unit short on a moment’s notice. But if I had some shifts off that are already approved they’d be able to plan better to keep the unit well staffed.
Basically I just need to know would they view me as a bad/lazy person for wanting to actually use my remaining PTO hours in the best way I could rather than having them pay out my remaining PTO since I’d only get 90% pay out and it’s taxed very highly anyway?
Any advice helps, thank you in advance!

My nursing job prefers you put in a 4 week notice. I plan to submit my letter of resignation June 1 and my last day of work will be June 29.
I’m pretty sure I’m calculating my PTO correctly between how much I have now, how much I will still be earning, and already approved time off.
At the end of it all I would have just over 60 hours of PTO left which I could take off another 5 days since our shifts are 12 hours.
My question is… is it frowned upon to use up your PTO hours before your last day of work? I want to avoid using my PTO by calling in because that is definitely a crappy thing to do since I’d be leaving the unit short on a moment’s notice. But if I had some shifts off that are already approved they’d be able to plan better to keep the unit well staffed.
Basically I just need to know would they view me as a bad/lazy person for wanting to actually use my remaining PTO hours in the best way I could rather than having them pay out my remaining PTO since I’d only get 90% pay out and it’s taxed very highly anyway?
Any advice helps, thank you in advance!

It's a long one so sorry.
For context I f(32) have been with my partner m(33) since I was 14 and he was 15, so 18 years. Although we never married due to financial reasons, we have two beautiful children together and were in discussion 4 months ago about buying a house together.
A couple of years ago he came to me saying he thinks he was confused about his gender. At the time I was shocked, but tried to be supportive saying he needs to "Do what you have to do" and to keep me in the loop. He started wearing women's underwear all the time and had a drawer full of women's clothes he would wear when me and the kids weren't in.
I did what a lot of people would do and turned to google, which told me this does happen but there is usually signs before hand that have been overlooked. I thought back, as a child his mum has told me that he was a typical boy. He played with transformers and wrestled with the boys and was always in trouble. In his teens he went through a lot of phases (which continued into his adult life), throwing himself into each wholeheartedly. First skater, (baggy shorts, skateboard and the chains on the jeans) then goth (full on hair and outfit), then over summer the next year bleach blonde hair and a surfer style wardrobe, to jeans and jumper( always), to jeans and shirt(always) etc. But aside from liking pink (which a lot of men do and I have no problem with it) there have been no signs of gender dysphoria. So after reading this I pitched it to him saying I thought it was another phase and started crying saying I don't think I can handle it and he stopped. ( I know this was selfish but I truly thought it was a phase and I felt very uncomfortable with it)
Cut to a few months ago. His most recent phase was a full beard and tartan shirt (same style every day) He has a tutor due to a course he is on and had a talk with him one day. His tutor told him he thinks my partner has depression, so he went to the doctor. Then within a week his beard was gone, he started to be clean shaven (He hasn't been completely clean shaven since he was a kid, it was always a fight to get him to shave the stubble) and now shaves every day. He started wearing only one massively oversized top that goes to his knees and skin tight jeans and he started to grow his nails out. He his phone case with a very feminine one and replaced his laptop bag (he picked) for a shopping tote bag with hot pink writing on it and now scoffs at the suggestion he wears one of his tartan shirts. He has gotten very determined to lose weight quickly with expensive injections and gastric bands, whereas before he wanted to lose weight but was willing to do it the proper way (healthy eating and exercise)
The style change itself isn't new to me, as his wardrobe is a giant tribute to all the other styles he has had in his life and I knew it was coming as he had the beard for a while and was due a "change". I've told him how I feel about the look and it doesn't change anything, he will dress how he will dress and that's how it has always been.(I give my opinion but ultimately it is his choice. If I look terrible in something I want to be told by him too, but it wont stop me wearing it.)
The issue started when I noticed all affection had stopped.
He was always (for lack of a better term) a bit of a perv. He would grab my breasts when we were alone, hug and kiss me all the time and always want sex, even if I didn't. After a few weeks I confronted him about it and he said he was depressed so didn't feel like it (which is valid and I knew I had to be understanding). But he tried, and things were awkward as everything felt so forced so I eased off. Until I started tidying our bedroom.
In drawer were he had kept his women's things I found a lot that had not been there before. There is bags of used women's underwear, fat binders and waist cinches, women's clothing (including some of my leggings) , lube, a dildo and inflatable butt plug. After a mini meltdown alone, I spoke to him. I didn't tell him what I found but I suggested we spice up our love life with some toys, thinking if I was willing to do more things with him he would tell me about the toys he had and any sexual interests he had. He was less than interested. He nodded and contributed nothing to the conversation.
Another night I tried to get him to open up to me about the drawer, reassuring him he can tell me anything and talk to me about anything. I was willing to listen and ready to talk to him about his plans, how long he had felt like this and where does he see himself in 5 years etc. But he shut me down. I asked if we were going to be ok. He nodded said yes and continued on his game.
He has always been cautious with technology. I didn't bat an eyelid when he went on his tablet and phone but wouldn't let me touch them, it was just how he was and I trusted him. Until I have seen a tab open with an email address on it. His surname but with a women's name in front that is not any member of our or his family. On the lock screen it shows people you are following who have posted something new, all of these people are trans women. People who have successfully transitioned, and on platforms he told me he didn't have, like instagram.
Since then, it may be silly, but the tv in our bedroom was slid to the side. I mentioned it to him and he told me I was weird and it was always like that, but it wasn't. His deodorant roll on blocked the light before and now the light of the tv was hovering off the drawers, not being blocked.
My mind is constantly jumping to the what ifs. Is he taking pictures of himself and used the space next to the tv to prop his tablet up? Has he got secret accounts as this other person he's not telling me about? Is he cheating on me as this person, which is why he isn't intimate with me anymore? Is he using me and the kids for stability because its easier financially.
Further research on trusty google tells me they wont give you hormones without losing weight, which explains the need for speed when losing it.
I'm tired of hiding that I know, but we have our first family holiday next week. We've always gone with family but this time it is just us and the kids and I don't want to ruin that, especially when it may be our one and only one at a family.
I have expressed (when I first found out) that I am not attracted to women, and reiterated it recently when we were watching a show together, so he knows its a make or break situation. It's why he hasn't told me. But I can't live like this any more. My heart is broken, because the man I love is becoming someone else that I don't recognise. Keeping secrets when there were none, living a life I know he must want as this phase didn't go, but keeping me out the loop.
I will confront him. Write him a letter with words I can't say because I know I will cry. I am making a plan for when we split. I want him to be happy, even if that means becoming a her. But I can't be with them when that happens. I'm not strong enough.