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Dear Shea: I know you probably don't remember me at all, or if you do, maybe it's hazy. I'm not sure how I ranked to you in order of importance. It's been a long time since UTC, which I guess makes this worse, because I'm still sentimental over this.
Basically, I wanted to say I still remember you. I wish I could say this to you personally, but you were the only person who was kind to me at a time when I had no one. My relationship was falling apart, I was in an abusive, destructive household, "friends" had abandoned me- so many times before class I had been crying in my car, but I came anyway just because I looked forward to seeing you because you were so nice to me, and I don't really know why.
And that sort of leads me to my fuck-up, or as I perceive it anyway. Readers, I did something very horribly stupid.
It was nearing the cut-off for dropping, and I imagine he had higher-level priorities because he stopped coming to the class as regularly, so during a presentation, I sort of noticed his email address on a slide. I thought we were good enough friends at this point that I could explain my motivations after or How or whatever, but, um I was wrong.. lol... I know now, looking back, it's pretty bad firm to email someone out of the blue, but my my internal justification was "I'm losing everybody I care about right now, I don't want to lose him to", and I don't remember exactly what I said, but it was to that effect.
Keep in mind, I hadn't told him what was going on with me, so, out of the blue, I'm sure I made things weird and hastened his exit and fulfilling the very thing I dreaded.
I was so dumb. I wish I HAD trusted him with everything that was going on; maybe he would've been supportive. I was afraid he wouldn't "want to be friends with the sad girl" but that's an unfair thing to project onto someone. I haven't met anyone like him since. He's kind and creative and intelligent. I've never met an irl person before whom I could talk to about my niche interests in spirituality and magick and the demiurge, for example lol
I know we're probably different people now, and I'm sure my actions aren't the SOLE reason he dropped the class, but I -did- get blocked on Facebook (yes I checked, yes we're millenials), and that really really really freaking hurt.
I'm sorry, Shea, for making things weird, for not explaining everything, and if, god help me, you somehow see this, I'm sorry for that too, but I do mean everything. I wish I could explain everything in person to you, my stupid conscience has held onto the guilt for so long. I know "maybe in the next life", but who wants to wait that long?
Anyway, thank you to anyone/everyone who read this far, I know it's not a Spicy Scandal, but it means a lot to my dumb little heart. Don't take people for granted, guys. Always be honest with your loved ones. If you care about someone, let them know. The world is lonely enough as it is without pushing others away. *

Prayer Dear Lord, Thank you for this time together. Thank you for being with us as we read and study your word. Please speak into the hearts of each who come here each day to read your word. The world has a lot of trouble these days; violence and wars, wildfires and storms; pollution, diseases, addictions, worry for our loved ones, and loneliness. Thank you for coming into our world to be with us in our troubles, and to help us through them. Please do help each of us here, and all in need. In Jesus' name we ask this. Amen!

John 4:46-54, New International Version

⁴⁶ Once more he visited Cana in Galilee, where he had turned the water into wine. And there was a certain royal official whose son lay sick at Capernaum. ⁴⁷ When this man heard that Jesus had arrived in Galilee from Judea, he went to him and begged him to come and heal his son, who was close to death.
⁴⁸ “Unless you people see signs and wonders,” Jesus told him, “you will never believe.”
⁴⁹ The royal official said, “Sir, come down before my child dies.”
⁵⁰ “Go,” Jesus replied, “your son will live.”
The man took Jesus at his word and departed. ⁵¹ While he was still on the way, his servants met him with the news that his boy was living. ⁵² When he inquired as to the time when his son got better, they said to him, “Yesterday, at one in the afternoon, the fever left him.”
⁵³ Then the father realized that this was the exact time at which Jesus had said to him, “Your son will live.” So he and his whole household believed.
⁵⁴ This was the second sign Jesus performed after coming from Judea to Galilee.
THOUGHTS and COMMENTS
This is a story of belief: of faith, of trust. Can the man trust Jesus? Can we?
The distance from Cana to Capernaum is about 26.5 kilometers, or nearly 16.5 miles. The man, hearing that Jesus is back from Judea and fearing for his son's life, makes the trek, finally finding Jesus in Cana.
Jesus' response seems to be testing the man, even in his distress. It is almost as though Jesus is saying, "Can you trust me without me showing you a miracle right now?" The man replies, "Anyway Sir, please hurry up and come with me." And so the challenge comes: "Go. Your son will live."
QUESTIONS

1. How do you picture the man responding? Does he turn and go immediately, or does he first start to say something, recall what Jesus has just challenged him with about belief, and then go? Having gone, what kinds of feelings was he experiencing as he began the long journey back, spending one night without yet hearing the results?
   
2. How do you think you would have responded?
   
3. Have you ever felt like God has challenged you to trust Him for something you've asked for, sight unseen, which was at that point yet to come?
   

Feel free to leave any thoughts, comments, or questions of your own!
Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. Hebrews 11:1, New American Standard Bible 1995

God is a trinity
God the father God the son God the holy spirit
God the father:
Genesis 1:26 / Then God said, “Let us make mankind in our image, in our likeness, so that they may rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky, over the livestock and all the wild animals, and over all the creatures that move along the ground.
John 14:28 / You have heard Me say to you, ‘I (Jesus) am going away and coming back to you.’ If you loved Me, you would rejoice because I said, ‘I am going to the Father,’ for My Father is greater than I.
Matthew 24:36 / But of that day and hour no one knows, not even the angels of heaven, but My Father only.
God the holy spirit:
Genesis 1:2 / The earth was without form, and void; and darkness was on the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters.
John 14:26 / But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have told you.
John 16:13 / However, when He, the Spirit of truth, has come, He will guide you into all truth; for He will not speak on His own authority, but whatever He hears He will speak; and He will tell you things to come.
God the Son:
John 1:2-5 / In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God. All things were made through Him, and without Him nothing was made that was made. In Him was life, and the life was the light of men. And the light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not comprehend it.
John 1:14 / And the Word became flesh and dwelt among us, and we beheld His glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father, full of grace and truth
John 8:58 / Jesus said to them, “Most assuredly, I say to you, before Abraham was, I AM.”
Revelation 1:18 / I am He who lives, and was dead, and behold, I am alive forevermore. Amen. And I have the keys of Hades and of Death.
God is good:
1 Chronicles 16:34 / Oh, give thanks to the Lord, for He is good! For His mercy endures forever.
God is holy:
Psalm 97:12 / Be glad in the Lord, you righteous ones, And give thanks to His holy name.
God's love:
John 3:16 / For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.
God's justice:
2 Corinthians 5:10 / For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ, that each one may receive the things done in the body, according to what he has done, whether good or bad.
God is righteous:
Psalm 119:137 / Righteous are You, O Lord, and upright are Your judgments.
How to enter heaven:

1. Believe in the trinity
2. Believe Jesus Christ died for your sins on the cross
3. Believe Jesus Christ was raised from the dead 3 days later
4. Do not follow your own desires
5. Put on the armour of God
6. Resist the devil and he will flee
7. Follow God's commandments
8. Repent of your sins
9. Pray to God
10. Ask for forgiveness from God

1 John 2:3-6 / When we obey God, we are sure we know him. But if we claim to know him and don't obey him, we are lying and the truth isn't in our hearts. We truly love God only when we obey him as we should, and then we know we belong to him. If we say we are his, we must follow the example of Christ.
We are all sinners but through Jesus we can find everlasting life.
Repent and turn from your old ways. Sin escalates and gets worse without regret.
Sin is not allowed in heaven so bind and resist sin on earth.
Matthew 18:18 / I assure you and most solemnly say to you, whatever you bind [forbid, declare to be improper and unlawful] on earth shall have [already] been bound in heaven, and whatever you loose [permit, declare lawful] on earth shall have [already] been loosed in heaven.
We can receive forgiveness and mercy for our sins through God the son, Jesus Christ our lord and saviour.
Forgiveness is available to everyone, even those who have made the same mistakes many times. However repentance is needed from you. Jesus will show you the right way but you still have a choice to follow or not.
How to resist the devil:
The armor of God represents the defense we must take in our spiritual lives. The Bible tells us that we are fighting a war against Satan, who seeks to destroy us. Therefore, we must take action and put on God's armor. As Christians, it is important for us to understand the severity of this battle.
Armor of God

1. the belt of truth - honesty
2. the breastplate of righteousness - do the right thing
3. the shoes of the gospel of peace - remain calm and collected
4. the shield of faith - trust God
5. the helmet of salvation - accept Jesus Christ is my lord and savior.
6. The sword of the Spirit - use and know the word of God

GOOD FRUITS OF THE SPIRIT:
Galatians 5:22-23 / But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law.
Matthew 6:14 / For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you don't forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.
Luke 6:36-38 / Therefore be merciful, just as your Father also is merciful. “Judge not, and you shall not be judged. Condemn not, and you shall not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven. Give, and it will be given to you: good measure, pressed down, shaken together, and running over will be put into your bosom. For with the same measure that you use, it will be measured back to you.
Matthew 22:37-39 / Jesus says, “You shall love the Lord, your God, with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind. This is the greatest and the first commandment. The second is like it: You shall love your neighbor as yourself.
1 Peter 4:8 / And above all things have fervent love for one another, for “love will cover a multitude of sins
John 14:21 / Whoever has My commandments and keeps them is the one who loves Me. The one who loves Me will be loved by My Father, and I will love him and reveal Myself to him.”
SINS:
The 10 Commandments:

1. You shall have no other God's before me.
2. Thou shalt not make unto thee any graven images.
3. Thou shalt not take the name of the Lord thy God in vain.
4. Remember the Sabbath day and keep it Holy.
5. Honor your father and mother.
6. Thou shalt not kill.
7. Thou shalt not commit adultery.
8. Thou shalt not steal.
9. Thou shall not bear false witness.
10. You shall not covet.

The seven deadly sins are:

1. lust
2. gluttony
3. greed
4. laziness
5. wrath
6. envy
7. pride

Proverbs 6:16-19 / These six things doth the Lord hate: yea, seven are an abomination unto him: A proud look, a lying tongue, and hands that shed innocent blood, An heart that deviseth wicked imaginations, feet that be swift in running to mischief, A false witness that speaketh lies, and he that soweth discord among brethren.
Matthew 5:27-28 / You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall not commit adultery.’ But I say to you that everyone who looks at a woman with lustful intent has already committed adultery with her in his heart.
James 4:17 / So whoever knows the right thing to do and fails to do it, for him it is sin
Colossians 3:5-6 / Put to death therefore what is earthly in you: sexual immorality, impurity, passion, evil desire, and covetousness, which is idolatry. On account of these the wrath of God is coming.
Galatians 5:19-21 / Now the works of the flesh are evident: sexual immorality, impurity, sensuality, idolatry, sorcery, enmity (hostility), strife (conflict), jealousy, fits of anger, rivalries, dissensions (disagreement), divisions, envy, drunkenness, orgies, and things like these. I warn you, as I warned you before, that those who do such things will not inherit the kingdom of God.
Galatians 5:19-21 / Now the works of the flesh are evident: sexual immorality, impurity, sensuality (sexual pleasure), idolatry, sorcery, enmity (hostility), strife (conflict), jealousy, fits of anger, rivalries, dissensions (disagreements), divisions, envy, drunkenness, orgies, and things like these. I warn you, as I warned you before, that those who do such things will not inherit the kingdom of God.
Any miracles done that is not from God is from the devil. The devil is deceitful and will hide his sorcery in false doctrines. Do not be deceived and be led astray because this is done by the devil to hide the truth.
1 John 3:15 / Everyone who hates his brother is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has eternal life abiding in him.
CONSEQUENCES OF SIN:
James 1:12-16 / Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him. Let no one say when he is tempted, “I am being tempted by God,” for God cannot be tempted with evil, and he himself tempts no one. But each person is tempted when he is lured and enticed by his own desire. Then desire when it has conceived gives birth to sin, and SIN WHEN IT IS FULLY GROWN BRINGS FORTH DEATH. Do not be deceived, my beloved brothers
Hebrews 3:12-14 / Take care, brothers, lest there be in any of you an EVIL, unbelieving heart, LEADING YOU TO FALL AWAY FROM THE LIVING GOD. But exhort (strongly encourage) one another every day, as long as it is called “today,” that none of you may be HARDENED BY THE DECEITFULNESS OF SIN. For we have come to share in Christ, if indeed we hold our original confidence firm to the end.
1 Peter 3:12 / For the eyes of the Lord are on the righteous, and His ears are open to their prayers but the face of the Lord is against those who do evil.
Matthew 5:30 / And if your right hand causes you to sin, cut it off and cast it from you; for it is more profitable for you that one of your members perish, than for your whole body to be cast into hell.
Proverbs 9:10 - The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom, And the knowledge of the Holy One is understanding.
SAVED BY FAITH:
Matthew 7:21-23 / Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of My Father in heaven. Many will say to Me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in Your name, and in Your name drive out demons and perform many miracles?’ Then I will tell them plainly, ‘I never knew you; depart from Me, you workers of lawlessness!’
Ephesians 2:8 -10 = For by grace you are saved through faith, and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God; not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are his workmanship, having been created in Christ Jesus for good works that God prepared beforehand SO WE MAY DO THEM.
James 2:17 = So too, faith by itself, if it does not result in action, is dead
James 2:21-22 / Was not our father Abraham justified by what he did when he offered his son Isaac on the altar? You see that his faith was working with his actions, and his faith was perfected by what he did.
My conclusion on faith:
We are saved by faith in the trinity. Works are there to strengthen your faith. Sin weakens your faith until it dies.
Reasons for evil:
Isaiah 45:7 / I form the light and create darkness, I make peace and create calamity; I, the Lord, do all these things
You have free will to choose to be good or evil. God allows you to choose even if he knows what you will choose. If he doesn't allow evil people to exist he cannot give free will to man or he cannot let man be created. If man has no free will then we can no longer call ourselves human being as we would be something else. If we are not created by God he cannot save his lost sheep born into a world of good and evil where the ground is cured and weeds grow amongst the wheat.
Hell was created for the fallen angels but also because evil people exist. Evil people cannot escape justice so God created a place of torment for them. This place is for people who disobey God and refuse to serve him.
Matthew 13: 37-39 / He answered and said unto them, He that soweth the good seed is the Son of man; The field is the world; the good seed are the children of the kingdom; but the tares are the children of the wicked one; The enemy that sowed them is the devil; the harvest is the end of the world; and the reapers are the angels.
God needs cursed ground to sow the seeds of sinners. God has rules which he also follows, he does not just do as he wants. The devil can sow his own seeds as well. The devil's seeds/children can also be saved.
Zechariah 3 1-4 = Then he showed me Joshua the high priest standing before the angel of the LORD, and Satan standing at his right side to accuse him. The LORD said to Satan, "The LORD rebuke you, Satan! The LORD, who has chosen Jerusalem, rebuke you! Is not this man a burning stick snatched from the fire?" Now Joshua was dressed in filthy clothes as he stood before the angel. The angel said to those who were standing before him, "Take off his filthy clothes." Then he said to Joshua, "See, I have taken away your sin, and I will put rich garments on you."
The devil is making mistakes as you can see from the verse above. Weeds can also be saved.
These sinners can be saved by faith in God the son. We are all black sheep which God is coming to find.
The reason for life:
You have free will but God also told you not to sin. Therefore you can ignore God's will and do as you please or you can obey God and do his will.
When you die or come to the end of your life on earth God will tell you who you are. Only God can define you. God loves you and wants to bless you too. Your blessings depends on what you did during your life on earth.
The bible is God's word.
2 Timothy 3:16-17 / All Scripture is breathed out by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, and for training in righteousness, that the man of God may be complete, equipped for every good work.

I've used the tool for locating a Blood Cancer Center of Excellence and found 2 in Colorado. However, neither have a multiple myeloma specialist. I cannot figure out how to find one. The centers seem to be easily found using the tool. But that doesn't help with finding the MM specialist.
I went to my first appointment with the Denver Blood Cancer Institute this week. I live in Central Wyoming so it's a 5 hour drive there and back. I wasn't impressed and have little confidence in the provider who met with us. I agree with the assessment (IgA Mugus) however so it's not that I was looking for more or less. It's his inability to listen and how difficult it is to navigate the place. It almost looked like they were nott even open for business - sort of creepy! So really trying to get this right from the start so I can follow with someone over time. Thanks for reading 🌷

Hi! I'll start with my basics, I'm looking for an experienced and very detailed roleplayer who can match my level and how much interest I put in roleplaying. There's a LOT of world building involved with this, just to warn. I've been roleplaying for 7+ years, I love fantasy heavy plots and I LOVE world building.
I don't have plot limits to roleplay besides major character de*th, but if you do express them to me clearly to me and when roleplaying, if you find yourself uncomfortable tell me to stop what I'm doing wrong please. I usually write around advanced literate but I can go even longer if I get super into it, otherwise I really do try to match my partners length. Im okay with anything from the shorter end of semi-lit to longer end of adv-lit. I am in the GMT+1 time zone and am not in the position where I absolutely cannot respond very often, so i respond generally consistently and atleast a few times a day. !! I write in third person only and do so on discord. !!
So, the OC I'd like to use is;

Name: Azura Galadriel
Age: 30
Height: 6'0, 6'3 with her heels
Species: Witch
Familiar & Weapon: Owl, Dagger carried on her left hip.
Physical appearance: She has light brown hair that's thick and goes down to her hips, big green eyes, large pointed elf like ears with gold jewelry in them, tan skin and generally slim body. She wears a large variety of clothing, but usually white long dresses and heels, if it's cold she'll wear a cape. Her fingers and neck are always adorned with golden jewelery, her arms, legs and back are tattooed with white ink, creating intricate patterns all along her arms and hands. These tattoos glow when she is preforming magic. with She tends to look very angelic.
Personality/Background: She's the shy and soft type, her voice deep and soothing and mannerisms non-threatening. She makes an effort to keep personal matters to herself and is typically selective about who she lets into her life and heart. She's responsible, logical, reliable and very maternal, children and young adults alike tend to take her on as a mother figure. She's the polar opposite of impulsive, and really keeps impulsive people in line and grounded. She has a kind nature about her regarding people she trusts and loves, but she can dismissive when people upset heshe generally dislikes that person or she's just upset in general.
She grew up in a wealthy household with two parents, her mother was an extremely powerful witch known for her powerful healing spells and ability to cure most if not all disease and illness, and her father was the kingdoms medicine man who was accompanied by her mother. They only planned to have one child in their mid 40's, and that was Azura. Azura didn't get the upmost attention and love from her parents as a child as they were very busy with their work, leading her to become extremely self sufficient and develop an ability to handle herself, finances and time management extremely well at a young age.
She was very quickly noticed for her extremely powerful magic as a young child, and as she got older she became the most powerful witch in the kingdom, even more powerful than both of her parents. Instead of using this power for the wrong reasons, with her pure heart of gold, she followed her parents path and became the kingdoms most trusted medicine woman after her parents passed on. Her magic mostly plays off of herbs and potions to heal, and dancing, music and coordinated movement is very important for her magic.

Here's basics of the world and the plot:

This world is called Dhartī, and the Kingdom this takes place in is named The Kingdom of Prithvi. Prithvi is the Main Kingdom of this world, think the British Colonies of Dhartī. The rulers of Prithvi are widely feared and disliked, even by the people closest to them. Many creatures exist in this world, witches, orcs, elves, faeries, humans, goat people, etc. (I would prefer if you would keep your OC either a human or witch, though.)
The plot is a long lost lover plot, Involving a powerful witch who is very important to the Kingdom of Prithvi, my OC. As an 18 year old, she would travel to a far away village named SurakDeva to treat a new, unknown illness with her father as part of her training. Upon arriving, she would meet a boy. She ended up staying for two years, completely falling in love with this boy and spending most moments when she wasn't taking care of people with him. Her father found it cute but, they had to leave eventually. Once the disease died out, they had a very tearful goodbye, and she left back to the kingdom, never to see each other again.
10 years later, the very same boy, now a man she had fallen so deeply in love appeared in Prithvi in need of healing.

Things can be changed when we discuss more together, but thats the premise of what I'd like to do. That being said, if you're interested, message me just general info on ur OC and how you'd like to write this. I won't respond to 'hi' or anything, and I'd REALLY prefer you don't be flimsy about your OC, it can get frustrating. At the least, I'd appreciate a little self introduction! Thank you for reading if you got this far lol.

Hi! I'll start with my basics, I'm looking for an experienced and very detailed roleplayer who can match my level and how much interest I put in roleplaying. There's a LOT of world building involved with this, just to warn. I've been roleplaying for 7+ years, I love fantasy heavy plots and I LOVE world building.
I don't have plot limits to roleplay besides major character de*th, but if you do express them to me clearly to me and when roleplaying, if you find yourself uncomfortable tell me to stop what I'm doing wrong please. I usually write around advanced literate but I can go even longer if I get super into it, otherwise I really do try to match my partners length. Im okay with anything from the shorter end of semi-lit to longer end of adv-lit. I am in the GMT+1 time zone and am not in the position where I absolutely cannot respond very often, so i respond generally consistently and atleast a few times a day. !! I write in third person only and do so on discord. !!
So, the OC I'd like to use is;

Name: Azura Galadriel
Age: 30
Height: 6'0, 6'3 with her heels
Species: Witch
Familiar & Weapon: Owl, Dagger carried on her left hip.
Physical appearance: She has light brown hair that's thick and goes down to her hips, big green eyes, large pointed elf like ears with gold jewelry in them, tan skin and generally slim body. She wears a large variety of clothing, but usually white long dresses and heels, if it's cold she'll wear a cape. Her fingers and neck are always adorned with golden jewelery, her arms, legs and back are tattooed with white ink, creating intricate patterns all along her arms and hands. These tattoos glow when she is preforming magic. with She tends to look very angelic.
Personality/Background: She's the shy and soft type, her voice deep and soothing and mannerisms non-threatening. She makes an effort to keep personal matters to herself and is typically selective about who she lets into her life and heart. She's responsible, logical, reliable and very maternal, children and young adults alike tend to take her on as a mother figure. She's the polar opposite of impulsive, and really keeps impulsive people in line and grounded. She has a kind nature about her regarding people she trusts and loves, but she can dismissive when people upset heshe generally dislikes that person or she's just upset in general.
She grew up in a wealthy household with two parents, her mother was an extremely powerful witch known for her powerful healing spells and ability to cure most if not all disease and illness, and her father was the kingdoms medicine man who was accompanied by her mother. They only planned to have one child in their mid 40's, and that was Azura. Azura didn't get the upmost attention and love from her parents as a child as they were very busy with their work, leading her to become extremely self sufficient and develop an ability to handle herself, finances and time management extremely well at a young age.
She was very quickly noticed for her extremely powerful magic as a young child, and as she got older she became the most powerful witch in the kingdom, even more powerful than both of her parents. Instead of using this power for the wrong reasons, with her pure heart of gold, she followed her parents path and became the kingdoms most trusted medicine woman after her parents passed on. Her magic mostly plays off of herbs and potions to heal, and dancing, music and coordinated movement is very important for her magic.

Here's basics of the world and the plot:

This world is called Dhartī, and the Kingdom this takes place in is named The Kingdom of Prithvi. Prithvi is the Main Kingdom of this world, think the British Colonies of Dhartī. The rulers of Prithvi are widely feared and disliked, even by the people closest to them. Many creatures exist in this world, witches, orcs, elves, faeries, humans, goat people, etc. (I would prefer if you would keep your OC either a human or witch, though.)
The plot is a long lost lover plot, Involving a powerful witch who is very important to the Kingdom of Prithvi, my OC. As an 18 year old, she would travel to a far away village named SurakDeva to treat a new, unknown illness with her father as part of her training. Upon arriving, she would meet a boy. She ended up staying for two years, completely falling in love with this boy and spending most moments when she wasn't taking care of people with him. Her father found it cute but, they had to leave eventually. Once the disease died out, they had a very tearful goodbye, and she left back to the kingdom, never to see each other again.
10 years later, the very same boy, now a man she had fallen so deeply in love appeared in Prithvi in need of healing.

Things can be changed when we discuss more together, but thats the premise of what I'd like to do. That being said, if you're interested, message me just general info on ur OC and how you'd like to write this. I won't respond to 'hi' or anything, and I'd REALLY prefer you don't be flimsy about your OC, it can get frustrating. At the least, I'd appreciate a little self introduction! Thank you for reading if you got this far lol.

For me, my commonwealth looks like an early iteration of NCR; a group of settlements agreeing to cooperate in the interest of their own defense. All of the settlements are under the Minutemen flag with a small detachment of militiamen (in armor and gear gracefully donated by the gunners, may they rest in peace) assigned to defend each settlement and operate defense emplacements.
The Castle serves as a new Capitol, housing the largest number of active militia members and the new Commonwealth Congressional Hall. Preston serves as Acting General and Handcock serving as my Vice-President to help ensure any decisions are made with the people's best interest at heart. Curie is the new Secretary of Public Health, teaching a new generation of doctors to better serve their burgeoning communities.
Deacon has disappeared, no doubt resuming his previous spy games. We do however get the occasional postcard, so he must be doing well.
Entireties have been made to the Railroad to attempt to create an official partnership, but thus far that front has come up lacking. They have however agreed to peacefully coexist with the new Minutemen Federation and to provide technology to assist in field operations. In exchange, the Minutemen honor the promise that the Railroad's stronghold at the Old North Church be kept a secret and their synth-aiding operation remains undisturbed. They can often be seen aiding those left alone in the wake of the Institute's destruction.
The Brotherhood of Steel is, in essence, neutered. Their sphere of influence has shrank back to the Boston Airport. They can be seen marching about and barking orders at their troops, but most if not all settlements ignore them for the most part. However, a tense standoff occurred when brotherhood operatives arrived at Nordhagen Beach, demanding "tribute" from the local farmers. They retreated when over a dozen Militiamen arrived with anti-power armor weapons, kindly donated by the operatives from the Railroad. Relations have since been tense, but an embassy has been established in a lot just outside the BOS Boston Airport perimeter to maintain peaceful relations.
Still, the Castle's heavy ordinance remains trained on the Prydwen in case Elder Maxon forgets that the Commonwealth is not a fiefdom for him to lord over uncontested. We will be watching them carefully.
Sanctuary Hills is the new economic center of the Federation and the second most defended settlement outside of the Castle. The community continues to thrive under the enlightened leadership of Mayor Codsworth, whose cheery demeanor and desire to be of assistance has made him a beloved figure among his constituents.
After no small amount of convincing, former Brotherhood of Steel Paladin, Danse, has agreed to assume leadership of the Minutemen's new Armored Division. He proudly patrols the Commonwealth, ensuring any local raider gangs or gunner remnants are little more than ash piles. He has also begrudgingly accepted Sergeant MacCready as leader of his support infantry. The two are often seen butting heads, but they get the job done.
Nick Valentine and Piper Wright remain residents of Diamond City, helping those who need helping and, in Piper's case, stirring up outrage wherever she sees fit. Dogmeat resides with her in her office and remains the goodest of good boys.
Cait, having no interest in public service, has taken on contract work for the Minutemen. To date, she has collected bounties on over a dozen of the Commonwealth's most notorious raider bosses and has left a string of broken hearts behind her.
As for the Sole Survivor, he still serves as Chief of State. He does still serve in the field from time to time, but to a much reduced degree or in a suit of Power Armor at the insistence of Preston Garvey. He lives happily with Piper, becoming a second father to her younger sister and living a happy life.
War never changes, but I like to think the people of the Commonwealth have.

Hi! I'll start with my basics, I'm looking for an experienced and very detailed roleplayer who can match my level and how much interest I put in roleplaying. There's a LOT of world building involved with this, just to warn. I've been roleplaying for 7+ years, I love fantasy heavy plots and I LOVE world building.
I don't have plot limits to roleplay besides major character de*th, but if you do express them to me clearly to me and when roleplaying, if you find yourself uncomfortable tell me to stop what I'm doing wrong please. I usually write around advanced literate but I can go even longer if I get super into it, otherwise I really do try to match my partners length. Im okay with anything from the shorter end of semi-lit to longer end of adv-lit. I am in the GMT+1 time zone and am not in the position where I absolutely cannot respond very often, so i respond generally consistently and atleast a few times a day. !! I write in third person only and do so on discord. !!
So, the OC I'd like to use is;

Name: Azura Galadriel
Age: 30
Height: 6'0, 6'3 with her heels
Species: Witch
Familiar & Weapon: Owl, Dagger carried on her left hip.
Physical appearance: She has light brown hair that's thick and goes down to her hips, big green eyes, large pointed elf like ears with gold jewelry in them, tan skin and generally slim body. She wears a large variety of clothing, but usually white long dresses and heels, if it's cold she'll wear a cape. Her fingers and neck are always adorned with golden jewelery, her arms, legs and back are tattooed with white ink, creating intricate patterns all along her arms and hands. These tattoos glow when she is preforming magic. with She tends to look very angelic.
Personality/Background: She's the shy and soft type, her voice deep and soothing and mannerisms non-threatening. She makes an effort to keep personal matters to herself and is typically selective about who she lets into her life and heart. She's responsible, logical, reliable and very maternal, children and young adults alike tend to take her on as a mother figure. She's the polar opposite of impulsive, and really keeps impulsive people in line and grounded. She has a kind nature about her regarding people she trusts and loves, but she can dismissive when people upset heshe generally dislikes that person or she's just upset in general.
She grew up in a wealthy household with two parents, her mother was an extremely powerful witch known for her powerful healing spells and ability to cure most if not all disease and illness, and her father was the kingdoms medicine man who was accompanied by her mother. They only planned to have one child in their mid 40's, and that was Azura. Azura didn't get the upmost attention and love from her parents as a child as they were very busy with their work, leading her to become extremely self sufficient and develop an ability to handle herself, finances and time management extremely well at a young age.
She was very quickly noticed for her extremely powerful magic as a young child, and as she got older she became the most powerful witch in the kingdom, even more powerful than both of her parents. Instead of using this power for the wrong reasons, with her pure heart of gold, she followed her parents path and became the kingdoms most trusted medicine woman after her parents passed on. Her magic mostly plays off of herbs and potions to heal, and dancing, music and coordinated movement is very important for her magic.

Here's basics of the world and the plot:

This world is called Dhartī, and the Kingdom this takes place in is named The Kingdom of Prithvi. Prithvi is the Main Kingdom of this world, think the British Colonies of Dhartī. The rulers of Prithvi are widely feared and disliked, even by the people closest to them. Many creatures exist in this world, witches, orcs, elves, faeries, humans, goat people, etc. (I would prefer if you would keep your OC either a human or witch, though.)
The plot is a long lost lover plot, Involving a powerful witch who is very important to the Kingdom of Prithvi, my OC. As an 18 year old, she would travel to a far away village named SurakDeva to treat a new, unknown illness with her father as part of her training. Upon arriving, she would meet a boy. She ended up staying for two years, completely falling in love with this boy and spending most moments when she wasn't taking care of people with him. Her father found it cute but, they had to leave eventually. Once the disease died out, they had a very tearful goodbye, and she left back to the kingdom, never to see each other again.
10 years later, the very same boy, now a man she had fallen so deeply in love appeared in Prithvi in need of healing.

Things can be changed when we discuss more together, but thats the premise of what I'd like to do. That being said, if you're interested, message me just general info on ur OC and how you'd like to write this. I won't respond to 'hi' or anything, and I'd REALLY prefer you don't be flimsy about your OC, it can get frustrating. At the least, I'd appreciate a little self introduction! Thank you for reading if you got this far lol.

Source: Growing Up in the Lord: A Study for Teenage Boys (Ch. 7, 1994)
If you haven’t done so already, you will soon decide to take a girl out on a date. Dating a girl is a good time to enjoy the companionship of someone else. Women have a different perspective on life.
When you take different girls out on a date, you have a chance to see who is available. You also have a chance to firm up in your own mind what you will be looking for in a wife. Most boys go through a phase where they cannot stand any girl, except mothers who are tolerated within limits. When these boys reach adolescence, they quickly realize that girls can be interesting.
Taking a girl out on a date gives you a chance to practice getting along with women. Girls do not enjoy being treated the same way you treat other boys. The time you spend dating gives you a chance to learn how to act around a girl.
You need to be choosy about whom you will be going out with. Some girls will understand that, because you are a Christian, there are certain things that you will not do. Many girls will enjoy the fact that they don’t have to be constantly on their guard while they are with you. However, there are girls who will use every opportunity they can find to try to get you to do things that are sinful. It is a challenge for them to see how far they can get you to go. For your own soul’s sake, you are better off not dating such a girl. David warns us, in Psalms 1:1, not to associate with sinners. By continually exposing yourself to sin, you are tempted to commit a sin. That is why Paul said evil companions will corrupt your good morals (I Corinthians 15:33).
Group dates are a good way to start out dating when you are young. If you pick your companions wisely, there will be fewer temptations in your way. A group gives you a chance to get acquainted with several people at once. You can also observe how the other guys treat their dates. Perhaps your first date won’t be so awkward when it is shared with others. Some good outings with a group may be to go bowling, play a few rounds of putt-putt golf, go canoeing, have a picnic and play softball or volleyball, or gather a group of young people together after church to eat ice cream.
Before you head out, spend some time thinking about what you will talk about during your date. In our society, boys tend to think and talk in terms of actions. Girls tend to think and talk about feelings. For example, if a boy and a girl were talking about an Olympic event, the boy would be interested in the score and the types of moves the athlete made. The girl would be interested in how the athlete was handling the stress and the athlete’s reaction to the scoring. Neither viewpoint is good or bad. They are just different. It is those differences that make conversation on your first date so difficult. Spend some time thinking about what you would like to know about this girl you are dating.
One day, all too soon, you will begin dating to find someone suitable to be your lifetime companion. If you want a companion, you must learn to be companionable. Talk about your interests and find out about hers. Do you enjoy similar things? If the two of you don’t have anything to talk about, what would marriage to such a person be like?
Make plans for the evening in advance and let your parents know where you expect to be. I know that many of you would rather keep your plans between you and your girlfriend, but you never know when an emergency may come up. Telling your parents also gives you a chance to see if your plans are respectable and appropriate. If you are too embarrassed to tell your folks, then perhaps you are planning something that a Christian ought not to do. Continue to carefully examine your motives.
Once you are out on your date, avoid changing your plans at the last minute. Don’t let your emotions lead you to making a little detour to a quiet place where you can be alone with your girlfriend. It is a great temptation to go too far when there is no one around to see what you are doing. Don’t go parking in the dark. Even if the first few times you don’t do anything shameful, it is continually tempting to go a little farther and to get a little closer. If you want time to talk, find a well-lighted place with other people around. It will encourage you to act respectfully. Finally, don’t spend time at your house or hers when no one else is around. Many boys and girls find their own home comfortable and safe, so they relax their guard and do things they would not do in public. Most teenage pregnancies come about because a boy and a girl had sex at home. Somehow, people convince themselves there is no harm done if no one will see them. Don’t let Satan fool you!
In a few years, one person that you have dated will stand out among the others. You will find yourself going out with her more often than anyone else. You may even decide to stop dating anyone else. Dating only one person is called “going steady.” Going steady with a girl for a while is a logical step before asking her the big question. It gives you a little more time to finally decide if this is really the person you want to spend the rest of your life with. Just don’t rush into it too soon. You can’t make a good decision if you only dated one person your whole life. There are plenty of years ahead of you, so don’t limit yourself to one person too soon.
You know you are ready to go steady with a girl when you have dated other girls but you prefer this person’s company over everyone else. When you want to spend more time with this person and dating someone else will interfere with your time, then perhaps it is time to go steady.
However, if you feel pressure to date one person exclusively because everyone else is doing it, then you should reconsider. Some boys rush into going steady because they fear there won’t be anyone else. This is another poor reason to go steady with a girl. There are hundreds of girls in the world with whom you could happily live. Don’t get the idea that there is just one right person for you. Take your time. Marriage is a lifetime commitment, so don’t rush the preliminary stages. Another bad reason for going steady is to hold on to a “good catch.” Some people pride themselves on having the prettiest or smartest girl in school as their exclusive girlfriend. Remember our discussion about the pride of life. Date a girl because you like her and not because you like the admiration of the other boys.
As you get comfortable with that special girl, keep in mind that there is a real temptation to take liberties with her that you would not take with other girls. Now is not the time to break God’s law because you allow your emotions get the better of you. Far too many teenagers allow their emotions to flare and find themselves tempted to have sex during their date.
A common excuse given for having sex on a date is that you need to find out before hand if you are compatible or not. You could have sex with any girl. How familiar you are with having sex has nothing to do with compatibility. You should not be looking for a bed partner while you are dating. You should be looking for someone to share the rest of your life with. Once you and your girlfriend are married, you will have plenty of opportunity to learn how to have sex. There is no benefit gained by breaking God’s law and having sex before you are married.
What is Love?
I’ve often told you in this book that various feelings and reactions are not love. Having an erection doesn’t mean you are in love. Wanting to have sex with someone doesn’t mean you are in love. The actual act of sex is not love, although it is called “making love” in today’s slang. To understand what love really is, we need to turn over to I Corinthians 13:1-7.

Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become as sounding brass or a clanging cymbal. And though I have the gift of prophesy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profits me nothing. Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. I Corinthians 13:1-7

Paul is explaining what true love between Christians is like. The description also beautifully describes what the love between a husband and wife should be like.
When you love someone, you are willing to put up with their faults. You understand that people make mistakes and that changes take time, if they come at all. Even when she says something mean to you, you will only return kindness back. Love involves trusting the other person with all your heart. You don’t envy her when she gets a big promotion at work or is honored for the things she has done in the community. Instead, you rejoice with her. A loving husband doesn’t boast about how good he is and ignores his wife’s accomplishments. What you do is much less important to you than what she does. If you truly love someone, you won’t say things that will hurt her feelings. She is much more important to you than your own concerns. As a result, you will keep a tight reign on your anger and not lash out when things don’t go your way.
Loving couples don’t accuse each other of wickedness. Too many marriages are broken because the husband saw a man leave the house or found some note and immediately leaped to the conclusion that his wife is having an affair. However, sometimes it is obvious that sin is taking place. When this happens, a loving husband will stand firm with the Lord. He will do everything possible to bring his wife back to the way of righteousness.
Being in love means you are optimistic. You are always hoping that things will get better. That hope helps you to get over the many rough times that you and your wife will face together.
Most of all, love doesn’t fail. Planning to marry someone for a time to see if it will work out means you are not in love. You don’t fall in and out of true love. Love holds on through good times and through bad times.

The Difference Between Love and Infatuation

Many people confuse being infatuated with someone for being in love with someone. Each of us has a mental picture of the ideal companion. That mental picture is usually based on various physical attributes. She should be so tall, with a pretty nose, brown eyes, etc. Occasionally you meet someone who closely matches your mental ideal. You get excited and believe you have fallen in love at first sight.
This is not really love, but infatuation. You can tell the difference, because infatuation dies over time. I guarantee that while you are moonstruck with a girl you won’t believe that it will ever end, but it usually does. As you get to know the girl and find out about her likes and dislikes, you realize that she is not as perfect as you imagined her to be. The word “imagined” is the key word. You have no idea what a person is like when you first meet them. Getting to know a person takes time.
Over time an infatuation will either die off or be replaced by true love. When you are truly in love, you will be aware of a person’s flaws, but you have made a rational decision that you can live with them. A person who is infatuated with someone will either be totally unaware of the flaws in that person, pretend that those flaws are not there, pretend that those flaws don’t matter, or believe that they can change that person over time. The last attitude can be disastrous for a relationship. People do change at times, but it is not very often and it is rarely because someone caused them to change. People change themselves because they want to make the change. When you choose a woman to be your wife, you should look at who she is and not who you think you can make her into. If you do not like who she is today, you are taking a big risk thinking she will be different tomorrow. In other words, if she doesn’t change before marriage, then she certainly won’t change after marriage.
Talk freely with your intended companion. Some men are afraid to tell their girlfriend everything they are thinking for fear of driving them away. If your true thoughts would drive your girlfriend away, then the two of you were probably not cut out for each other. Both of you would be better off looking for someone else. Nothing could be worst than to find out you have made a lifetime commitment to someone who can’t stand you.
In summary, true love is based on reality. Infatuation is based on fantasy. Before committing yourself to someone, make sure you both have a firm grip on reality.

A Small Exercise

Take a sheet of paper and write down the things that you hope to find in the woman you will one day marry. Is it important that she be good looking? Does it matter to you if she is taller than you? Do you hope she is a good cook? Should she like children? How many children do you hope to raise? Give it serious consideration and don’t base your answers on someone you are dating at the moment. It would be better to work on this when there is no one in particular competing for your heart. Talk to your dad or an elder or the preacher about it, but make sure that it is your list showing what is important to you.
Try ranking your points. What is the most important? Which things would be nice, but really don’t matter that much?
It may seem a little early to start thinking about whom you plan to marry. After all, marriage is still several years off. However, if you know what you are looking for, then when you finally meet the girl of your dreams, you can be confident that you are making a sound decision that you will never regret.
Have a rough list done before you start chapter 8. Through the years, continue to revise your list. The things that are important to you at 13 may seem childish at 18, so continue to think about these things.

Disclaimer: I posted a query for this manuscript a while back, got useful comments, but still struggled to figure out the best way to rewrite the query. So I went to Reedsy and paid for a consultation with a former literary agent. They were very helpful and we went through a couple of revisions. Sadly, I'm only getting form rejections, so I'm hoping you guys can help me figure out what I'm doing wrong. Adding the first 300 words too, in case the problem is there. Thanks in advance!
P.S. Regarding the worldbuilding in the second paragraph... I was told that, because the most unique thing about my story is the world, I should put that up front. The person I worked with claimed it would be fine, but after reading this subreddit for a while I'm pretty sure I shouldn't have trusted that. Curious what you guys think.
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V1 just in case: https://www.reddit.com/PubTips/comments/wz36g5/qcrit_ya_fantasy_mind_drummer_120000_v1/
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Dear [agent name],
I’m seeking representation for THE MIND DRUMMER, a standalone YA fantasy horror complete at 120,000 words. Combining the lush setting of THE LOST DREAMER by Lizz Huerta with the heart-wrenching choice between family and morality of Jordan Ifueko’s RAYBEARER, it’s a story about severing a toxic sibling relationship and finding self-worth.
Sleep too long, and a fisher steals your mind as you wander the dream. Without your mind, your body rots with razorscale. Catch razorscale, and you’re given a parasite to safeguard your flesh as it waits for its mind’s retrieval. The parasite will eat your bones and make you thirst for soil, but you will live. In the teeming darkness of the jungle, it takes a monster to thwart a monster.
Maki used to be one of the drummers—women who catch the fisher-repelling parasites, weaving traps from overlapping rhythms—and she was the best. Until her drumming caused her mother’s death, and she smashed her drum to pieces. Driven by guilt and yearning for something other than failure to define her, Maki becomes a willing scapegoat for her sister Kaluya.
When Kaluya’s lover Yuna falls prey to the fishers, Maki tries to save the girl. She fails, and soon after realizes how dangerous her sister’s obsession can be. Half of the village gets their minds stolen, tricked into sleeping too long, and Kaluya pushes the blame onto Maki.
Maki runs from the backlash; her goals shift. She finds an ally in her childhood friend and shaman apprentice, and seeks aid from a mysterious mute boy—an outcast like her and a living bait for the fishers. To save the village and her newfound love, Maki needs to accept and master her unique abilities: a mind drummer controls the parasites not with a drum, but with thought alone. She doesn’t have much time—Kaluya’s wicked scheme to bring Yuna back will lure the fishers from beyond the dream’s borderline.
[one-sentence bio]. The story's setting is loosely based on the subtropical forests of Asia, which I greatly enjoy exploring.
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The moment I took Yuna, the moment I tied her to that tree, I knew that it would cost me. And now, they'll burn her and slit my throat for what I've done.
Feet swift on the slick bark of the roots, I rush through the dark jungle to face the inevitable. My body adds to the music of the forest, bare soles thumping on the ground between the long jumps, hands patting the pillars of tree trunks. The simple rhythm keeps me focused, and the burn of friction on my skin grounds me in the rainforest that is now my drum, accompanied by the deafening screech of insects.
The ancient red cedar looms ahead, its crown a black silhouette against the starry sky. Beneath it, the torches' brilliance seeps through the thicket. Whoever is there, I won't fight. I won't bare my teeth at them. I'll let them take me, because if I don't admit guilt, they'll turn their spears elsewhere. At Kaluya. At my sister.
Tearing through the branches, I land among the tree's sprawling roots where they stand.
There are six of them, looming over Yuna. The Hunter brothers, Darra and Damura, two other men I've never spoken with, and two shamans in training: Olayi and Kaluya herself. The single dirty girl—perched between the cedar's roots—pays them no mind. Her skirt and chest covering have long lost their original color under the grime, but I managed to keep her black hair clean. It's grown longer over the last month, now reaching her shoulders. One of her hands remains lifted and tied to the trunk while the other, wriggled free, scratches the earth slowly, almost lovingly. Kaluya watches her with a pained expression but doesn't dare touch the girl in front of everyone.
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I have received what I believed to be salvation 3 years ago, after my dear father who was a believer underwent a risky surgery due to illness. I couldn't fathom my Dad passing. I didn't know if I would even want to live if he did. I remember breaking down crying, telling the Lord that if he preserved my father, I would give up my own way of life and serve Him. But I doubled back, and told the Lord that even if my father dies in that surgery, I still want to serve Him regardless. I was tired of playing with my life.
I woke up the next day to news that my Dad survived the surgery. But my jubilation was cut short when they had to take him back into surgery due to a blood clot. I got on my knees and prayed even harder than before.
My Dad survived, and I will never forget how exuberant and refreshed I felt. Not only did I have this new identity and journey to embark on with Christ, but He preserved my father, even though I didn't hold my servitude behind a good outcome. I wanted the Lord regardless.
Everything changed. I grew gentler. I prayed for resolutions to my anxieties. I prayed AS a resolution to my anxieties.I started watching Christian YouTube channels such as "The Beat" by Allen Parr. I discovered beautiful worship music that I could relate to. I read my Bible from time to time, in spite of the extreme difficulty I have focusing and retaining focus when I'm in the Word.
One of the biggest revelations I experienced in this beautiful time period was months later, when my father eventually died. He was sick with diabetes and had battled it for ~20 years. I sat at his bed side and held his hand as he passed.
What was significant about the day my Dad passed is that, in spite of the sadness of losing my hero, I was so thankful to God for blessing me with him. That night, before I went to bed, I broke down crying, thanking God. My Dad was awesome and I miss him dearly. The difference between my joyful praise after losing my Dad, and the sheer panic I had months before, just at the possibility of that surgery taking him, was that in one case, I had faith. In the other, I hadn't yet believed.
Fast forward a few years to now. Boy, have I experienced my ups and downs. But through it all, I still maintained my central proclamation and conviction of my faith. I have triumphed immensely from a worldly perspective. I have a job, have saved a lot of money, and I have gotten in great physical shape. But I just don't see any spiritual growth. I'm still struggling with the same sin as before, and more.
I still struggle with looking at women with lust. The temptation feels so difficult to defy. It almost grabs me and pulls me in, even after I pray.
I can barely read my Bible for 5 minutes without tuning out. Yet I can read any other book swiftly within a week. I try to discipline myself and become a disciple, but I get this immense anxiety before I open my Bible, or before I pray. It's like everything inside me despises these spiritual disciplines. I know doctrine, but not that from which it was derived. My lack of growth even leads to me questioning God's existence, though usually subconsciously.
I've been asking, begging the Lord for years to deliver me from this. Maybe it is that I was never in the faith. Maybe it is that everything I thought was God speaking to me was a mere emotional experience. Why am I not like other believers, who faithfully serve? Who have the concentration to read through their word and be delivered through it? Who aren't in this "sin-repent-repeat" cycle?
It doesn't help that I live in a household in which I'm the only believer. They love throwing parties and having drinks. Gossip and loud music. Sometimes I can't even get rest due to the cacophony of chit-chat and bass. My deep yearning for solitude, and a spiritual environment leads to resentment. The only other believer around me is my best friend, who looks to me for guidance and leadership in his faith, which makes my struggle that much more hurtful.
I am blessed to be able to attend church after negotiating with my job, which is great. I just hope that this will be what finally pushes me to grow, because I need help.
I am so unreliable and lack to do even the simplest works of my proclaimed faith. Am I just not cut out for this? Many people praise me for my faith, and the generosity and gentle heart that comes with it. But they just do not know how deep the struggle goes. I don't want to be a fake Christian.
I just want to serve God.

Warning: this is not made for sane persons only people that try to make a theory out of any Liam works
first of all, watch my previous theory to make sense of what I am about to say: https://www.reddit.com/MurderDrones/comments/13903ss/comment/jj9bnj1/?context=3
So now that we are mere hours from knowing what happens in the manor I am making this theory explaining what I think will happen... first I bring to things the segment in episode 2 here the human find it creepy that the drones are dressed as they should and how Tessa manage to find the clothes and hair... and one of the teaser images shows N delivering drinks... but also it shows Tessa and CYN in a Photo Tessa holding my a shovel...
My theory is the next we know that the drone's hair is human as no robots are designed with it so... where will Tessa find both the elegant clothing and human hair... and what the shovel has to do my theory is that she is exhumation human bodies using the clothing and hair to dress them up and following this line of thought I devise a second and bigger theory and is why the absolute solver triggers in the manor at these time...
To put into context we know that AS forces the ingest of oil as Uzi despite being a worker drone and not being created with the disassembly drones flaw of overheating also demands oil my theory is that absolute solver is a program in all robot's case and point all robots have insane healing capabilities in the pilot both Uzi and Thad were hit with the disassembly drones wings yet in episode 2 not more than few hours after both of them are perfectly fine...
And the second thing is that absolute solver is transforming things into oil or other things it is seen that drones can consume food the doctor is always using a flask and since they don't have how to eject the food they turn into something else oil that is inside because drones lose oil left and right and always seams to recover I think that is the same as human blood and they eat stuff to recover oil and keep working...
So where I am going in episode 4 CYN is seen eating human guts in the flashback min: 13:17 I think that after some trips to grab clothing and hair a drone decided to recover oil by eating a human corpse but what they didn't know is that he died with a prion disease so AS does its thing but digitalizes the Piron and it turns into a program...
If you have seen several zombie movies you can see where it is going Piron gets digitalized and it gives a craving for food constant food but a human one... which is fine there are plenty of corpses no problem but then the gala happens hours of constant serving without eating and then it starts to overheat and under the same pressure that Uzi had in ep4 before developing her AS powers the drone or multiple drones snaps... and attack the humans... eating them
Somehow Humans can stop the madness and create the camping laboratories where they experiment with the AS infected with a piron resulting in the creation of disassembly drones and AS drones that are still fully converted case and point: Nori... but now they feed oil so no problem for humankind then the core explodes and they sent the disassembly drones to stop the AS to regain his original intention of eating humans... and I think that is what zombie drones the VHS is about... is the video of the gala and the first snap of the AS...
Hope you like my stupidity and weaponized madness theory... again if any grammatical error is present sorry in advance and see you in the premier...

I've been trying to work on calming myself when I get disregulated. I just discovered kirtan music and found a kirtan mix on Spotify. Oh my goodness! This music is so relaxing. It's almost like an auditory massage.
I am creating a little disregulation "first aid kit" for myself. I'm including ideas on index cards of things that might help me stop and calm down when I can tell I'm about to spiral. I'm really good at rule following so maybe if I make this rule for myself that I have to open this first aid kit and do some of the activities it will help. We'll see.
Some of the things I've included are a short note from my spouse, a suggestion to myself to go look at photos of him and myself together, a note to myself, a list of music to listen to, a suggestion to listen to the Office Ladies podcast (familiarity and light hearted), a suggestion to listen to the disregulation episode of the Crappy Childhood Fairy podcast, and a reminder to listen to this kirtan playlist I found. I want to add in a few other tangible or scented items. Fingers crossed!

I've had Tachycardia since at least age 19 when my resting heart rate was found to be 185 at a gym fitness assessment (my blood pressure has always been slightly low).
These days, it's always around 125, or between 115-145, whether laying down, sitting or standing up. I suddenly wondered whether it was because I'm just constantly anxious, fearful, filled with dread, a sense of impending doom and nervousness and that was pushing up my heart rate all the time.
The only time I am actually relaxed is when I'm asleep, or INCREDIBLY sleepy to the point of finding it hard to stay awake. So I was curious and this morning I got up at 7.30am, half asleep, grabbed my pulse oximeter / heart rate monitor, and went back to bed. Then I fell asleep.
Later, about 10am, I woke up again, was SO sleepy but managed to get the pulse oximeter onto my finger. I almost fell back to sleep in the few seconds before checking what it said, and my heart rate was 67. I don't recall it ever being so low or "normal"!!!
Was it because I was actually relaxed?? I've been in bed before and done it, but I was always wide awake, and the numbers were always 115-125 usually.

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When I relax / lie down I can have a heart rate as low as 40 bpm, sometimes with arhythmic beats, but I'll feel ok. When I get up my heart rate only goes up a bit, but I will feel my blood getting pumped into my head (feeling my neck pounding), I'll feel dizzy and have an enormous urge to breathe really fast. I figured you people in this sub might know what this could be.