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2023.06.10 19:30 Diodemen How do I declare independence on pop?
So it's been like a week I started on pop I have 170 soldier and the city of ravensterm is under siege by an army of zombie lovers I intend to let them destroy the garnison so I can take over the city easily and then become independent, my question is, is it the same system like warband when you have to be declined the city to rebel or can I just become independent even if the king grant me the city?
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2023.06.10 19:30 zakian3000 B1543 - Shareholder Loans (Anti-Avoidance) Bill - 3rd Reading
A
Bill
to
make provision for further anti-avoidance measures in relation to Section 445 of the Companies Act 2006 . BE IT ENACTED by the King’s most Excellent Majesty, by and with the advice and consent of the Lords Spiritual and Temporal, and Commons, in this present Parliament assembled, and by the authority of the same, as follows:— Section 1: Amendments to Section 456 of the Corporation Tax Act 2010 (1) Clause 4 of
Section 456 of the Corporation Tax Act 2010 is amended as follows:
(4) Condition A is that—
a. the amount of the loan or advance does not exceed £5,000, and
b. that amount does not exceed £5,000 when taken together with any other outstanding loans and advances which were made to the borrower by—
i. the close company, or
ii. any of its associated companies.
Section 2: Amendments to Section 457 of the Corporation Tax Act 2010 (1) Clause 2 of Section 457 of the
Corporation Tax Act 2010 is amended as follows:
(2) Relief is to be given from that tax, or a proportionate part of it, if—
a. the loan or advance or part of it is repaid to the company, or
b. the whole or part of the debt in respect of the loan or advance is released or written off, and;
c. no new loan or advance to the recipient is established within 2 years of the original loan date.
Section 3: Commencement, short title and extent (1) This Act will come into force on the 6 April 2024
(2) This Act will extend to the entirety of the United Kingdom.
(3) This Act shall be cited as the
Shareholder Loans (Anti-avoidance) Act 2023
This Bill was submitted by His Grace Sir Rea-wakey KCT KT KD KCMG KBE MVO FRS, Duke of Dorset, Secretary of State for the Home Department, on behalf of His Majesty’s 33rd Government. Opening Speech: Deputy Speaker,
I now present the second of the anti-tax avoidance laws that I wish to bring to the House, this one tackling the Section 455 avoidance measure.
Under previous laws, it was a known tax avoidance scheme for employed shareholders of a business to extract profits in the form of a “shareholder loan”, which in effect operated as a tax free dividend to shareholders. While successive Governments have tried to curb this avoidance measure over time, including through amendments to the Companies Act 2006 to include Section 455 and it’s related clauses, a number of issues remain. Firstly, the existing anti-avoidance measure fails to tackle loans of less than £15,000, which is not an insignificant amount of money on which tax should otherwise be due. Therefore this Bill reduces that threshold to £5,000 in line with other tax legislation to ensure that only trivial loans which would be expected in the normal course of business (e.g corporate credit cards) are incurred. Secondly, despite the anti-avoidance legislation a tax avoidance known as “bed and breakfasting” remains prevalent - these transactions are carried out around the end of the accounting period to prevent the loans etc appearing on the company’s Balance Sheet but it may also be done around the date which is 9 months after the end of the accounting period as that is the trigger date for liability to the charge, thereby meaning that a temporary repayment of the same loan and the return of these funds 9 months after the end of the accounting period mean that the funds remain not taxable on a technicality. Finally, given shareholder loans are not subject to interest, even if these loans are eventually repaid the present value of the loan value will be lower when such profit is formally extracted and therefore taxed by HMRC, which the legislation fails to prevent. To tackle these issues, this Bill also creates a measure in which any repaid loans made within 2 years of a previous loan being made are treated as though the original loan remained outstanding, and therefore taxable under the Section 455 clause of the Companies Act.
It is the position of Her Majesty’s Government that shareholders must extract profit from their business through a legally authorised and taxable dividend, and we will do everything in our power to remove the opportunities for avoidance.
In combination with the other two pieces of anti-avoidance legislation I will be/have submitted to the House, these measures are collectively expected to raise £3.4 billion. This proposed revenue generation and these Bills were raised at Her Majesty’s Budget Committee and unopposed. My thanks go to my friend the Right Honourable
Phonexia2 for their assistance in costing.
I urge the House to rally behind this Bill.
(M: These costings are calculated as 40% of the
tax gap for “Evasion” and “Non-payment”, given the difficulty of calculating the actual revenue generated from these measures).
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2023.06.10 19:29 Curtainlove Ted Kaczynski found dead after I sent him this letter today. Coincidence? I think not!
Dear Ted,
I’m writing you this letter for a good reason.
Just like you,
I want to be heard. I have some things to say about the technological revolution and its future. I'm very vocal about this, but nobody is listening. So I’m going to do something that might be considered radical…
I’m sending this letter to you in hopes of getting a response. I want to know what you think about the current state of the world and the possible outcomes.
Do nothing, and your words get lost in time. Do something violent, and your message gets tainted. Kill yourself, and you’re just another sad story. Pick one. ~everybody - The current state of the world
As you probably know, technology is growing faster than ever and we haven’t even properly adjusted to the internet yet. In a world where most people are blindly following algorithms to keep them entertained, the most powerful are investing in digital minds to conquer the world. It’s a shitshow.
Artificial intelligence is getting super advanced. It’s almost certain that it will build somebody’s utopia or kill us all; and it can have a major effect on our mental health. More jobs will become obsolete as AI becomes more advanced, and this will lead to massive change. How will we handle this change? Time will tell. But I worry.
- What are the possible outcomes?
Extinction event. AI can lead to our downfall. We’re creating machines that are way more intelligent than we can comprehend and we’re acting carelessly. This technology is/will be capable of hijacking anything digital, so nuclear annihilation is a possible outcome . Lethal autonomous weapons (LAWs) are already out there and will become way more advanced. Imagine if we would use this in a war. We could lose control of the machines. Sad to say, our downfall is not the only risk. These machines could also be used to grab control.
Total control I assume you know about China's social credit system. It's a great indicator of how things will be in the future. In China, everybody is being observed and traced. Now I don't have a problem with that. I worry about who's going to write the laws.
It's not a secret that his technology can be used to keep us all in line. Everybody has a smartphone these days. So it’s not far-fetched to think that it’ll be used to monitor us all. Imagine a world where we’re not allowed to speak our minds. I’m a free speech absolutist and to me that sounds like hell. And who can you trust?
In a hyper controlled society, nobody trusts anybody because they’re afraid of people telling on them. This is already the case in China. We’re talking about a major psychological impact on the average citizen. Freedom will become a distant thought of desire while others play with their power. Again, dystopian shenanigans.
Globalization I think the entire world has to unite to prevent our downfall. We should strive for globalization. We shouldn’t go to war with this technology. But I know it is already happening. They always have the good shit behind the scenes and that frightens me; because mainstream AI is already getting pretty advanced .
We need a worldwide AI governance agency. (WAIGA sounds alright to be honest).
AI experts will have to sit together in order to create safety laws. This way, we can experiment with AI in a safe way. We also need a team of psychologists and ethics experts to calculate the risk of bringing something new on the market. Otherwise, you’re going to have products that are a threat to our mental health.
WAIGA needs to be transparent about AI’s most recent capabilities at all times so we can all be aware of what is happening. The people deserve the truth. We
have to handle it. How else are we going to achieve this goal together? Everyone should have the right to join the discussion, but we must put more energy into educating people about the consequences. An educated world will behave more responsible than an uneducated world. Especially in times of crisis.
Globalization is pretty difficult to achieve because all cultures differ so much. We can’t force everybody to think the same so it’s a complicated situation. But in this case, the risk should be enough to come to an agreement. This technology calls for peace.
Capitalist dystopia. Is this a possible outcome? I think it’s a phase.
It’s a complicated situation. We have a system that supports economic growth rather than social progress. Experts are expressing their worries, but the people in charge don't listen. It's a race for money and it can't be stopped. We’re heading towards a capitalist dystopia.
The world around us is influencing our standards so it's going to have a serious social impact if we don't do anything soon. People will become dependent on AI and this will create more problems. Perfect for a revenue model, but disastrous for our mental health.
As dependency grows, so does the potential for control. And not only that.
People will lose their jobs. In our capitalist society built on superficial standards, it’s already hard to be poor; It’s a struggle to get your basic needs and nobody listens to you because you’re unsuccessful. This will again, have a serious impact on mental health. Children are going to grow up in a world where AI can do anything, while we still don’t know anything about the consequences. This will potentially scar future generations. People tend to get sad and unmotivated if they don’t have a drive. And we are killing that drive by making this world a hell. How are we going to solve that with AI? Do we really have to see the consequences?
We have the ability to think.
So capitalism is not going to work (only in a heavily controlled environment). But let's face it. Capitalism never cared about the wellbeing of the people.
Communist society I think this is the most likely outcome (if we don’t blow ourselves up). Since everyone can use AI to do anything, services become worthless and jobs become obsolete. This will have a serious impact on society. If we’re not forced to work by some dictator, we’ll see a change in vision.
It all depends on what’s going to happen. I think there are good and bad outcomes to this one. It depends on how we all see the world and who’s in charge. It could lead to a basic income or forced labor. In an ideal situation, we would have a system that supports freedom but limits the commercial use of AI.
- My Take
I’ve got mixed feelings about the current situation, but I tend to be pessimistic. We can’t even get along in the streets, so it’s silly to think we can solve the AI issue. War still exists just because some people want more power and there’s nothing we can do about it. To solve this problem we have to come to an agreement on multiple levels, but the people are not ready.
I think this will either result in our extinction or total control(if we go on like this).
I think there is a very small chance it will end well. We could keep our freedom if everybody starts thinking alike. We need to stop acting from emotion and start thinking rationally. Because rationally, we can come to a compromise. There is always a middle line.
I think AI can be regulated to keep us safe, mentally and physically; if we listen to the experts. But even if we succeed, it's not without risk.
AI has the power to find patterns at an incredible speed. This will lead to more scientific discoveries. We might even figure out the brain. And that is where the real danger lies.
The bigger the system grows the more disastrous the results of its breakdown will be. But to be honest, we can’t even handle a tool like the internet. Everybody is “educating” themselves without checking sources and we’ve already seen how this can go wrong. We create romanticized representations of ourselves to show other people how well we’re doing. And we lose ourselves in it. We get stuck in algorithms that keep us in an echo chamber, only showing us one side of the story. And that’s just scratching the surface. We aren’t ready for AI.
The internet has great potential to bring us together, but it just doesn’t work if you want to share a vision. It has turned into a dopamine machine rather than a forum.
Instant gratification is the only thing that matters. Consume, consume, consume. And even if there are a few that listen, it’s not enough. And you know it…
It’s not worth writing a proper manifesto. People only pay attention if it’s sensational.
So Ted,
As I said, this might be considered radical; but I want to know your take on the situation so I can maybe publish it. Something controversial has to happen to get the message out there. This world is creating terrorists, and I’ve personally felt how this happens. I still don’t approve of killing people, but you were right to some degree. I think it is important to keep the conversation open to everyone. Excluding people based on their beliefs is harmful to our society. An innovative voice can come from anywhere. Just because somebody is wrong on one topic doesn’t mean they’re always wrong. I hope you don’t mind talking about this subject. You don’t have to go in depth. Even a brief response would mean the world to me.
I hope the pen is mightier than the bomb.
Peace,
Kjelt
P.S. Don't send me a bomb; that's kinda cliché. 🙂
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2023.06.10 19:28 theedoriangray Slowly pushing towards that 2k badge its been a long journey of ups and downs but i love my webtoon series ❤️💖🤕😮💨🤣🙂
2023.06.10 19:27 webheadVR r/oculusquest is joining the blackout on June 12th in protest of the upcoming API changes.
oculusquest will be joining in on the June 12th-14th protest of Reddit's API changes that will essentially kill all 3rd party Reddit apps.
As many of you are already aware, Reddit has announced significant changes to their API, the tool that allows third-party apps to interact with Reddit's platform that will have a serious impact to many users. There is currently a planned protest across
hundreds of subreddits to black out on June 12th. Third Party reddit apps (such as Apollo, Reddit is Fun, Sync, and others) are going to become significantly more expensive for their developers to run, which will in turn either kill the apps, or result in a monthly fee to the users if they choose to use one of those apps to browse. Put simply, each request to reddit within these mobile apps will cost the developer money. The developers of Apollo were quoted around $2 million per month for the current rate of usage. The only way for these apps to continue to be viable for the developer is if you (the user) pay a monthly fee, and realistically, this is most likely going to just outright kill them. Put simply: If you use a third party app to browse reddit, you will most likely no longer be able to do so, or be charged a monthly fee to keep it viable. Apollo, Reddit is Fun, Sync have announced that they will be shutting down June 30, 2023
This isn't only a problem on the user level: many subreddit moderators depend on tools only available outside the official app to keep their communities on-topic and spam-free.
As well, NSFW Content is no longer going to be available in the API. This means that, even if 3rd party apps continue to survive, or even if you pay a fee to use a 3rd party app, you will not be able to access NSFW content on it. You will only be able to access it on the official reddit app. Additionally, some service bots (such as video downloaders or maybe remindme bots) will not be able to access anything NSFW. In more major cases, it may become harder for moderators of NSFW subreddits to combat serious violations such as CSAM due to certain mod tools being restricted from accessing NSFW content.
Many users with visual impairments rely on 3rd-party applications in order to more easily interface with reddit, as the official reddit mobile app does not have robust support for visually-impaired users. Reddit is saying “non-commercial, accessibility-focused apps and tools will continue to have free access. We’re working with apps like RedReader and Dystopia and a few others to ensure they can continue to access the Data API.”
RedReader granted non-commercial accessibility exemption What can you do as a user?
- Voice your concerns respectfully. Message the mods of /reddit.com, who are the admins of the site: message reddit: submit a support request: comment in relevant threads on /reddit, such as this one, leave a negative review on their official iOS or Android app- and sign your username in support to this post.
- Spread the word. Suggest anyone you know who moderates a subreddit join the coordinated mod effort at /ModCoord.
- Boycott and spread the word...to Reddit's competition! Stay off Reddit entirely on June 12th through the 13th- instead, join us over on the VR Discord
- Don't be a jerk. As upsetting this may be, threats, profanity and vandalism will be worse than useless in getting people on our side. Please make every effort to be as restrained, polite, reasonable and law-abiding as possible.
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2023.06.10 19:26 ZeonoxButBetter Attack of the Dead Terrans
Sorry for the absence of story for the last two weeks. No I'm not dead, it's just my exams weeks. And because of that, I have to redirect a lot of energy from writing. So all the stories I've developed over the past two weeks have sort of run aground, and I'm not sure they're ready to be uploaded here, yet. But now I'm back and ready to write some more, so roll up that daily disclaimer: As usual accidental copy is truly unintentional
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~7th Chromia Orbital Dock Facility~
~Orbit of Oskwa~
"Have they arrived yet?" I asked to my fellow commander.
"Yes General Burg, the convoy has just unloaded the... cargo just now" General Von said, looking down through the glass barrier to the cargo bay below where hundreds of yellow capsule-like containers sat in rows.
"Good, so I assume that the assault could be launch in a few hours?" I asked.
"After we distributed this to the orbital bomber we should be clear to go"
"Excellent! We'll finally be able to destroy that annoying little castle of them" I exclaimed. Excited, because finally after months of fighting, we'll be able to seize the last stronghold of the Terran Republic on this planet.
Fort Linsky, a large military fortification built by the Terran Republic before the war on the planet of Oskwa, one of their territory at the time. Equipped with eight pairs of massive railgun cannons, each with the capability to penetrate anything ranging from our capital ships in low orbit to anything on the ground not covered by at least twenty meters of solid rock within the range of one thousand kilometers from its' location.
There were more of them before. But since our invasion, with either brilliant tactic, incompetent opponents, or a pinch of luck. We managed to destroy or seized all the other fort on this planet.
But Fort Linsky on the other hand is harder. Its fortification is enforced not only by its massive cannons, but also by what our soldiers on the ground called 'The Torture Zone'.
First the most obvious one, the giant wall covering the entire parameter. A huge twenty five kilometers long stone-composite wall, shaped like a giant star with spikes sticking out of each end, circling the ring where the railguns take places. Rendering all kind of ground incursion imposible.
Behind the wall there is the 'artillery', somewhat a miniature version of the railguns they're trying to protect. A long range kinetic weapon capable of yeeting medium sized projectile, both High Explosive and Armoured Piercing. Preventing any of our heavier vehicles to get close and deal any damages.
And then there is the 'always on particle shield'. While their counterpart in space is extremely weak, their usage here was proved effective against all sort of our attacks. Be it orbital bombardment, areal assault, or our own artillery or missile attack.
And of course lastly, we have the Human themself. A tough mammals bipedal species born on a level six death world. Raised by wars they have perfected the art of defense, utilizing the terrain and weather for their advantage.
In battle they themselves go forth to fight, in armor suit five meters tall equipped with a large gun and a pile of rockets that can be fired to scorch our troops.
And accompanied by innovative flying vehicles that uses a single propeller to lift themself from the ground, armed with the same weapon hold by the armour suit they become the thorns that've always prevented us from occupying this fort.
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I stepped down from my transport ship to the barren ground, on a mountain ten kilometers away from the fort. Just outside their artillery range, and on a such makeshift observation point it would be worthless to shoot us out with their railguns.
"Is everything ready?" I asked to one of my officer.
"Yes Sir, General Borg just sent out the last confirmation signal" He reported.
"Good" I responded just before a flock of officers approach.
"Sir, are we sure with this?"
"Yeah gas attack seems a little too much, perhaps even breaching the Communities Treaty of war"
"And are we even sure this will work?" They asked one after another.
"Hey, do you remember what've they done all through the war? The sight of their armour suit killing all of our soldier? their rail gun destroying our base? I bet they have committed several warcrimes on their own.
And yeah, We're pretty sure this one will work. Our capsules is small enough to slip through the particle shield, and their content... Well gas attack have been banned by the Terran Republic, so I'm sure it's bad for them. And what gasses are we using again? chlorine and bromine? yeah I think they're included in the banned substance" I said reassuring the officers.
Not long after, the time finally came. Receiving the signal from the Borg, we sat and watched as hundred of small yellow capsules pierces the cloudy sky with green tails coming out of 'em. Passing through the Terrans shield, straight down to the rows of troops doing their morning call.
Landing next to the unsuspecting soldiers the capsules burst and released their contents. Thick green smokes billowed from the shattered containers, soon filling up the whole facility with an eerie chemical haze.
We watched silently from afar. We couldn't see individual soldiers anymore, but from the lack of large response or any other movements around the base, I think it's safe to assume we've caught the Terrans off guard.
"Yeah, that should kill them" I said breaking the silence.
"We better start moving now, before any surviving Terrans re-enact the automatic defense"
We jumped into our armoured vehicles, surrounded by around twelve thousand troops ready to captured the fort.
Approaching the structure, we could feel the atmosphere getting cold. The still lingering green gasses floating low on the ground, getting darker each moments as the thick cloud from the ever-closing storm covered the sky.
"Well at least the rain could clean up this mess" I said to myself.
Closing in, now only a few hundred meters, we could fully feel the eerie state of this fortress. A huge ominous dark wall covered in green haze stretched out for miles, accompanied by a huge thunder on our east suddenly halted the movement of our forces.
The frightened troops stopped on its march, shaking on their boots.
'What are they afraid of, there shouldn't be anyone anymore in that fort' I muttered, trying to figured out what happened.
And that's where I see it, no... see them.
Dozen of bulky silhouette, accompanied by a couple hundreds smaller hump lined up between us and the wall. I squint my eyes, the figures standing menacingly became clearer as the green smokes cleared.
'It-it's the Terrans! T-they're still alive!?!' I screamed internally, clenching the iron bars I was holding onto.
The Terrans, on their armoursuits once again challenging our march, but there's something wrong.
Their beige colored skin has grown darker, now with black ulcers and red patches covered many of their exposed area, their once white eyes were now bloodshot like those of an ancient creature on our folklore, and where their mouths should have been, were now covered by all kind cloths with their bright red bloodstains splatred on it.
My frustration and annoyance suddenly turned to fear and horror as my blood ran cold from the realization. They... they're not alive anymore.
Me and my troops stand there for a minute, trying to process the sights we behold. The silence continued as fear crawls on our back, forcing us not to move a muscle.
Suddenly out of nowhere a blood screeching screams rang across the battlefield. The Terrans letting out a battlecry as they began to charges.
An entire legion of the undead leaping into our position with the classic noise of rockets and artillery soon followed.
"Retreat! Retreat!" I shouted, breaking the stagnant of my remaining troops.
Without wasting a second, the remaining nine thousand troops ran away from the cursed fortress. Racing back to the safety of our base.
Skipping some heartbeats I looked back, to the horror we just made.
'We didn't kill them, we just make them mad'
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2023.06.10 19:26 webheadVR r/valveindex is joining the blackout on June 12th in protest of the upcoming API changes.
valveindex will be joining in on the June 12th-14th protest of Reddit's API changes that will essentially kill all 3rd party Reddit apps.
As many of you are already aware, Reddit has announced significant changes to their API, the tool that allows third-party apps to interact with Reddit's platform that will have a serious impact to many users. There is currently a planned protest across
hundreds of subreddits to black out on June 12th. Third Party reddit apps (such as Apollo, Reddit is Fun, Sync, and others) are going to become significantly more expensive for their developers to run, which will in turn either kill the apps, or result in a monthly fee to the users if they choose to use one of those apps to browse. Put simply, each request to reddit within these mobile apps will cost the developer money. The developers of Apollo were quoted around $2 million per month for the current rate of usage. The only way for these apps to continue to be viable for the developer is if you (the user) pay a monthly fee, and realistically, this is most likely going to just outright kill them. Put simply: If you use a third party app to browse reddit, you will most likely no longer be able to do so, or be charged a monthly fee to keep it viable. Apollo, Reddit is Fun, Sync have announced that they will be shutting down June 30, 2023
This isn't only a problem on the user level: many subreddit moderators depend on tools only available outside the official app to keep their communities on-topic and spam-free.
As well, NSFW Content is no longer going to be available in the API. This means that, even if 3rd party apps continue to survive, or even if you pay a fee to use a 3rd party app, you will not be able to access NSFW content on it. You will only be able to access it on the official reddit app. Additionally, some service bots (such as video downloaders or maybe remindme bots) will not be able to access anything NSFW. In more major cases, it may become harder for moderators of NSFW subreddits to combat serious violations such as CSAM due to certain mod tools being restricted from accessing NSFW content.
Many users with visual impairments rely on 3rd-party applications in order to more easily interface with reddit, as the official reddit mobile app does not have robust support for visually-impaired users. Reddit is saying “non-commercial, accessibility-focused apps and tools will continue to have free access. We’re working with apps like RedReader and Dystopia and a few others to ensure they can continue to access the Data API.”
RedReader granted non-commercial accessibility exemption What can you do as a user?
- Voice your concerns respectfully. Message the mods of /reddit.com, who are the admins of the site: message reddit: submit a support request: comment in relevant threads on /reddit, such as this one, leave a negative review on their official iOS or Android app- and sign your username in support to this post.
- Spread the word. Suggest anyone you know who moderates a subreddit join the coordinated mod effort at /ModCoord.
- Boycott and spread the word...to Reddit's competition! Stay off Reddit entirely on June 12th through the 13th- instead, join us over on the VR Discord
- Don't be a jerk. As upsetting this may be, threats, profanity and vandalism will be worse than useless in getting people on our side. Please make every effort to be as restrained, polite, reasonable and law-abiding as possible.
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2023.06.10 19:26 KabeerS52 My GF[18] says I [18M] have no right to say a word about her parents.
We've been dating since almost 2 years, we've known each other since we were 12. She's recently fought a seemingly terminal deasese. I've recently gained control over my situation of extreme parental abuse (drunk dad who physically beat me and mom). We've both been there for each other through this.
Over the last year, through the things she tells me, I've noticed some things about her parents which bother me. and today I finally confessed it to her.
Here are the things that bother me.
1) her dad has 3 kids despite having a govt job, my GF is middle child, who is officially not their child, not on paper. Not only this thing could cause her legal issues related to her rights, but it also indicates that they are extremely conservative. How? My GF is born almost 10 years after her sister. Why? Apparently they kept trying for a baby for all that time but her mom had multiple abortions due to her being unfit for a child. But they kept on trying and finally has their 2nd child, who was also born prematurely, and yes, she had to face many deaseses, including this terminal desease. Had to live her entire childhood with restrictions.
You would think her parents would stop after barely having a second child, who is unfit and will have to face hell. But no, they went for a 3rd one, immediately. Yes, the 3rd child who is the only boy is born less than a year later.
And the reason for this I think, is obvious. They wanted a boy, and her father would rather break the law and risk the life of his wife multiple times for years, just for a boychild. (Not to mention he is born with extreme harmonal issues)
Correct me if I'm wrong but this is the first thought that comes to my mind based on the facts, please tell me if there's another possible reason.
2) After that there are other things like how he actively and verbally hates people of other religion, and is possibly also castiest, which concerns me since I'm SC.
3) Then there are other concerns like how parents have left her alone while she was in ER on fucking life support, and her parents were legit "attending a family funtion" or paying a visit to family members who lived near the hospital. But they were mostly absent.
4) They were reluctunt for letting her eat nonveg which was recommended by the doc. Especially her mom was very against it. They are vegitarians for religious reasons. Actually it's since I almost forced her to go against them and eat nonveg more often and in her house, when her issues regarding weightloss ans immunity statrted to go away.
I stated my concerns that their conservative behaviour is causing her issues and will definately become an issue when it comes to marriage (yes, we are stupid for thinking that far. But consider the ammount of suffering we have faced together, I can't imagine a life without her, and she says she feels the same. Also know that we've known each other since more than 5 years)
After I said all that, her response was "shut up". Followed by how I have no right to say anything about her parents, how she owes me zero explaination for these concerns and that her parents are always right.
If her parents are always right as she says, will she also listen to them when they tell her to stay away from me? Which they will Since I'm SC and they're hella conservative.
Not just that, she said stuff like...
They've been there for her and I haven't. This hurts because she used to call me from the ER, with a tired breathless voice, just because her parents were absent and she'd feel alone. I left everything when I used to see her call, even abandoned college classes in the middle, basically leaft anthing at hand once I saw her call. Now she's saying I haven't been there for her?
When I found out her desease was terminal, I legit went dark for 20 days, Didn't go to college, didn't see anyone except my parents maybe once a day. Stayed locked in my room trying to scour through all the 100s of pages research papers which were so hard to find it since it was a rare desease and most of the patients were above 65. It's a lung desease which was said to be 100% fatal. I stayed up all nights, made a mess of my own health while doing so, until I came accros a study, which showed only 5 patients in the entire world, who susrvived, all were minors, I figured the desease is said to be fatal because it mainly attacks old people and they don't have any regen power in their lungs. But a 17 year old girl's lungs are constantly growing, she should survive this.
I gave her hope, that alone improved her health from needing support to walk to jumping around in just one day. I forced her to get more involved in her medical process and make the doctor give her curative care instead of end-of-life support like her parents wanted. and it worked, she went to a doctor in Pune and the retests showed she's curing that desease (which is impossible on paper).
In this process, I lost 15 kgs of my weight and the will to eat anything due to severe deppression. I still haven't recovered from the physical impact. After all of this, she compleatly discredits me and my concerns, says I wasn't there for her and all that.
I feel deeply hurt.
I legit feel like I'm nothing to her, I feel like she always thought like this about me.
In her defense. She's a mature person and doesn't have traditional or conservative thoughts, neither does she seem all that proud of her parent's being so conservative. So I know she doesn't share her parent's thoughts. she was never like this, NEVER. And maybe this isn't the person in her talking, maybe she just said this because she got triggered, I understand many Indians are conditioned to blindly trust their parents and never question them, so I'm not sure if I blame her.
What should I do?
Please don't start teasing about age, we're not nibba-nibbi. We've both supported each other through life threatening situation. I have got physically injured due to family fights, have had to lock myself in a room for days with my mom to fend from my dad. Been forced to spit on my own mom, hit her with a sandal and other types of torture. she has had to face extreme pain and illness all her life, had to witness a rape and murder as a pre-teen, been through therapy. So please understand our bond is really strong after we've been through all this. This relationship is serious.
TL:DR GF's parents show extreme signs of being conservative and casuing a problem for us. GF gets hella triggered and says I have no right to talk about them, they are always right and she owes me no explaination regarding this. I feel undervalued and basically got shut up for stating my concerns.
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2023.06.10 19:26 endersgame69 Adopted By Humans VII C23
Something about the idea that Lisa and Bonny Red might be in any kind of regular communication was… I don’t know. Disturbing. If I had to say it was comparable to anything I knew, the only near example was finding out that Fauve was hiding harassment from [Wolfbeard’s] friends and associates. That’s not even quite right, but… it was just the idea that there was some talk in reference to me that was absent me was just… strange.
Like a vague ominous feeling, almost like a conversation in another language that I don’t speak, spoken in my presence with expressions and gestures hinting that it was about me specifically that the discussion was being had.
It was probably nothing, and I dismissed my own thoughts on the matter, one thing I noticed about the females of both species is that it is sometimes difficult to quite comprehend their thoughts from the male perspective. Disturbing as this instance might have been, on the whole, I found that difference between the sexes to be almost refreshing.
There is something to be said for mystery, for having company that is apart from one’s self. Which does bring me to one other small point about the xenophobes that rose and fell. Their male membership on the whole seemed to hold the females of their species in the highest contempt. The very fact that Fauve was a woman, well, a young girl, was held against her.
In a way, a defining feature of these extremists was that everything had to march in lockstep together, else it had to be subdued or destroyed. In all the reports I read, in all the stories told to me by those who raided their headquarters and training centers and other lairs, only a handful of women found positions of note in their organization. This wasn’t to say no women agreed with these men, but they were all but locked out of participation in any direct manner, more than a few evidently had evidence of abuse on their person.
In a very real sense, the ability to thrive in this world now, was intrinsically tied to our ability to engage in that which made us differ from one another, between our species and our sexes alike, we were happier in just being ourselves.
I doubted xenophobes were ever very happy for very long.
I remained at her apartment that night after a quick call to the Walkers to let them know what I was doing, I still had work to do of course, even though I had AI management tools to do most of the day to day administration of my organizations, I still had to actually handle approvals, but since everything was mobile now, more or less, I could work from damn near anywhere.
I’d borrow some talent from the Barnum Cooperation to handle things while I was away, of course. At least for the last few weeks once we got to our destination.
But until then, this was super easy, barely an inconvenience, as the humans are fond of saying.
Of course, Lisa had questions about what the reason was for me going away. She asked me that, later, and I stretched out and answered her as truthfully as I could. “I can’t really tell you that.”
She cocked her head and raised her eyebrow at me as if to say, ‘Really? After all this?’
So I elaborated, “It’s one of those kinds of things. I’d rather not be a criminal on two worlds, you know. It’s bad enough that somebody on my homeworld has decided I need to be ‘expended’.”
That had her attention. “What’s that?” She asked, why I was leaving was now a secondary concern to her.
Honestly, thinking about it in retrospect, I should have been a lot more afraid than I was. After all, getting rid of ‘problems’ was as humans say ‘par for the course’ for a lot of governments. I had my suspicions about the Earth government’s quashing of the Earth First movement being even more obscure and black operated than I already knew about in the Silent Civil War. Not that I could prove anything, and if I’m being honest, after what they wanted to do to my humans, not that I cared.
It’s a universal truth of all governments that when it comes to their security, they do not mess around, and disruptive elements tend to get some form of unpleasant treatment, even in a near utopian or utopia aspiring state. There’s always something unpleasant in the foundations that nobody sees. How much moreso in the dystopian world of Dlamias?
Bonny Red and her crew were all meant to die in the void, I, had I not gone a different route, would have been offworld for centuries and not brought back until I was old and set in my ways and easily compliant. Even my sister, who more or less slipped under their radar, was put into a job where she would have her spirit essentially eroded.
I don’t know about our father, but as for our mother, I will only say I had little hope that she was living any better now than she was before.
So I took this understanding that I was now an ‘undesirable’ in stride. Not to be overly dramatic, I am not saying my whole government was after me, just that somewhere a bureaucrat decided that it would be better if I were chosen for more ‘dangerous tasks’ and that if something happened to me, things might be ‘safer’ overall. As far as I knew, nobody had been sent to eliminate me personally, though if a team were sent to get in my way eventually, that wouldn’t be a shock.
I looked over at Lisa and my ears all drooped as I explained all that, “You’re not going to have to worry, you’re not in any danger. But… my people have focused on stability for so long that disruptive elements are ‘pruned’. We’re not as crude as humans… as far as I know. I don’t have to worry about being,” I made air quotes, “black bagged, and disappearing into a shallow grave somewhere. It just means that I can start expecting my government to start making more dangerous requests of me until something happens. It’s a very practical way to get rid of trouble, especially since they can’t exile me while I’m elsewhere already anyway.” I huffed, I had to laugh at the situation, I could picture the conversation now…
“Can we exile him?”
“He’s doing this from another planet already, what are we going to do, double exile him?”
“That’s… shocking. I’m… I didn’t know your people could be like that.” Lisa seemed genuinely shocked and the sheets rustled as she brought her knees up to her chest, a genuinely worried look settled on her face.
“We didn’t become the strongest Empire in the galaxy because we’re gentle.” I said and put my hand on her shoulder, “It will be fine. I doubt they’ll do anything overt, I have a practical usefulness to two different governments right now, it’s just one of them is willing to risk losing me. Change is… well it’s hard for us sometimes, and I’ve been introducing a lot of it.”
“So you’re like a scientist bringing technology to the stone age and being declared a witch.” Lisa declared, it was an apt analogy that I would think about quite a lot as time went on. For all my people’s advances, we missed the very idea of therapy and psychiatric treatment, and I still hadn’t forgotten the team of therapists who so bluntly diagnosed my species in a general sense.
In a very real sense, by bringing my people happiness, a concept of wellness, even for all the clear and obvious good it was doing across the board, I might as well be a witch bringing unknown magics to a primitive and superstitious, anxious people.
If I may speculate for a moment, I have seen that humans who struggle most, often mistrust happiness, finding it to be suspicious, waiting for the other shoe to drop, as if happiness is just a setup for the pain to come. As I thought about Livingston, joyless, direct, having nothing but his work… how must it been for him when he first bonded with a human and found that someone genuinely cared for his wellbeing?
Maybe what made me an outlier was that I wasn’t suspicious of happiness, but embraced it, while many of my species, once they found it, didn’t know what to do with it and treated it as a danger. Maybe… Maybe I have grown, just a little.
As I’d let go of my bitterness about what our ancestors did to us, I felt no bitterness or anger toward the nameless background figure who decided my life is best spent at risk. He, like so many others, was so afraid of being taken in by contentment, that he wouldn’t be taken out of whatever darkness held him back. They were clinging to their chains even while I worked to cut them.
That was something to be sad about, more than anything else.
Lisa brightened up. “Well then, if you’re a wicked witch, how about you cast one more spell over me.” She teased, and then her face went blank and eyes unfocused. “Your hypnosis spell hits with a D20, your target is now hypnotized, what do you do now?”
I rolled my eyes, she could never take anything too seriously, even death or danger. It’s no wonder I like humans as much as I do. Even half dead they’re more alive than most of my whole damn species. So…
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2023.06.10 19:25 Ok_Acanthocephala15 ᵐʸ ᵃᵗᵗᵉᵐᵖᵗ ᵃᵗ deducing the details surrounding the recent crimes committed (ʙʏ ChriseanRock ᴀɴᴅ Blueface) in Las Vegas. ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛꜱ?
| Here I will attempt to break down (some possible) connections that I’ve perceived between Chrisean’s recent comments on Live, and the latest (police report) details that have been revealed about this case. As well as the ways I believe their known relationship history might shed further light on this matter. What do you guys think? Does it sound like it’s all connected, or am I reaching? I’m on Adderall. DISCLAIMER: I’m totally open to being wrong about my theory. I just think it’s interesting to discuss the possibilities. On her Live, she seems to be trying to say as little as possible, clearly, so it’s very hard to fully gauge what occurred. She’s clearly mainly describing/alluding to an episode (and/or multiple) of financial abuse. It sounds like she has been continuing to seek (at least some degree of) financial independence from Blueface, as we’ve seen her discuss in Lives from this past month. Potentially she wanted her paychecks to start going to her directly instead of his LLC, and/or asked for money she was rightfully owed (as we’ve seen her attempt to do on Live), or some combination there-of. And then in response to her attempts to stand up for herself, it sounds like he tried to intimidate her by going into some kind of rage and/or started trying to manipulate the situation to a get to a point where he wouldn’t have to agree to grant her her financial freedom ( he says himself that he uses money to maintain control over his relationships with women). But she definitely makes it sound like there was a progression of events that led to her finally seeing the extent of his “evil,” rather than a singular event that changed everything. Considering the confusing details that we have so far about this case ( 1 & 2), it seems like something more was going on than just a fan recording an “innocent moment.” We’ve seen them be recorded by fans before and have zero issues with it, more than once. Chrisean is known to be very sweet to fans ( 1 & 2), and Blueface also has a history of treating his fans well. So I’m inclined to believe that the REAL issue was that whatever was being recorded at that particular moment, was something they didn’t want the public to see. I think Blueface might’ve been in the middle of some kind of emotionally (physically?) abusive incident. Potentially related to the financially abusive episodes that she references them having been in the middle of, at the time of the breakup. She’s (TW) lied for him before to cover up for him beating her. As well as told him to stop openly bragging about his physical abuse, but only because it would “make” him “look bad” :D. Unfortunately it’s common for brainwashed DV victims to be in such a deep state of cognitive dissonance that they don’t see how protecting their abuser is harmful to them. Due to this fact, in addition to her known past of covering up for him when he mistreats her, is it really a stretch to think she’d feel the need to “defend him” if someone was about to expose him abusing of her? It might also explain why the fan feel bold enough to say, “Fuck him” about Blueface? And why she was so particularly angry towards him, then and there. I think it’s likely that they realized she was recording something that portrayed him in a negative (accurate) light, they asked her to stop, and she replied, “Fuck him.” As in, “No, I’m going to expose what he’s doing to you right now.” And that that’s what set off the chain of events of Chrisean assaulting the woman (to stop her, since she refused, and good for her, if my theory is correct) and Blueface grabbing the phone, and later jumping her with his team of woman beaters when she tried to get it back. Cause why were they THAT mad that she was filming, if whatever it was wasn’t anything that made anyone look bad? It makes no sense to me. Chrisean also has a history of fighting other women “for” Blueface. She did it with his mom (4:00). There you can see Blueface himself saying the mom was assaulting Rock and insulting both of them and that Rock wasn’t reacting. Until he sic-ed her on his mother like a dog, which he recounts with a smile on his face. It also occurred with his sister, when she tried to pull up Blueface’s house to fight Chrisean for beating up their mother. She’s the mother’s victim, but that’s another story. As you can see (at 1:11:30), in that interview the sister herself says that when she tried to fight Chrisean, Chrisean first ran away and tried to avoid it. And that then Blueface and his crew started beating on her husband and her, when she wouldn’t leave or stop trying to have a fight. She says when she started going 1v1 with Blueface— that that’s when Chrisean jumped in, I presume to “protect him”. She probably felt it would be disloyal to stand by and watch a woman beat him up when she could jump in. But this makes absolutely no sense. Obviously he has testosterone, is much stronger, and by the sister’s account was already winning handily, even before Rock stepped in. So why bother? He wasn’t a victim, or in danger. The sister didn’t even want to fight him, he started jumping her for fun (apparently), like they did to the woman in Vegas. Also, it’s not even a “fight” if one opponent has greater physical strength. It’s an assault. I think Chrisean’s reaction towards his sister is (sadly) a projection of the way she thinks it’s OK for Blueface to hit her when she’s “out of line,” and somewhat still believes (believed?) his victim narratives of her being “the problem” for defending herself against him (and using her self-defense as a justification to abuse her even more severely). And also likely a result of the way he brainwashes his victims to act as his henchmen. We also see it with Jaidyn. Abusers typically “punish” you (with more abuse) for not submitting to their will/goals (which includes protecting their image/ego). After a certain length of time, due to the way human brains process/adjust to “negative consequences” (especially if you don’t realize that you’re being intentionally and systematically brainwashed)— you will eventually learn to carry out their will as second nature. Which is their goal, of course. Also judging by what we hear her say during the second (Petey’s) Live, along with the information that we’ve been made aware of since we first watched these streams: It sounds like maybe here, in “private,” she felt safe to become more open about the way the Vegas situation, specifically, impacted her perception of him. Whereas during her Live, she tried to stick to their more “personal” issues and only vaguely alluded to whatever incident it was that made her realize he was “too evil.” She seems scared of him (remember, he threatened to murder her and the baby). And also probably just doesn’t want to insult him publicly and or speak on an ongoing investigation If she is referring to the events in Vegas, during Petey’s Live— it sounds like she thinks he deserved to be held accountable for the jumping more than her. She says, “Good, they got him, not me.” To me this implies that she sees him as more culpable and/or as the cause of the problem (or as the arguable mastermind of the event?). She describes him within that same context as “the devil.” And says he “deserves” to be in jail (which again, to me indicates that she’s referring to illegal behavior, not making a general criticism). Presumably, again, this would be because she feels the situation was his fault to begin with and that his actions during the incident ended up being particularly excessive. As they always have been (towards women, especially, he utilizes constant unwarranted force because he is sadistic and enjoys exploiting power imbalances that work in his favor), but the difference is that now she’s waking up to that reality because she is gaining self-esteem. She’s no longer seeing his abuse of her as acceptable, which has in turn, affected her perception of his behavior in general. Typically when we gain self-esteem and self-love, we project our higher level of self-value outwards, as a higher valuation of others. Maybe she’s growing and no longer in a mental space where she can justify the evil that she has in the past. And what she witnessed in Vegas (compounded with the financial abuse) was the final straw, and what led her to begin to perceive him as irredeemable. An alternative theory is that he was committing some sort of (other) crime at the time that they were being filmed, but that seems less likely. TL;DR: I think something nefarious was going on at the time that the fan started filming, hence Chrisean/Blue’s uncharacteristically strong reaction. Judging by the vague details in Chrisean’s Live, I think it may have been Blueface enacting some form of abuse against her. What do y’all think? submitted by Ok_Acanthocephala15 to Chrisean__Rock [link] [comments] |
2023.06.10 19:25 webheadVR r/virtualreality is joining the blackout on June 12th in protest of the upcoming API changes.
virtualreality will be joining in on the June 12th-14th protest of Reddit's API changes that will essentially kill all 3rd party Reddit apps.
As many of you are already aware, Reddit has announced significant changes to their API, the tool that allows third-party apps to interact with Reddit's platform that will have a serious impact to many users. There is currently a planned protest across
hundreds of subreddits to black out on June 12th. Third Party reddit apps (such as Apollo, Reddit is Fun, Sync, and others) are going to become significantly more expensive for their developers to run, which will in turn either kill the apps, or result in a monthly fee to the users if they choose to use one of those apps to browse. Put simply, each request to reddit within these mobile apps will cost the developer money. The developers of Apollo were quoted around $2 million per month for the current rate of usage. The only way for these apps to continue to be viable for the developer is if you (the user) pay a monthly fee, and realistically, this is most likely going to just outright kill them. Put simply: If you use a third party app to browse reddit, you will most likely no longer be able to do so, or be charged a monthly fee to keep it viable. Apollo, Reddit is Fun, Sync have announced that they will be shutting down June 30, 2023
This isn't only a problem on the user level: many subreddit moderators depend on tools only available outside the official app to keep their communities on-topic and spam-free.
As well, NSFW Content is no longer going to be available in the API. This means that, even if 3rd party apps continue to survive, or even if you pay a fee to use a 3rd party app, you will not be able to access NSFW content on it. You will only be able to access it on the official reddit app. Additionally, some service bots (such as video downloaders or maybe remindme bots) will not be able to access anything NSFW. In more major cases, it may become harder for moderators of NSFW subreddits to combat serious violations such as CSAM due to certain mod tools being restricted from accessing NSFW content.
Many users with visual impairments rely on 3rd-party applications in order to more easily interface with reddit, as the official reddit mobile app does not have robust support for visually-impaired users. Reddit is saying “non-commercial, accessibility-focused apps and tools will continue to have free access. We’re working with apps like RedReader and Dystopia and a few others to ensure they can continue to access the Data API.”
RedReader granted non-commercial accessibility exemption What can you do as a user?
- Voice your concerns respectfully. Message the mods of /reddit.com, who are the admins of the site: message reddit: submit a support request: comment in relevant threads on /reddit, such as this one, leave a negative review on their official iOS or Android app- and sign your username in support to this post.
- Spread the word. Suggest anyone you know who moderates a subreddit join the coordinated mod effort at /ModCoord.
- Boycott and spread the word...to Reddit's competition! Stay off Reddit entirely on June 12th through the 13th- instead, join us over on the VR Discord
- Don't be a jerk. As upsetting this may be, threats, profanity and vandalism will be worse than useless in getting people on our side. Please make every effort to be as restrained, polite, reasonable and law-abiding as possible.
What can you do as a moderator?
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2023.06.10 19:25 Kbaker48 Daily Post: The 30 Biggest Vintage Cards in My Collection. Day 16 - #15 of 30.
2023.06.10 19:22 ivx178 Guy I’ve been dating says not ready for a relationship - is it because I’m not good enough?
I’ve been going out on dates with this guy for two and half months. He’s a blast! We talk on the phone almost daily. Great guy! He has mentioned he has commitment issues before when discussing past relationships (not cheating or anything just took a looooong time for things to ever become official). Anyways last night we were hanging out and he ended up starting the conversation about not being ready for a relationship. I’ll just list out his key points he made:
-he thinks I’m wonderful, it’s not like he is sitting at home being like if OP was XYZ I would want a relationship. He said if he were ready he would want one with me. -he didn’t think it was fair to ask me to wait and not see other guys while he figures out his own stuff. I told him I had been going on other dates and he was glad to hear it but then was like “I don’t really want to know about those dates. I’m just glad your not waiting” -he still wants to go on dates and talk on the phone. He really doesn’t want to lose my friendship he said. -if I do end up in a relationship, he still really wants to be my friend and be able to call and talk to me because I’m one of his best friends -he finds me insanely attractive
I’m sorta unsure how to feel, like it definitely seems like it doesn’t have anything to do with me, but then my little insecure voice is like “nope, he just doesn’t like you. it’s a you thing”
I do really appreciate his maturity in bring it up, but I’m kinda bummed too because I do really like him. He is a great guy. But does he not want a relationship with me because I’m not good enough?
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2023.06.10 19:22 apedegen_bsouth Need help on next steps!
28 M, 5’9 150lbs, no medications, history of chronic sinusitis and bi polar disorder. I use nicotine no alcohol or drugs.
Symptoms: dizziness, difficulty swallowing , cramps in legs , stomach cramps, waking up just feeling fatigue that last throughout the day. Tight neck and back. This has all been going on for months ( believe in started in October)
Info so far: Been to several drs who typically dismiss me as being a young healthy male. Give me very little time of day. I’m becoming frustrated. I finally got a dr to order some tests. Abnormalities I see include: high albumin 5.4 H ( reference range 3.6-5.1) , Low ALT 7 ( reference range 9-46 U/L), And then they also performed an ANA test on me which I tested POSITIVE with a speckled pattern. That ANA was 140 which said negative was >140 , 140-180 low , 180 + high.
My question: I did some research, does this mean I have an autoimmune disease? Reading these results do any DRs have any concerns from them?
After my lab results the dr never followed up to discuss them or anything. I had to beg the office to just send the results. Thank you for taking time to review I greatly appreciate it !
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2023.06.10 19:21 Aloo13 I feel like I've wasted the last 10 years of my life. How can I improve?
Hello everyone, I'm not even sure exactly what I need to work on, but I figured having some outside perspective may benefit me to some degree so here I am. I feel like I have done nothing since graduating high school 10 years ago, especially when compared to peers. This may be long and convoluted, as I chronologically recount my experiences, so bare with me. I appreciate any advice I get here!
I did finish a science degree at a local university, which I regret in retrospect due to the lack of resources and lack of pushing me out of my boundaries. I had social anxiety that affected me functionally back then and also a few bad experiences, which resulted in a bad first year gpa-wise. This really shot me down and I struggled to raise my GPA to a competitive mark for vet school, which I was initially seeking. I started with signs of depression and feeling inadequate to my peers who seemed to be doing fine that year. I also had very little guidance in terms of university. My father tried to help, but his experiences were different from mine. The academic advisors at my university were also a 'revolving door' and so were often new and unfamiliar with the university and programs. Approaching graduation, I really thought If I made it out with a degree, I'd have decent career opportunities, which didn't happen. I tried applying to multiple places, but I am in a bilingual city and am not bilingual, so all I could manage were minimum wage jobs, while many friends were bilingual and at least got into government jobs. I graduated with no student debt, but ultimately felt frustrated at being unable to obtain a career. Luckily I do have great parents who have been awesome supports and encouraged me on.
I spent a gap year working and then went back into university under a different degree, hoping to raise my grades this time to apply to medical school. I obtained a scholarship that covered part of my tuition. I did actually do well, but then the pandemic hit- this combined with multiple projects and part-time jobs I was juggling spiraled me into burn out. I also got into a new romantic relationship and although he was a great guy, he demanded more of me than I could give and I realized we wanted different things, so I broke it off. Simultaneously, I dealt with a few situations that spiraled me into deeper depression. I cried nearly every other day for 3-4 months. I lost a few friends who I had realized were not good friends and pretty self-centered. However, that also meant I only had two friends left, who were not close by. Following the burn-out, I knew there was no way I could write the MCAT and go through the admissions process, so I applied to an accelerated nursing program and was accepted. I liked that nursing provided a definite opportunity for employment, as well as travel and flexibility in a shorter period of time.
Here is where I am at now:
I am half way through the program and nursing is not what I thought. I plan to continue the program as I think not having a career at this point is contributing to my depression and I hear nursing is different in real practice. We have unions for nurses here and it is a good career nevertheless. But I do feel a sense of loss for what I want to be and really struggle with retrospections, regretting previous choices. I want more for myself, but at this point, my depression has caused me to be constantly tired and worn out. I also feel that my memory has gotten bad. I feel as if I am a burden to my parents and wish I could do more for them. They have been so good to me and have worked so hard that I wish I could treat them instead of having them look out for me. I feel a sense of shame with having no career accomplishment nor significant other and this holds me back from connecting with peers, as I assume judgement or no commonality.
I don't really have a social life anymore. The one friend whom I have been close with often compares our situation these days (as far as looking up a nurse's salary) and that really does hurt me. I don't think it comes from malicious intent, but it has kept me from reaching out to her and I'm finding myself slowly closing up from other potential friends. I struggle with romantic connection. I am not really sure why, but I am extremely cautious in romantic relations and struggle finding someone I am truly attracted too. I did start with romantic relationships later in life than many.
My 10 year HS reunion is coming up this summer and I am absolutely not going; however, this has just made me feel a pit of despair concerning my choices and current situation. At this point, I'm just a professional student and I can't believe 7 years of schooling has gone by seemingly so fast. My depression has just been spiraling the past 2-3 years and it is something I constantly fight. Therapy is unfortunately not an option, as I don't have the finances for it. I truly think that if I hadn't such kind, understanding, and supportive parents, I would have become suicidal. However, sometimes I feel I don't deserve their unconditional love because I have done nothing to be proud of. I have even avoided going to family events, as I fear comparison to my cousins, who I deem more successful than myself.
I really do want to get better and strive for better. I have worked through my social anxiety, which no longer impedes me like it did in my early 20's. However, now it is feelings of despair and inadequacy that plagues my mind and causes me to be excessively tired with anhedonia on many days.
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2023.06.10 19:20 throwawayinphilly2 I feel like my SO doesn’t support/understand my BED. How does your SO support you?
Hi, I have binge eating disorder that I’ve had on and off for years (already see a therapist for it). My SO is aware of it and I had to educate him on it at first bc he didn’t think it was a real thing. We are both in our early 30s & have been together for a while.
Last night, I ordered delivery for myself (from one of my fav pizza places) bc he wasn’t going to be home and of course I binged. I told him about it today. I said I regretted it and felt really sluggish this morning. I also feel really ashamed of myself after I binge. I asked him to support me when he gets back home and help me eat healthier. He got upset at me and said “were you not thinking about me when you ordered that? I would’ve wanted to eat that too. You always do this when I’m not around and it’s frustrating.”
His reaction made me upset bc I already feel terrible about it and I just wanted him to say that it’s okay. For reference, in the past, he’s also gotten mad at me for finishing most of the food in the fridge and said that I need to have more self-control. I’ve explained to him saying things like that or getting upset at me doesn’t help me. He’ll later apologize but that doesn’t discredit how it made me feel during his initial reactions.
Am I overreacting? I know this is my issue I need to work on and I don’t want to feel like I’m burdening him with my problem.
How does your SO support you through your BED? Do they get mad at you when you eat most or all of the food in the fridge?
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I am a graduate student in management and will be writing my thesis on behavioral finance. My supervisor does research at the intersection of behavioral finance and ESG, e.g. how investors might sacrifice diversification to have a sustainable investment. Now I am not sure if I should write a topic close to his research (ESG), I like M&A as a topic much more but then again have no clue if there are current topics on the combination of behavioral finance and M&A? If so can you give me some tips? On the other hand, ESG and sustainable finance as a whole is becoming a bigger trend for a lot of firms. So it might be beneficial to take his topic?
Can you give me research paper recommendations about behavioral finance in combination with ESG or M&A?
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2023.06.10 19:17 DangerRacoon We need to have more rebellious clans than just the yiga, Especially for other races. So I decided to write some
What I especially love about the yiga, Is that they are different antagonists of ganon with different intentions, And they seem to be a comic relief, They are pretty fun characters, And I want to see more of antagonists like them, Especially with other species, Basically what I had in mind is that their needs to be more yiga clan like clans for species like zoras, rito, gerudo, and goron korok too And they all have their dumb comic relief intentions and so on.
Ritos: Name: White Crescent
Mostly chickens, Roosters, And doves, They here beak masks, And have like sky diving suits on them, They also wear red goggles that allow them to see in the night, Their leader is rucko, Who seems to be a giant chicken, Who has an obsession with eggs, Not in a way of wanting to eat them, But protecting them, He thinks the rito village has the eggs held hostage and sold at a "black market" Not to forget how jealous of he is, of revali and tulin. because of their skills.
The white crescent is usually spotted flying in formations, The doves mostly fly and land shots through arrows, The chickens can land on the ground and use their wing daggers, And the roosters wield a giant spear they throw around, Rucko wields a Gatling bow, And his also a coward. The white crescent mostly steals supplies from the rito village, Like rice, And especially eggs, And their goal is get rid of that annoying tiny bird known as tulin and egg the entirety of hyrule, How? Even they don't know. They get easily distracted by eggs, Not to mention Rucko's helper dgidgi the rooster who seems to be a bigger coward than him, But rucko sees him as a helpful assistant. Finally their base would a giant flying blimp with automatic cannon turrets on them.
Zora: Deep
A group of deep sea creatures having glowing yellowish green eyes, And being a constant threat and annoyance to the zora, Their colors mostly range from darker colors, Some of them wear swimming armor similar to a scuba, The normal variants are angler fish while the buffer variants are octopus, Their leader is Brobu, A giant slimy fish, Who has his jelousy over king dorephan (And now sidon) wanting to take over the zora domain, And drown hyrule, He also has a cute axolotl prince who he takes care of, And the axolotl just so happens to be a huge fan of link.
They come out of the water usually, And you can spot them through the glow in the water, the normal variants wield a trident, While the bigger variants wield a great sword, Brobu seems like he can control sludge and water, But he has his greatest sneaky stealthy body guard on his side, Sikon, A black, Quick, blind, squid who can sense link anywhere, Wielding a special spear that allows him to control water, Also his pretty cocky too, And he enjoys food like alot, Gourmet meals can distract him too much, Sense he can smell them, Their location is located through a deep sea cave domain.
Gorons: BoroCorp
A rival of yunobo corp, Borocorp is a group of evil gorons, Who steal from other gorons in the mine, Even attacking their base of operations to take over, These gorons seem to be darker and grayer, And they would attack anyone who try to interfere in their mines and base of operation, Their also very dumb, I mean it, For some reason they enjoy eating gems more than normal rocks unlike the other gorons, Even amber, Which seems to be pretty sweet for them, Their leader is boroboro, A giant goron, Who is known for having a bouncy roll, Allowing him to bounce against walls, His ability is too powerful to the point he flies off from the place on accident, He even knows his too weak for his own power, As much as he seems serious, His also old, And has a childish rivarly with the goron elder and yunobo, His goal is to be rich, And get rid of yunobo corp becoming number one source of gems for hyrule, He also sleeps alot too. The normal black gorons would have a fire trial roll, While the bigger gorons would use their claymore and shield. their base of location is under a volcano.
Gerudo: Warriors of ganon
A group of rebellious gerudos who still have their faith and trust in ganon, Still following ganon to this day, They are evil gerudos wearing strong metal armor with swords, shields, and spear, And some who appear to be stealthy assassins, They can be seen wandering around in the deserts, With higher chances in desert storms, Their location seems to be located below in the middle of the gerudo desert, Their lead by a devout follower of ganon, Rina, A gerudo warrior who seems to have practice in her assassin skill, And she also loves sand seal much like riju, Despite rina hating riju's guts, She owns several land seals who she considers her pets with names too, Shes childish, And not to forget their sort of introverted especially to voes, Rina is pretty quick, Wielding her two swords, But she does mess up alot, She wants to take over gerudo town and dethrone riju, And help in bringing back ganon.
Yeah those are my ideas or take on other evil clans aside from the yiga, Keeping them as also comic reliefs
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2023.06.10 19:15 merfaewit13 Does anyone else have a selfish friend like this?
I (35f)have a male friend (31) I made recently we Live 5 hours apart so we talk over the internet and whenever we video chat he loves to do these things. We will be talking and he'll want to take a dab of weed while having me watch him do it and him blowing the smoke at the camera asking if I'm watching. We'll then either watch YouTube videos he wants to watch, sing along and listen to songs he wants to play, or play video games and have me watch. I will suggest a video that I think you'll find hilarious or a song he should listen to and he won't do it telling me he's selfish selfish with his time and it's really getting on my nerves.
I mean I can honestly see why he has no friends besides me that he talks to on a daily basis or hangs out with I don't blame these people at all. Not only that but when he's doing these things if I'm not giving him my full attention he will get annoyed. If were listening to a song he puts on he'll bring up the lyrics and have me follow along to them just to ensure that I'm focused on what he's doing and not giving my attention elsewhere. If I'm watching him play video games and I'm not talking enough about the game or to him he'll think I'm not paying attention and if I say yes I am he'll call me a liar.
Like when we do this I'm on the PlayStation app watching him while talking to him over the phone. So how the hell does he know what I'm doing and not doing if he can't see me and isn't here. As for the the YouTube videos he will ask randomly if I'm watching and if I'm not, commenting, laughing or saying things about the video and just keeping silent he again assumes I'm not watching. And God forbid you get mad at him for accusing you of being a liar because that solidifies to him that you are lying which I hate.
Last but certainly not least you also can't get frustrated or upset even a little because this man says you're stressing him out and he doesn't like it telling you to stop stressing. But this mofo is allowed to get mad, upset and frustrated. Like rules for thee not for me. You know? So I don't know if I can keep going with this friendship. What would all of you do if you were in a friendship like this?
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2023.06.10 19:15 Vijay_Aravindh The Window of Opportunities, It’s a rom-com pitch I wrote for my close friend’s indie film. Looking for some feedback and alternative titles.
The Window of Opportunities
Time has really moved at a break-neck speed, it's already been 2.5 years since I was made the Assistant Branch Manager of the SBI branch, Ambattur. I am probably two quarters away from becoming the Branch manager. I did an exceptional performance last quarter and had the best loan management throughput in southern India. I donned the youngest employee of the branch, but my older colleagues, who usually are my sub-ordinates, respected me and maintain a good rapport. All though everything seems great, the monotony was slowly creeping in. Sometimes I feel nothing new or interesting ever happens here.
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It was such a usual boring Monday when something changed forever. Hema, a new clerk had joined our branch. I don’t hold the youngest employee tag anymore but happy to pass it to her. She was allocated a table facing my cabin entrance window. She seems a bit nervous, as it was her first day at this office. The peon and later the cashier had given her the office tour, and after meeting the BM, she entered my cabin. She wore a cotton yellow chudithaar with an umbrella cut, a simple black sandal, silvery earrings, and neatly braided hair with few strands floating over her forehead. She was really tense and her voice was feeble when she introduced herself. Hemamalini Manimaaran, that was her name. Maybe I will ask her out for a coffee someday.
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It's been 4 months since Hema joined the branch. I haven’t asked her out for a coffee yet, but I have made steady progress toward asking her out. In these months, I haven’t had any chance to talk something other than office work. We do exchange occasional Hi-byes and daily greetings. Today, she is wearing a cool-blue cotton chudithar, with a white shawl. Her hair was neatly braided with a red rose pinned tightly by a small metal hair clip. Still, a few strands of hair defied the bun and floated in the air, caressing her tiny black spade-shaped bindi. I had assigned her to clear monthly balance sheets and finish up some data entry work as well. She looks pretty settled and comfortable in the office these days, often listening to music in her thin white earphones when not attending to the customer's queries. She wears her watch on her right hand, and her handwriting is super-legible even on challans written at high speed. I had turned punctual these days, taking care of my appearance, bathing daily, dressing formally, polishing my shoes and combing my hair. I spend most of my days in my cabin, releasing cheques, issuing drafts, processing loans and watching her work through my window. She is a slow poison to my soul. I have delayed it too much already, today there isn’t much work, and the climate also seems to be good, I will be taking her, sorry I mean asking her out for a coffee later this evening. I am a bit nervous though.
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It has been 2 years since Hema stepped into my branch for the first time. I haven’t been promoted to Branch manager yet, but my Bosses from HQ have promised me a promotion coming quarter. It doesn’t matter though. Hema, my love, she is turning beautiful for every account opened, cheque passed, loan cleared and query resolved. Nowadays I feel that I am coming to my office just to see her work. She is not the nervous new girl anymore, she has gotten steadier, sincere and more responsible in her work. Today she is wearing a neatly ironed maroon cotton saree, nothing fancy except for the beautiful peacock embroidery at the border. Yes, She had started wearing sarees to the office these days. Some things have changed in these two years, she had changed her sandals twice and mobile phone once, but still owns the same earphones, uses the same perfume and wears the same watch but with a different strap. Something nice happened 3 months ago, the cashier had once invited me to have lunch in the common break room with everyone. yes, I was pathetically eating my lunch all alone in my cabin all these years. He just invited me once but I somehow made it into a routine. Hema checked her watch and turned off her PC, Yes! Lunchtime. This twenty minutes of having lunch at the same table along with Hema is the best thing that could happen today. She is silently eating lemon rice and beetroot poriyal that she bought in her green Tupperware lunch box. By the way, I haven't asked her out for a coffee yet, but we did have a couple of coffees and a few teas in these 2 years in our office paper cups that had been shrunken in size as a part of budgeting last fiscal year, but who cares. I may have not asked for a date yet, but I have come to the conclusion that she is the one for me and after my promotion next quarter, I will propose to her for hand in marriage. I think that kind of gesture would suit both of our personalities. Anyhoo…tell me how does anyone describe the feeling when you see your future wife eating Lemon rice silently in a corner. God, I love her so much. She occasionally brings curd rice, pulao, sambar, podi-idly, and chapathi for her lunch, but I often noticed her eating lemon rice for lunch. I think she is the one who cooks and packs her own lunch. I always wanted to share her lemon rice with me. Maybe after marriage, I will daily cook her something more nicer than lemon rice, if lemon rice is not her favourite lunch.
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It was my eighth year at Ambattur Branch SBI. I had turned into branch manager a few weeks ago. It's a Monday, and sadly Hema will not be coming to the office today, I approved her maternity leave last Friday. She won’t be coming for the next 6 months. Yeah, she got married to a nice-looking gentleman. She seems happy and she literally glowed beautifully when I signed her approval. I redistributed her work to the rest of the employees. I don’t know where to eat lunch today. Last Friday she said, she was due in 3 months. Hope she has a safe delivery. The past year has been a little hard for me, both on the professional and personal front. Hema got engaged and then got married. I attended the marriage reception with other branch colleagues. Our overall branch performances dropped, and targets were falling short. My previous branch manager retired. I was eventually made BM, but I didn’t change my cabin though. I gained some weight, my hairline receded, don’t talk much. I am turning 33, tomorrow.
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I am retiring this month, as BM of the Ambattur SBI branch. Hema entered my cabin with her lunch bag and two small paper cups of office coffee. I cleared my table for her to place the cutleries. We had taken an early lunch today. She is my best friend here. She and my wife are good friends too. She sat facing me, her grey hair strands still floating gracefully over her wrinkly forehead. She had brought Lemon Rice today. We shared it. Though my wife’s veg biriyani outclasses the lemon rice by a huge margin, I have a soft spot for the Lemon rice. Hema talks a lot, she loves to talk, and I love to listen to her. The conversation glided smoothly over a wide spectrum of topics, ranging from naming her grandchild, my son’s college, the rapidly changing banking sector, retirement plans, office hot goss, last quarter’s audit, SEBI regulations, and real estate. After 90 minutes of memorable lunch, we winded up and she walked back to her table. When I retire this month, she would be the oldest employee of the branch. She still has 3 years of service. I am sure she can manage on her own. I sat in my cabin and looked at her through my cabin window, She is wearing a beige-coloured cotton saree with simple floral patterns, I still remember her first day at the branch, in her yellow Chudithar. Lots have changed in these 35 years, our hair greyed, skin wrinkled as we worked, smiled, cried and grew in this small office space. Lots of opportunities have passed by. I have missed all of them. Regretted for a few years for missing them, but now looking back at all these years, I have witnessed all my love for this woman, beautifully transform into respect and friendship. She was skimming through some files at her desk, she paused and turned to see me through the window, and our eyes met. I smiled. She smiled.
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