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Ok this is going to be long, but I feel like I have to give some backstory in order to get hopefully the right advice. My husband and I have been together since we were 18/19 (a little over 15 years). His mother has always been a hot mess. First story of when he was younger was that she had a recording on tape of his dad cheating and listened to it crying while he scratched her back…. He was 4. Fast forward to high school and she and friends took a bunch of his friends to spring break, they were all 17/18, and let them get hammered and her friends hooked up with his. All very creepy and downright weird and these are only two of the many more examples. He also found her drugs in high school. Fast forward about 8 years later and we are married and having our first child. One of my big, hardcore boundaries was that she could never be alone with my children. He supports me on that and agrees. There has been a lot of lies, manipulation, drug use, etc. throughout the years. Her roommate died in her house from a drug overdose… she still lies and says it was a heart issue even though my brother in law saw the drugs. I could go on and on but pretty much she will say she made mistakes as a mom but really is pretty clueless when it comes to pretty much everything. She loses her jobs a lot, has no money, no retirement, etc. my husband never has had the best relationship with her but stays in touch and we see her about once a month. My kids are in sports now and obviously i send the schedules out to my parents and his. Here’s where I need help. I can’t stand to be around her. She’s obnoxious, lies, over the top, and honestly it’s just hard for me to sit there and smile after all i know and all she has done throughout the years. My husbands father was a severe alcoholic and made a lot of mistakes, too, but he is clean now for years and has owned up to them and he really doesn’t bother me (they are divorced). I hate when she talks to my husband and when she’s around my kids. It makes my skin crawl. BUT she hasn’t done anything to us that has been so bad i guess where we could cut her off. She’s not allowed to be around any of my brother in laws kids (he has three by three different women and he’s not allowed to be around them either 😂🤦🏻‍♀️ but the rest of his family is- me, my husband, my father in law, etc)… so part Of me feels bad i guess. My husbands argument is that we don’t let her alone with the kids, we have a very surface relationship, and we never get too deep or spend too much time with her. And honestly he’s right! But how do i help myself deal with her? Obviously i won’t not go to my kids games. I just don’t want to feel sick at every game/birthday party because she’s there. I want to be able to enjoy myself. She forgot about my daughters birthday party in February and it was great 😂 I’m sorry this is so long. Anyone make it through and have advice for me? Lol

It's nighttime at the Pain family house. A 14-year old Rikain and Nina have gone to bed. No Pain had wanted to discuss something with Raiden after they were asleep, and had made them tea to discuss over. No Pain arrives with the two mugs on a tray.
No Pain: I made it boring, just the way you like it.
Raiden(Giggles): Well, at least mine doesn't rot my insides.
No Pain laughs, sets the tray down on the coffee table, and sits down on the couch. Raiden picks up her tea mug.
Raiden: So, what is it you wanted to discuss?
Raiden takes a sip of her tea. No Pain picks up their mug, but doesn't drink it. They just stare at the tea for a few moments. Finally, they look back up at Raiden.
No Pain: It's about Rikain and Nina. Rikain wants to learn. He wants this job, but…
Raiden: Nina doesn't. I've noticed myself. I think there's something you haven't considered.
Raiden sets her tea mug back on the table, still keeping her hands on it. No Pain looks like they know what she's about to say, but they don't want to hear it.
Raiden: If she doesn't want to learn, then you shouldn't force her into it. I'd expect you, of all people, to understand how great of a burden what you're preparing them for is. Can you fault her for not wanting it?
No Pain sighs and looks down again. They don't seem to be in the mood for their tea.
No Pain: I've been fighting for so long… When we had Rikain and Nina, I loved them of course, but I was hoping… that they could fight for me. I've been wanting someone to do that for so long… and with most of my old friends passed away, I… didn't have anyone. I know you wanted that too.
Raiden picks up her tea mug and takes another sip before speaking.
Raiden: Of course I do. I think there's something you should do: talk to her. See what she wants. In fact, during training tomorrow let's ask them both. And dear, please, drink your tea. You put so much work into it.
No Pain takes a sip of their tea, and their expression softens. It's sweet, and their preferred tea almost always makes them feel better.
No Pain: Let's do that.
Back upstairs in Rikain’s room, he’s lying in bed on his side. He looks at his dresser. An old picture of him and Nina sits on top of it, back when they were 7. His face falls upon seeing it.
Rikain(Thinking): Nina… we used to play a lot together… but that’s gone… you want nothing to do with me, dad or mom anymore… what changed? Why can’t I go back to when you were happy… when we were both happy together…
Back in Nina’s room, she’s lying in bed as well, on her back. Her long blonde hair is spread out over her pillow. She lets out a sigh of frustration.
Nina(Thinking): I don’t want to take dad’s job.. They talk about all these adventures, they claim to help people, and tell me to do the same… but all they do is sit around. They let people suffer. I don’t… want to be a part of it....
Nina rolls over onto her stomach and buries the side of her face into her pillow. A thought pops into her head. Her father had taught her how to tap into Chaos Force. They had all the power they needed to accomplish their supposed mission. And she had their blood. A wide, excited grin spreads across her face.
Nina(Thinking): All I have to do, is play along…

For anonymity purposes, I’ll call him Ares. Ares and I met one another around a year and a half ago through a mutual friend, let’s call her Catalina. I moved to the same city as Ares and Catalina (they attend the same school) at the beginning of this year, and have been going out with the two of them on most weekends.
Since moving here, I’ve developed feelings for Ares; however, he’s been in a long-distance relationship for over a year (I think?). The two of them seem to have a pretty toxic relationship, repeatedly on and off - sometimes “on a break” for weeks and then back together.
What I’ve realized is that, most times they’re “on a break”, Ares seems to start giving me a special kind of attention. If we’re at a party/club together, he’ll start getting sexually suggestive in how he’s dancing with me and making remarks to my friend Catalina.
Since I’ve began having feelings for him, these moments are like, “holy shit, let’s get it!!” (kinda a reduced version but you get the point.) But, when I come to find out him and his boyfriend get back together, I spiral into a ¿depressive? episode lasting several days. I know, it’s extremely unhealthy and I shouldn’t be dedicating so much of my mental energy/health to a single individual - fuck me, im trying tho.
Fast forward to two weeks ago… I bring up to Ares and Catalina how I’m seeing a guy from their school. Ares instantly starts asking questions about this guy: What’s his name? Which house is he in? and stating he doesn’t really like the idea of that. I straight up respond and tell him he could change that if he wanted to, but he has a boyfriend - to which he responds “No, I don’t.” Obviously, I sense that euphoric feeling creeping up again and start thinking “nice, I’m back in the game.” Fucking mind games.
Fast forward to this past weekend… Catalina, Ares, and I are at loud and packed house party. Eventually, I notice Ares is starting to get much closer that night with how we’re dancing and talking. Music was 10/10 and the vibes with him just felt really, really good overall (yes the alcohol definitely enhanced it, but my point stands). Even so to the extent where our friend Catalina could tell something was up between the two of us.
After the party, the three of us headed back to Catalina’s room to wind down for a bit. Eventually, Ares says he’s going to head back to his room and begins making his way out. He stops at the door, looks directly at me and says “So you’re staying?” Immediately I realized what was going down. I stood up, said bye to Catalina, and dipped with him. She was gagged.
We head back to his room and things start escalating. Soon enough, pants are coming off, we’re making out in his bed, and so on. We didn’t have sex (also hold the alcohol responsible for that). We start spooning and he brings my hand close to his chest. He brings it in closer to him and we fall asleep with our arms and legs intertwined - literally wtf. The morning after, I woke him up and let him know I had to head out to meet with a friend for breakfast. He grabs my arm and pulls me into bed with him, signaling me to stay for longer.
Part of the odd dynamic is that we don’t have each other’s phone numbers/social media. So, besides the times we see each other in person, we have zero communication. Yesterday, Catalina told me that she spoke with him and suspects the two of them are getting back together, given that his bf’s coming to visit/stay with him soon.
Ngl, I’m pretty hurt - yet not surprised in the slightest. Issue is, the entire night felt very intimate. Am I fooling myself? It’s hard to think of it all as a lie - it’s kinda fucking me up psychologically. In reality, I should’ve known better not to go back to his room with him.
I’ve had a really difficult time with situations like these throughout my romantic/sexual life - specially my first time being intimate with another male. Over the years, it’s kind of left me feeling empty inside. I know - I’m young and I’ve got a lot more to experience. But, sometimes, it’s very, very difficult to break out from the self-deprecating mentality these prior experiences have instilled in me. I’ve tried seeking a therapist since arriving here, but my constraints with work and insurance have made it really difficult to find one that is the right fit for me.
How should I tackle this situation? I don’t know if bringing it up to him is a good idea at all - I honestly don’t think it will be. I still have feelings for him and don’t really know how to stop them. It’s difficult to not see him since, Catalina, one of my very few friends up here, is really close with him as well. I also wouldn’t want to get in the way of the relationship the two of them have.
At this point, I’ve come to think he’s been using me for attention during moments of distress in his current relationship. He finds comfort in knowing he has someone to fall back on in case his Plan A fails. Is this someone I’d even want to be with romantically in the first place?

My friend has been dealing with issues with a small construction company to build her pool. They delayed her construction several times, damaged her house, damaged her retaining wall, and damaged her electric box for her house, among other problems. They also did not include a heating element in the hot tub portion as promised.
She is frustrated, and has been trying to get them to finish the pool she already paid for. They laughed at her and said that since there was no contract, she couldn't get anything from them. She also thinks taking legal action would not be worth it. Do you think she has a case in small claims?

The Canadian Armed Forces has recently announced a new pay allowance called CFHD. In para 205.453(4)a it states

(No Entitlement) There is no entitlement to CFHD if any of the following conditions apply:
a. the member is not paying some portion of the rent or the mortgage for their permanent residence;"

As I've paid off my mortgage I will now no longer be eligible for this allowance. Other members doing the same job, same rank, same location, same hours worked, same literally everything else will be making more money than I will for the sole reason that I've paid off my mortgage.
1) Is it legal for an employer to request documentation on an employees rental agreement/lease/mortgage?
2) Is it legal to discriminate based on these grounds?

I was put in charge of costume design/figuring out costumes for the men in my family. none of them have any idea what they wanna do while all of us (my mom, sister, sister-in-law, and I) have some general ideas of what we're doing and are super excited (the men in my family are sorta being dragged along with the promise off good food and seeing real blacksmiths, joisting, etc lol). the ren faire in my state isn't until the end of july but i wanna start putting things together soon so we can slowly buy items and make their costumes look as thought out as ours. I'm doing a mushroom/swamp nymph (I'm a wheelchair user and gonna make mushrooms and logs to attach to my chair!), my sister-in-law is doing a fairy, my sister is doing a pirate or a rouge, and my mom is doing a forest witch. I'd like some different ideas of what I could do for the four men in my family. I was thinking a bard for my little brother since he plays one in our dnd campaign, but I'm completely clueless what to do for the rest. I have two other little brothers (well ones not so little he's 6'2" and build like a brick house and has long hair that's shaved on the sides and back. the other is also tall but skinny with long hair), and my middle aged dad (who's kinda short with long hair and a beard), I'm not sure if the general descriptions help with ideas but I'm looking for all the help I can get! Preferably things I could find for cheap!

I’ve been getting cold sores since I was a kid and I have finally been able to shorten is lifespan of these drastically without the ugly scarring and bleeding! It’s only day 4 and my scabs have fallen off without drastic visibility and no bleeding.
So here’s what I do: Day 1: First signs of irritation I start using Zilactin. I have at least one in my car, house, and purse 24/7. (holy grail for canker sores as well)
When I’m able to, I start taking my prescribed acyclovir pills 3-5 times a day
Also start taking 3-5 lysine pills a day as well.
Overnight, I put on the Hanhoo brand soothing hydrocolloid patches on those bad boys. The soothing ones have alone and tea tree oil which makes it AWESOME for killing this virus.
Day 2: Same amount of pill taking, acyclovir & lysine. Take the patches off in the morning and apply the Quantum lip health Lysine+ ointment multiple times throughout the day. At night, I cleanse my lips of the balm and use hydrogen peroxide to clean the area, dry, and then reapply the Hanhoo soothing hydrocolloid patches at night.
Day 3/4: By this time, you’ll notice the scarring coming off when you remove the patches. Clean with hydrogen peroxide. Then, either replace the patches and put new ones on the whole day or continue to apply the Lysine+ ointment throughout the day. Continue to take lysine pills and acyclovir until the new pink skin is there and you don’t feel the active virus.
Hope this helps at least one person! Let me know of any questions!

Sorry, this is a lot. Please stay with me, as I feel helpless.
Hello, I (28, F) and my husband (29, M) are having some financial issues. We have been together for a little over two years and married for about two months. We have shared our finances for quite a while now. I work 35 hours a week. I have 2 elementary aged children from a previous marriage, so my working hours are dependent on their school. When not at work, I am cooking, cleaning and taking care of the children, it's not leisure time. I earn about a third of what my husband makes. He typically works an average of about 60 hours a week and more if its available.
Living together for over a year, I have always transferred my checks in to our joint account. Our bills are always paid, on time, and we always have what we need as far as food, etc. Although there were a few times he would get payday loans to make it all work. (I despise payday loans)
My problem comes in here. Husband has always had a tendency to buy unnecessary things, strictly because he wants them. The majority of the time this is done by swiping a credit card (he has many) or using some kind of payment service like, Klarna, after pay and PayPal. Sometimes these are Pay-in-4 services (a payment every other week for a total of four payments) or monthly payments for however long plus interest.
I knew that he did this often, but in a "Hey, I bought this today, its only $15.00 a month." I knew they were happening and I knew the monthly amount. I didn't really like it, but since we were not married yet, I didn't feel right telling him what to do with his money. I did however mention to him I felt uncomfortable with how often it was and how many of these payment plans we had scheduled in our monthly line up.
Once we got married, and after expressing my concerns several times, we sat down and did a full layout of every single bill. Not just the payments themselves but total amount due, minimum payments, all of it. I was shocked. The amount he had racked up in payment plans alone was ridiculous. Not to mention the credit card debt he was in.
We currently rent. A year ago we bought a piece of property which we plan to build on in five years time. He has a truck he is still paying on and camper he is selling but that we are holding the title on and still making payments for. I have no debt apart from a children's clothing store card, which i use and pay down to make sure I am always able to provide clothes for my children(usually twice a year at Christmas and back to school.) at a limit of $350.00. I also have a credit card through my bank at a limit of $3,500.00. That is all of my debt.
Not including our property payment, the truck or the camper, we are close to $40,000.00 in debt. less than $4,000.00 of that is mine. Upwards of $35,000.00 in credit card debt. His debt.
If you total all of our debt, we are looking at around $160,000.00.
Ok. Still with me? Here is where the issue comes in.
I sat down on Microsoft Excell and charted out a snow ball plan for all of our debt. from start to finish, we could have everything, including the property we just bought list year, paid off in 35 months. that is less that 3 years. To me, that sounds amazing. He agreed to the snow ball plan. I also asked him if we could budget because we never have.
All we had prior to this was a list of bills due, the amount, and the day they were due. Its been a nightmare but he will not budget because "this is how He's always done it, and he always figures it out." Personally, getting payday loans is not it "working" for him.
Being frustrated, knowing we have the financial means, and knowing there is a solution that would work for us, I asked him " Can I have 2 to 3 months? Please let me try it my way and if you don't like it, we will go back to how you were doing it." He agreed.
So, I had just received my tax return. My plan was to make an "every dollar" budget. i was going to do the envelope system. cash only at stores. lunch money, spending money. I even budgeted clothes, date night, all the way down to our shampoo. I spent HOURS.
My thought was, that i could take my tax return, use it to pay our bills one month ahead (marches bills) and start our envelopes. then any income that we acquired throughout the month of march would be set aside for Aprils bill. We would stay a month ahead, and would have a whole month to meet our goals for next month. opposed to going paycheck to pay check. We would have what we needed, when we needed it. No one would need to feel bad about buying a shirt they needed because we had the money set aside just for that. He agreed to this... until he didn't
He decided he didn't like the idea of the cash envelopes being in the house, even in the safe. he wanted it to stay in the bank. so we decided we would have personally accounts, just for our personal money, a separate saving from the checking and our joint account for bills. the only cards we would carry were our personal. the Joint account cards would stay in the safe. They have not.
the money was supposed to stay in the account until the 1st of the next month. we could see exactly how on track we were. then we would pay all of those bills, and start all over, working towards the next month. This dosnt work for him either. if its in the account, he want to use it to pay bills early. so i never can keep track of it we are on target or not.
Husband helped me figure how much money should go in each spending "account". we decided 60 bucks a week for him to buy lunch was good and I got $25.00 seeing as I mostly eat at home. we wanted to do actual spending money, personal fun money, but because of the amount of small payment plans we have, we couldn't do that right away. So, it understood, that your lunch money was yours to do with as you saw fit.
if you wanted to brown bag it and pack your lunch and save or spend your money on something else, that's your choice....
He gets $240.00 a month in lunch money. In the first week, he had spent his lunch money on a pressure washer, and accessories that he got in payments. lets say $40.00 a month. then some hunting gear, a new gun, and some bullets. all in payments. so this he only had $14.00 left a month.
that's fine. he was within the budget right? if he wanted to pack his lunch for the next 3 months and use his money for something else. fine.
but He's not doing that. he is using his lunch money of fun purchases and them continuing to use the joint bill account for lunch. 90.00 last week alone spent on snacks, coffee and lunch. over not his weekly budget, but his monthly.
I used that tax money, that I could have used to pay of my personal debts and have my sons dental work paid for in full, to get us a month ahead so that we could budget, and it be smooth sailing. now, he has squandered it on CRAP. and I'm left with nothing to show for it and were back to where we started.
HELP! I thought we were on the same page. At this rate we will always be stuck in the same place and will never grow. What do I do? He is a great man, most wonderful I've met. but this is killing me. i feel disrespected in my opinions, i feel disregarded in my feelings, and I'm just angry. it's going to cost me my sanity and the intimacy in our relationship if there is no resolve

The Canadian Armed Forces has recently announced a new pay allowance called CFHD. In para 205.453(4)a it states

(No Entitlement) There is no entitlement to CFHD if any of the following conditions apply:
a. the member is not paying some portion of the rent or the mortgage for their permanent residence;"

As I've paid off my mortgage I will now no longer be eligible for this allowance. Other members doing the same job, same rank, same location, same hours worked, same literally everything else will be making more money than I will for the sole reason that I've paid off my mortgage.
1) Is it legal for an employer to request documentation on an employees rental agreement/lease/mortgage?
2) Is it legal to discriminate based on these grounds?
(not sure if anyone here can answer, but I thought I'd ask.)

I managed to snag a 2 bedroom 2 bathroom apartment for around $1000 a month during a housing crisis in my city. The waitlist is about 2 years and my lease is over in may. I can renew but the apartment has a serious roach problem that's been present since I moved in. I am very clean and organized. If I don't use the kitchen or keep any food in the house it seems to keep the problem at bay. I only eat take out unfortunately. I have tried reporting to land lords and they have pest control spray but nothing seems to change. I also have 2 cats. My boyfriend stays over like 3 nights a week. A friend of mine is having a room open up at his house which I have spent time at before and know they don't have any bug issues, and it's in a nice area, it's about $200 less in rent than what I pay now. I am tempted but I would be moving from a 1000+ sq ft apartment to just a bedroom in someone else's home, and I could only bring 1 cat with me and give the other cat to my mom in another state. I also worry that if I don't get along with my friend as roommates that i will be shit out of luck as a regular apartment in my area costs $1600+ for a studio and $2000+ for a 1 bedroom. I wouldnt be able to have anyone sleep over either, including my partner. I'm scared to let this apartment go because it is income controlled and I am worried I wont qualify again or be able to get back in, but I dont know what to do.

We moved into this house 3 months ago. The previous owners moved in during the 70s. For all that time until it was sold Dec 22 they did very little by way of maintenance.
The issue is the front driveway. There used to be a tree by the adjoining wall. It was pushing against the wall, and you can see where its giving way because of this. The neighbours asked the previous owners son to cut down and kill the tree which he did. At the moment we don't know how long ago but we're trying to find out.
Today the neighbour has said she expects us to pay to have the wall fixed and that as the new owners we take on responsibility for this. I think it's ridiculous because that is not the wall we're responsible for the upkeep of and we had nothing to do with it! Is she correct and we do or is she trying to get someone else to fork out for it as we suspect she's going to list the house this year?

I'm 44 f partner 47 m.together 4 yrs.a few months after getting together I went into recovery for alcoholism.ive binged 3 times in them 4 yrs.currentjy 1 ye sober.each time I took a drink..he left immediately completely ghosted me for 2 weeks ,4 weeks then 7.he once left me intoxified standing in his parents driveway after driving there,took off in his car to get away from me and left me to drive again dangerously .3rd time back together..I have a sister I have not spoke to for years..she's horrible and only speaks bad of me.when I drank she started to contact him though he did not know her and tell him bad stories about me .I asked him to respect my wishes that she was a negative and not to be in touch with her in more than one occasion.4 weeks after getting back together 3 rd time he's acting strange says that he is going to practice but I know he is up to something ..I feel he is going to meet a girl he perhaps met when we broke up.i follow him to find him meet my sister..they sit outside pub together all night and he walks her..she's very drunk .back to my parents.i confronted him next Day .he said they met by accident .huge argument he leaves days he never wanted to get back and dosent love me anymore..I go confront sister.i get home his computer is still on and they are messaging via Facebook on how they lied too me and said they just bumped into each other and bitch about me for a full week before he logs out I can't see anymore.they both continue to msg me lying as they dint know I could see their MSG's .my heart was broke the worst betrayal to me .10 weeks passed he came back promised he would never hurt me again and once I didn't drink he wud never leave.november 22 my dad fall ill and is dying for a week..st Stephan's day I got a feeling my sister and him were in touch..getting home to change my clothes from hosp before returning back to my dying dad..I asked him a quest re my sister he got very mad..that day..he turned his phone off and on the 28th of December when I called to his parents house to tell him my dad was after passing he wouldn't come out said he was hurt needed more time to heal.he tortured me by my dad's death bed disappearing on me when I needed him and now the night he died also.icoukdmt bare to break up and face funeral .I learnt that while I was at hosp with dad he was at home watching porn and women online... something he promised not to do as he has an addiction said he'd stop when I confronted him but he write comments under girls videos 2 weeks later.yrsterday I got a moment of dented self esteem because we were in public and he was checking girl out which is something he does bad and has very little awareness around.he got mad and has pretty much ignored me fir 2 days even though he said he would have patience and understanding around these hurts..I can't trust him..he knows this..I feel he would be unfaithful very easily when he can treat me like he has? Am I over reacting?I feel he has no morals.. loyalty?

In December, when my housemates and I were away for the holidays, our landlord (legally, and with notice) entered our house for a scheduled check. When we came back, many doors had been changed and various work had been done in the house. Some were actual damages that required repairs, most were bullshit money grabs that the landlord is just up-charging us for and likely pocketing the difference.
We have a plan to dispute the bullshit charges but for the actual damages we caused I was wondering: are landlords required to give tenants a notice to get damages fixed themselves before coming in and doing it for a significantly higher cost? I.e the replacement of one door is costing $300+ which is absurd. Had we been given notice that the damages need to be fixed, we would have done so ourselves for much cheaper. Any advice would be appreciated thank you!

Here's the thing guys, my parents have been married for over 20 years. They had one divorce, which lasted for about 2 years because it was not in agreement, my father did not want the divorce. Apart from this, there were two or three more closed divorce cases. At this point, I have cooled off from my father for 2 3 years.
I distanced myself from him when he told me that he cheated on my mother, that he was constantly lying, that he was unreliable, that he kept money even before his family, and that he talked to people differently from behind his back. By the way, my mother is retired and therefore she did not need to put up with my father any more, so she filed a final divorce case, but the judge did not take into account what my mother said and closed the case at the first hearing, since my mother did not hire a lawyer and she wrote the petition (I think it is not the right word) herself. My father did not want a divorce again, and my mother did not demand any alimony or compensation.
While I was putting all my hopes on this lawsuit process, I had a nervous breakdown upon this news and said unspeakable words to my father, I shouted and called. He was also shocked because it was the first time I had reacted like this, so he came home from work right away. After about 2 hours of begging me, my mother kicked him out of the house.
He's threatening to k*ll himself right now and it makes me feel worse than dying with an unbearable emotional pressure, but I really can't live with this man, my mother doesn't want it anyway, but as I said, my heart is stuck now. What do you think I should do, are the decisions I'm making heartless or am I doing it wrong?

This trip took place by myself in my Junior year of high school. I previously had a handful of small acid and mushroom experiences before this. To this day, this was my most intense experience I have ever had. It was a week in the spring when I was home alone that I decided to have a trip. On Thursday, I had bought some acid. They were these thin green gel tabs. My dealer said that while he was taking them off of the sheet, a little bit of another tab ripped off with it, which is why I had an extra third along with the three that I had bought. He also said that it was extremely pure acid. I have no idea how many micrograms they were. I also did not test them, which is something everyone should to do be safe.
I was planning to take them on Friday, the next day. I went to school, and had a normal day, telling some of my friends what I was going to do. I got home, pulled them out of the tin foil, and put them in my mouth. They dissolved almost instantly. Slightly nervous, I thought I would watch some YouTube while I waited. At the time, I did not know anything about meditating, which is what I do now when I have any sort of psychedelic experience. It seems to allow me to get the most out of the experience.
I had a basketball highlight video playing about 20 minutes after I took the acid, and I could already start to feel something. It was a 10 minute video. I started to zone out heavily as it felt like my cognitive function was sharply declining. After what felt like a couple of minutes, I heard the video end. The entire 10 minutes passed without me realizing. Not having understood anything from it, I restarted it. I could not pay attention for the life of me, and the video ended again. I felt surprised at how fast time was going when it only felt like a couple of minutes. I thought to myself that I would restart the video, and if I could not watch it, then I would simply turn my phone off, and let the acid take over, which is what I did. I was laying in my bed, in complete awe of how intense it was coming on. Visuals were starting to appear. There was a shoe on my dresser across from me that I wore for track with a white, red, and black marble pattern. The pattern flowed in a figure 8 pattern through the shoe. I was caught off guard by the intensity of how strong it was coming on.
I snapped out of it, and when I looked at my phone, it said an hour had passed when it felt like 20 minutes. I sat up, with my body feeling like it had been laying there motionless for hours with how stiff my muscles were. I began to feel nauseous and dizzy. I thought I just needed to move around a bit, so I stretched and cracked my back. The back crack pierced my soul with how loud it was and intense it felt. This made the nausea worse. I walked to the bathroom in a daze and threw up once or twice. It was the least unpleasant vomit I had experienced, but it was still uncomfortable. I began to feel better, but I thought that if I were to throw up again, I should just go outside instead of stuck in the bathroom. I stopped feeling nauseous. I got up and my cat started to follow me. I went outside. It was a great day, but it was slightly windy, combined with the cars driving behind my house, made it very overwhelming and loud. I went back inside with my cat following me everywhere, and I was tripped out by it. It was too silent inside. It felt like I could hear everything. I was uncomfortable again. I went back outside. I repeat this again and again for an unknown amount of times until I began to peak.
I found myself outside with my cat who followed me and sat next to me. The sun was beginning to get low in the sky and illuminated him. When I first looked at him, I was scared because he looked so wild. I had as much respect for him as I would the most magnificent being in the world. But then I realized how beautiful he looked. He was radiating energy. His fur was constantly flowing like waves of the ocean, originating from his nose. His fur, illuminated by the sun, was changing colors. As birds flew ahead, his eyes would lock on and follow them as they flew. The way I felt looking at him completely changed the way I see the natural world whenever I remember this.
It was loud again, so I went back inside. I sat looking out my window as the sun set staring at the trees. I began feeling the most intense feeling of love. It was pure bliss. The best I had ever felt. I was radiating love and it felt like it was overflowing out of me. This is when I really wish I had sat, closed my eyes, and delved deep while meditating. With the visuals I was having eyes open, I could not even imagine what it would be like eyes closed. However, I wasn't even thinking about that with how much I was tripping. Everywhere I looked would instantly come alive with beautiful and colorful geometric patterns. Everything popped in my vision. I could see every texture on even the plainest of surfaces. Because I was overflowing with love, I took my shirt off because I did not want to be greedy with the love that I was feeling. I wanted it to be set free into the universe.
Slowly, the intensity started to fade. The love was the first thing to go. I was sad because I did not have anyone to share it with. Also, because it was honestly the best feeling I had ever felt, and I would not mind if I had felt like that forever. That was just the acid talking, but I did wish it lasted longer. The visuals remained for quite a while, but I started to get my mental function back barely. I remember realizing that I had gone to school that day. That thought felt so profound because the idea of normal life felt so alien to me despite it being just a few short hours prior.
My friend just got off work, and wanted to see how I was doing. He came over during the come down, but I still could not function. I did not know how to act with someone who had not just had a mind-bending experience. He thought we should smoke. I did not want to, but I would gladly share. It was the least I could do for having him accompanying me. I went to go get the weed in my room. Apparently, I got distracted and took forever, so my friend asked what I was doing and that made me laugh because I realized how funny this social interaction was. I grabbed the jars and walked out into the living room where he was, not knowing what to do now as I just stared at them in my hands. He grabbed them thankfully because I did not know what to do. We went outside and he smoked. He wanted to ask how the trip was, but he clearly saw that I was still tripping hard. He would say something, but it sounded like gibberish to me. I would say "huh"? Then I would start laughing, making me unable to hear what he repeated, so I would say "huh"? again. This happened a couple of times. Even while not laughing I could not understand him. He could barely understand me as well. He could not really interact with me at all. He eventually left.
I do not remember the rest of the night. It took me weeks to figure out what happened chronologically. What I took away from the experience was that I should not take life or myself so seriously. The trip humbled me and I got to taste the most potent injection of bliss. But, at the same time, I did not want to trip or do anything that could change the state of my mind even a little. Despite me describing it as the best feeling I had ever felt, I did not crave it. It felt better than things that cause addiction and it made me not want to do those same things. Even a little caffeine turned me off. On Monday, one of my teachers asked me while I was turning something in if anything changed because I seemed like I was doing really well. Not that I hadn't before, but I was always a little quiet and uptight in my young teenage years. I was more social and carefree afterwards. Now, I only think about the trip occasionally. I still think that it had changed me for the better though.