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Job Title: Mobile Game Artist Extraordinaire (Contract)
Location: Wherever You're Most Creative (Remote)
Who We Are:
Right now, it's just me! I'm a seasoned mobile game dev with 10+ years of experience under my belt. At my previous gigs, I took several apps from mere prototypes to live operations, eventually achieving more than 5 million downloads. Now, I'm looking to build something of my own. But I can't do it alone - I need an exceptional artist to join me on this journey.
What's the Gig?
I'm on the hunt for a brilliant artist to collaborate with on a new casual mobile game. You'll be in charge of creating vibrant and exciting artwork, working directly with me to ensure the visuals match the innovative gameplay.
This starts as a contract role, but there's massive potential here for the right person to transition to a full-time founding artist in a brand-new studio. I'm talking about a significant role with heaps of creative freedom and the opportunity to shape a fresh gaming studio from scratch.
What You'll Be Doing:

• Crafting and animating stunning 2D art assets for game characters, backgrounds, and UI elements.
• Brainstorming and collaborating with me to construct an immersive visual experience for our players.
• Managing your tasks to hit deadlines and tackle any artistic challenges that pop up.

What You Need:

• A dazzling portfolio that showcases your mobile game art talents.
• Have you worked on shipped titles before? Big plus!
• Openness to feedback and agility in adapting when priorities shift.
• Excellent communication skills and a collaborative spirit.
• Above all, a love for games and an understanding of what makes them visually captivating and exciting to play.

Why Join Me?

• You'll have a massive amount of creative freedom and a substantial role in what we're building.
• The opportunity to turn this contract gig into a full-time position as a founding artist in a groundbreaking new studio.
• Competitive pay.
• The chance to be part of a tight-knit team (of two, to start) where your voice truly matters.
• The thrill of seeing your artwork adored by millions of gamers worldwide.

Ready to embark on this exciting journey? Send over your resume, a link to your online portfolio, and a brief note about why you're the perfect fit for this role. Please note: applications without a portfolio will not be considered.
P.S. I am a strong advocate for diversity and inclusivity. All you need to bring to the table is your talent, your passion, and your unique perspective!
Please contact me at [[email protected]](mailto:[email protected]) with resumes/portfolios/questions. Thanks!

My gecko is very healthy. Nothing seems wrong, I mean, he poops everyday, eats everyday, sleeps, plays, has a big attitude lmao. His lighting and cage is fine. And I usually give his cage a deep clean with unscented cleaner soap thing, warm water, and a clean sponge about once every week. I also spot clean everyday and do great husbandry. As in clean water, spot clean, adjust light etc..
I see videos online that their gecko is very healthy than one day he has crypto. And I also heard it's very deadly in geckos. I really love my gecko and I don't worry about him now but in the future I'm worried he'll have crypto.
I'm not sure how they get crypto but I did have a hermit crab, he had a coconut hide and he died recently so I wanted to give it to my leo. I disinfected everything well and change his paper towels every week. His food is okay and I gut load. I also give him the repashy multivitamin every feeding and calcium with d3 2-3 times a week.
I got him from the horrible p*tco and he was in maybe a 3-5 gallon with carpet and maybe 6 other geckos at the time. I think one gecko there was sick, if not, than just sleepy. I don't have the money for a vet right now (I will if he really needs it though) and I'm new so I worry about him.
Is there anyway to stop crypto from happening and infecting my baby? And maybe anyway to spot it early on? Like symptoms? I have a big fear of him dying because I love him so much. Please help

Hey Im 23M currently living alone in montreal . Given the ridiculous high numbers of Posts i’m not really confident that this post can help, but why not.
Well, in short ,I am a simple men , not looking for anything specific, just a fun and nice person to be talk to. I’m a bit shy myself but wouldn’t mind meeting an extroverted person, this can balance things out.
About me: I am a masters student in engineering. During my free time i enjoy playing chess, watch movies and anime and read (although i don’y read as much as i would like). I’ve been watching movies regularly for a while now, i love oldies between 70s and 90s.
I also listen to music. I’m into oldies: led zeppelin, the beatles, pink floyd, jethro trull…. You get the vibe
Aside from that i enjoy going on hikes and campings. I really like walking i nature just to think about something else than my routine and have been to some beautiful places (that i can share in dms :) ).
In terms of sports i really like ping pong and badminton.
Id like to meet someone preferably from the american continent, I dont’ mind any other countries, it’s just time zones issues which can make disccussions shorts and not frequent thats all.
Let me know if you’re interested. Feel free to dm

I feel like I always need to preface my posts by saying that I'm a big supporter of the family - I'm one of the ones here who always defends the Pieces and Middles so I've got some constructive feedback, which I think would really help Crazy Worth It.
Firstly, it's a different concept to vlogging, which means it requires a completely new way to edit. Showing long bits where they are waiting on a product or unsure of how to use it gets tiresome - unless they're critiquing the product on being confusing. At the moment there's not enough separation between the products they're trying out. Also I think the is it worth it or not needs to be tighter / stronger / more emphatic when they definitely think it's worth it.
I also think they should film in one space - where there's a table and they try most of the products there (unless they have to go to the kitchen or car or something.
Third, develop a brand identity for it - develop your own version of ticks and crosses - maybe your own language etc.
And finally - I mean this with the utmost respect and love - Hannah needs to be more confident and stop looking at Crystal for validation when she says something or gets shy. It's awesome that she conceived this channel and wants it to work. She should be more confident in her responses. Even if they have to re-edit them in - because at the moment Crystal does most of the filler talk. There are times you see Hannah being super confident and then other times where she buckles.. and that's OK - there's absolutely nothing wrong with it - but you're in the game of swaying public opinion on a product so I think a bit of confidence will help.
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Just my two cents - if they're reading this, I hope they're not offended. I just feel like for it to be lasting, it can't just be treated and edited like a normal vlog.

My character is a Halfling Jinx Witch that I built as a support (mainly debuff) character. One of our players regularly drops without notice so our DM is having trouble with building encounters and stuff. He can wing it, but when this happens it always means that the work he put into the next game is wasted. So I'm trying to see how I can rebuild my character (DM gave the go ahead) to not detract from what I wanted but to also make it good with stealth. My character so far:
A Profession (Medicine Woman) with Craft (Alchemy) who is deep in her books all the time, especially occult stuff, and loves the herb, if y'know what I mean. I focused her spells, feats, &c. on being a good support role for the group, mainly focusing on debuffs. She's from Irrisen and wants to free it from the witches. She became a witch because of it: know thine enemy and all that.
Anyone got any suggestions as to what I can do to have my character fit both the support (debuff) and stealth role with the whole concept of a halfling medicine woman witch from Irrisen? We're level 4 right now.

Hey Im 23M currently living alone in montreal . Given the ridiculous high numbers of Posts i’m not really confident that this post can help, but why not.
Well, in short ,I am a simple men , not looking for anything specific, just a fun and nice person to be talk to. I’m a bit shy myself but wouldn’t mind meeting an extroverted person, this can balance things out.
About me: I am a masters student in engineering. During my free time i enjoy playing chess, watch movies and anime and read (although i don’y read as much as i would like). I’ve been watching movies regularly for a while now, i love oldies between 70s and 90s.
I also listen to music. I’m into oldies: led zeppelin, the beatles, pink floyd, jethro trull…. You get the vibe
Aside from that i enjoy going on hikes and campings. I really like walking i nature just to think about something else than my routine and have been to some beautiful places (that i can share in dms :) ).
In terms of sports i really like ping pong and badminton.
Id like to meet someone preferably from the american continent, I dont’ mind any other countries, it’s just time zones issues which can make disccussions shorts and not frequent thats all.
Let me know if you’re interested. Feel free to dm

me and my girlfriend have been online friends for about three years and only recently got together in a relationship. it’s been a few months and to say the least it’s been a bit rocky.
bit of a back up story: we tend to get into small arguments over things that hurt her, that i usually cause. they aren’t major things but they mean a lot to her so i can respect that. for example if i go too long without texting her regardless of if i’m at work asleep or with someone. it got so bad two months ago that i had to stay home from work and cut contact with all my friends just so i wouldn’t hurt her on accident.
now while she did let me know that she does have this obsession with me and that she is quite mentally unstable as she said herself, i find it a bit difficult to take in at times. but nonetheless, i don’t mind it too much and in her defense she did give me a clear warning and i find all the reasons for her to get upset to be valid. we have that typical ‘when it’s good it’s good, when it’s bad it’s bad’ type relationship. she’s had a lot of difficulty in her life with family, her father specifically, friends and school, and mentally and physically abusive ex boyfriends that groomed her from an early age.
with all this in mind, i do understand the need for reassurance. i’ve given up a lot for her, almost everything i have left. she’s got a dog that could cause my cat physical harm so i have to leave her at home when we do find a place to move into. i’ve sacrificed all my privacy, she’s logged into every account i have, she sees all my texts and even went as far as to make me unfollow people and delete all my comments that i have posted, compliments and etc. she also doesn’t like any of my friends which i find heartbreaking seeing as they mean a lot to me.
i made her a promise to do everything for her but seeing as i’ve got an abusive father myself, at times it gets hard to be able to text back at once. to what she replied to with ‘if you as a grown ass adult cant even stand up to your father for me then you can’t keep the promise you made’ making me feel a bit iffy, she did apologize for this to be fair.
despite all of this, it sounds corny but she’s helped me regain my ability to smile, she heals my past traumas and helped me with my own mental health. when i was at my lowest drowning myself in drugs she pulled me out and took care of me. i’ve learned a lot from her and i know she genuinely cares and loves me, it’s just feels like i can never do anything right for her. she doesn’t get as much angry as she gets mostly sad.
fast forward to today, my family and i booked a vacation to drive around europe, which already is a big problem in itself. seeing as every time i leave my house i tend to look a bit away from my phone, but no longer than an hour or two goes by before i text her at worst. on top of that when we first met i promised to take her to disney land, which she hasn’t been to yet, and my family booked tickets there for us.
i didn’t know they did, and told her at once not thinking it would be a huge deal. i was wrong. she took it quite to heart and explained that every time her ex would promise her to take her somewhere he would take someone else. and felt that this was what i was doing, she states that she wanted to feel prioritized and now i’m going with someone else.
i told her i’ll stay at the hotel while they’re at the park which she replied to saying ‘no you should have fun’
i tried explaining to her that i would feel too guilty to have fun and she got upset. i cant help but want to go but i feel an insane amount of guilt for wanting to but if i tell her she’ll feel like a bad person.
unsure what to do , to anyone who decided to read anything i would love to hear your opinion.

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Yokosuka Academy! A prestigious institution that combines traditional education with the study of magic, the cosmos, and all other phenomena! The school caters to students from various magical backgrounds! Including but not limited to...
Witches with their herbs and pots!
Wizards gleaming their power from their vast minds!
Sorcerers casting ephemeral colors and happening!
And of course magical creatures of our whims and wonder.
The buildings are a blend of ancient architecture and modern design, with enchanted portraits, floating staircases, and ever-changing murals adorning the halls.
Alongside regular subjects like mathematics, history, and literature, Arcane Academy offers a wide range of magical disciplines. Students can choose to specialize in elemental magic, potion-making, spellcasting, divination, magical creatures, and more. Practical lessons take place in specialized laboratories, training arenas, and enchanted outdoor spaces.
So what's stopping you, the you that is now, the you that will be, the you that CAN be? Yokosuka yearns to bring you to new heights! Apply now and make the world your whimsical oyster!
(Yokosuka Academy is not responsible for any physical, mental, or emotional harm received during studies.)
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Our community is small and just starting so you wont be missing out on story or anything. Come in and join us we would love to have you!
https://discord.gg/UJVUFu5v
If link expires, please feel free to dm me!

LGBTQ+ friendly
-Nsfw optional
-Open to Ideas/Suggestions
-Open to Partnerships
-Brand New!
-Custom Powers
-Free range OC creations
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Yokosuka Academy! A prestigious institution that combines traditional education with the study of magic, the cosmos, and all other phenomena! The school caters to students from various magical backgrounds! Including but not limited to...
Witches with their herbs and pots!
Wizards gleaming their power from their vast minds!
Sorcerers casting ephemeral colors and happening!
And of course magical creatures of our whims and wonder.
The buildings are a blend of ancient architecture and modern design, with enchanted portraits, floating staircases, and ever-changing murals adorning the halls.
Alongside regular subjects like mathematics, history, and literature, Arcane Academy offers a wide range of magical disciplines. Students can choose to specialize in elemental magic, potion-making, spellcasting, divination, magical creatures, and more. Practical lessons take place in specialized laboratories, training arenas, and enchanted outdoor spaces.
So what's stopping you, the you that is now, the you that will be, the you that CAN be? Yokosuka yearns to bring you to new heights! Apply now and make the world your whimsical oyster!
(Yokosuka Academy is not responsible for any physical, mental, or emotional harm received during studies.)
---------------------
Our community is small and just starting so you wont be missing out on story or anything. Come in and join us we would love to have you!
https://discord.gg/UJVUFu5v
If link expires, please feel free to dm me!

LGBTQ+ friendly
-Nsfw optional
-Open to Ideas/Suggestions
-Open to Partnerships
-Brand New!
-Custom Powers
-Free range OC creations
--------------
Yokosuka Academy! A prestigious institution that combines traditional education with the study of magic, the cosmos, and all other phenomena! The school caters to students from various magical backgrounds! Including but not limited to...
Witches with their herbs and pots!
Wizards gleaming their power from their vast minds!
Sorcerers casting ephemeral colors and happening!
And of course magical creatures of our whims and wonder.
The buildings are a blend of ancient architecture and modern design, with enchanted portraits, floating staircases, and ever-changing murals adorning the halls.
Alongside regular subjects like mathematics, history, and literature, Arcane Academy offers a wide range of magical disciplines. Students can choose to specialize in elemental magic, potion-making, spellcasting, divination, magical creatures, and more. Practical lessons take place in specialized laboratories, training arenas, and enchanted outdoor spaces.
So what's stopping you, the you that is now, the you that will be, the you that CAN be? Yokosuka yearns to bring you to new heights! Apply now and make the world your whimsical oyster!
(Yokosuka Academy is not responsible for any physical, mental, or emotional harm received during studies.)
---------------------
Our community is small and just starting so you wont be missing out on story or anything. Come in and join us we would love to have you!
https://discord.gg/UJVUFu5v
If link expires, please feel free to dm me!

Hello there! I haven’t flirted with anyone for such a long time that I thought this could be fun. I never quite know how to introduce myself but I am a 21 yo male from Brazil, a country in South America. I am going to university for a social sciences degree, and while this is not an application, it feels like one so yes my GPA is pretty high. Besides that, I write poetry on the side, and I work for a small online newspaper.
I am fascinated fairly often by many things so you won’t be bored. These days I was reading about Liberian history before the 1980 coup d’etat and last month I became fascinated by modern Spanish history after reading Preston’s biography of Francisco Franco. In general, I really enjoy all the humanities. I follow politics keenly, and I’d say I am on the centre-left – pro-abortion, in favour of a robust welfare state, LGBTQ+ rights, affirmative action. If you know about Brazilian politics, I voted for Marina and Haddad in 2018 (the voting age here is 16), and Lula last year.
As you can imagine, I also really enjoy reading and writing. Besides poetry, I often write little chronicles, and I have dreamt about writing a novel, but that definitely sounds like too much work right now. As for my favourite novels, they definitely would be Auto-da-Fé by Elias Canetti and War and Peace by Tolstoy. I also really enjoy TV shows and cinema, in general, and I am easily brought to tears in the movies. Yes, I cried during the last Minions movie – and I didn’t even go there willingly. And I really love music. My taste in music has been described as “fairly gay” by a few friends. Since last year, I have been especially fascinated by Rosalía, but I love tango, classical music, hip hop, pop, and indie. I'd have loved to be a musician, but ah, social scientist and amateur poet is good enough.
I'd say I am pretty introverted, polite, and timid. I am affectionate and I can be very passionate as well. I’m fairly funny – or at least, a few people laugh, that is. As for what I want to do with my life, I am unsure though I am inclined to go into academia. I have been considering applying to a PhD program in the U.S. after finishing my undergrad here in Brazil. My family does want me to go into their business, which is related to politics.
What am I looking for? I’d like someone curious about the world around her. And I’d like someone who would be willing to watch Seinfeld with me at times. Someone to love, someone to care, and someone to write about.

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I take singing lessons but I mainly do rap, so everything I learn in my rap lessons I apply to rap, not singing. I’ve gotten good with tone and emotion, but my two singing weaknesses are technically and pitch (sometime my pitch is good, sometimes it’s off). I wanna make a pop rap EP, I have melody ideas and they’re really good. I’ve shown these ideas to people online and they told me to release the song. I showed it to my friend and he said the vocals were awful. I trust his opinion for lyrics and stuff, but idk if I trust his opinion on how a song actually sounds. His music taste is different from mine and he considers himself a good singer, but he sings way to professional and music choirish, while I sing more edgy and harsh
My ear has gotten good at spotting if a song sounds good or not, and I love the song I created (that my friend said doesn’t sound good). The only thing is I need to add a little more auto tune and add smoother vocals and make it less harsh
Even if my vocals aren’t perfectly professional, should I release them? Or should I scrap the idea if I can’t sing them perfectly by myself?

Hello, I have always been interested in Alien stories, movies, UFO stories and documentaries but I feel that I am still really in the dark when it comes to finding this information. I have trouble discerning who is credible or not and what to look up. I would love to get some names and stories, interviews, podcasts, movies etc that anyone suggests for me to look into to gain more knowledge on UFOs and ufo abduction stories.
I grew up watching Ancient Aliens on the TV with my dad at night. It was something that got me interested in this along with science fiction books like the robot city series written by Issac asimov that included robots and aliens in it. I also loved the 5th element film too. I recently saw fire in the sky and contact and thought those films were great. I saw the 4th kind film when I was in middle school and it really scared me. I hadn't heard of the concept of scary aliens before until I saw that film and it got me interested into learning more about ufo abductions and what people's stories are and if they share similarities. If anyone has recommendations on where to get more information about UFOs and ufo abduction stories I would love to hear it. This is a fun hobby for me and just something I am curious about so I am always interested in learning as much as I can about it.
The current UFO abduction stories I know about and crashes are the roswell ufo crash, Calvin Parker's ufo abduction story, the abduction story of Betty and barney Hill, the story in the 4th kind film, Tavis Walton's abduction story, stories about crop circles (though not abduction related, still interesting af to me), Garry Nolan on the Lexington Friedman podcast, things Edward Snowden has said on the joe rogan podcast (unfortunately he did not find any ufo info when he was looking into what the government was doing and exposing it), the various people joe rogan has had on his podcast discussing ufos or abduction stories, and Bob Lazar's story as well as what richard dottie did to paul benewitz. (Sorry for mispellings on names etc). As I go on youtube though, there's many more videos suggested to me and I feel like I've only seen a very small amount of ufo information out there. I would love to see and learn more. I feel I have only touched the surface. Though it's hard for me to know what's credible or not. What's exaggerated or what's lies or what's honest. Maybe I can never fully know that. But I would love for this community to suggest me some stuff to watch and listen to to help broaden what I currently know. I also have heard about project blue book, project montouak, the rainbow experiment, the nazi ufo bell project (though I don't know much about that one other than that title), admril byrd and his trip to Alaska where he met with aliens that sound similar to the plededian aliens, the Denver international Airport conspiracies and the reptilian conspiracies involved in it, I know a little bit about David Ike but to me he's about as credible and extreme as Alex Jones, and isn't someone I necessarily enjoy listening to or trusting (not to tip on anyone's toes here. I'm sure plenty of people enjoy those 2 guys but they just aren't really my cup of tea personally. However I do find their stories interesting indeed.) And I know not all of the conspiracies I mention relate to ufos but a lot of the information surrounding them sometimes gets tied in with aliens/Alien technology and alien experiments etc. I find all of this interesting. I'm sure there's more things I have seen and heard but I can't remember it all right now. Those are just some of the few that stick out to me that I would love to learn more about. If anyone has recommendations on where to go from here let me know.
On a funnielighter note, I did see the episode in Adventure Time where Tree Trunks gets abducted by aliens and has a ton of babies with them and I thought that was a fun nod to the ufo community and ufo abductee community by Pendleton Ward so if anyone wants to check that out for some laughs and entertainment, I recommend it. It's a great show. So is Rick and Morty and Inside Job. If anyone has shows similar like that for fun to recommend for me to watch feel free to comment them to me.
Best wishes (and thanks for listening to my long rambling misspelled question about ufo stuff.) :)

I take singing lessons but I mainly do rap, so everything I learn in my rap lessons I apply to rap, not singing. I’ve gotten good with tone and emotion, but my two singing weaknesses are technically and pitch (sometime my pitch is good, sometimes it’s off). I wanna make a pop rap EP, I have melody ideas and they’re really good. I’ve shown these ideas to people online and they told me to release the song. I showed it to my friend and he said the vocals were awful. I trust his opinion for lyrics and stuff, but idk if I trust his opinion on how a song actually sounds. His music taste is different from mine and he considers himself a good singer, but he sings way to professional and music choirish, while I sing more edgy and harsh
My ear has gotten good at spotting if a song sounds good or not, and I love the song I created (that my friend said doesn’t sound good). The only thing is I need to add a little more auto tune and add smoother vocals and make it less harsh
Even if my vocals aren’t perfectly professional, should I release them? Or should I scrap the idea if I can’t sing them perfectly by myself?

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Have just run a novice linear progression for last 6 months or so (first 3 months kinda bullshit dumbell work getting back into swing and last 3 months serious barbell training). Very happy with progress Squat (115 x 5), bench (85 x 6), Deadlift (135 x 5), OHP (62.5 x 5). Original numbers piddly. But am now stalling. Have been doing so on a maingaining type diet as I wanted to 'fall in love' with the process of lifting and didn't want the additional diet pressure. I am now committed to the project, so to speak, and ready to begin a cut. Weight is 113kg at 30% bodyfat (Inbody reading), height 179cm (almost 6 foot club....). Necessity of a cut is obvious, I think. As is the reason why I didn't eat in a calorie surplus last few months. Was a total couch potato 6 months ago (Covid lockdowns) although I did used to train a bit of crossfit and running (2hr half Mara time, so just avg Joe stuff) but that was 4 years ago now.
Looking for suggestions as to programs which are centred around maintaining as much strength and size as possible whilst in caloric deficit. Current program has been centred around major compound lifts at 4-6 rep range, development lift for alternate movement pattern at 6-8 rep range (eg. Bench, seated dumbell press (OHP Dev lift); or Squat, Romanian Deadlift (DL Dev lift) etc.), followed by accessories at 10-15 rep range - similar to the way Bromley runs bullmastiff from an exercise selection POV.
Theres a tonne of advice online around this stuff, but so much that it's difficult to separate the wheat from the chaff. RP says training for size and strength at same time is silly, and to focus on strength hypertrophy when in a cut. Nippard has many programs that seem to focus on strength and size at same time but can't see one specifically for cutting. Bromley literally yells in one video STOP RUNNING MY PROGRAMS ON A CUT which is funny but unhelpful...
Curious if also, I should just keep doing what I am doing but realign goals. If so, what are decent goals to have strength wise while cutting? Simply maintain pre-cut numbers, is that reasonable or oveunder expectations? Ultimate goal is to get to 140 bench, 180 squat, 220 Deadlift (which overrides any MAJOR physique goals), but realise I need to train in a surplus to get there, however bulking at 30% bodyfat is just ridiculous and loses sight of the primary reason I began this all which is health. Plan is to drop down into healthy bf range to have the 'room' to bulk up when the time is right without becoming a moon faced bloat lord.
Advice?

Looking for all kinds of older women (30-55) (that being said, I wouldn't mind if someone my age wanted to connect and an online relationship would be great, too) And this doesn't have to be anything long-term, something like a once off would work just as fine. Although I'd obviously love something long-lasting.
Why an older woman? There's just something unbelievably alluring about them. An unrivaled sex appeal so to speak. Someone who's got a ton of life experiences and could probably teach me a thing or two! Preferably inside the bedroom, of course 🙂 I just have this insatiable desire to fulfill one's needs and give as much pleasure as possible. The fantasy is unbelievably strong and the want to fulfill it is just as powerful.
I'm up for anything you wish/want to do. If you happen to be a lonely housewife just looking for some company and an ear to talk to - it doesn't have to be bedroom-related - I'd be more than happy to be there for you. Friendships are always great. Or if you need some much needed attention, I can be your boytoy too 😉 All up to you, providing you're comfortable.
As for myself, I'm just a normal cute 28-year-old guy, the usual hobbies, etc. Having said that, I'd prefer if we got to know each other in conversation! I know it's unconventional and nothing can happen, but I just want a chance. That's it. Hopefully my crazy post reaches someone out there.

I want someone who is decent at league of legends (gold or above) and would love to spam arams with me on a daily basis. We can play other games on steam (risk of rain 2, destiny 2, lost ark, gunfire reborn, etc). However, it would be sooo cool to kick ass at league together. As for the other games we can play, I'm willing to give almost anything a shot (as long as it's not scary or another mmo lol I'm a chicken for the 1st and I'm already invested into lost ark for the 2nd). Only thing is that I only play on a PC (I dont have any consoles - sorry <3).
The rest of it comes with just a genuine friendship - watch/talk about anime, listen to music, chill in discord, whatever. :)
Basically, I'm a kid at heart and I just wann a play some video games with someone whom I can call my friend. I think having a good friend or two whom you can rely on and they can rely on you is an important asset of life and it would make me happy to find that.
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I just want to add trigger warnings: sleeping pill use, possible reactive abuse?, self harm/suicide ideation
Hello everyone! I am just really struggling with determining if I was the narcissist in a previous relationship that’s weighing heavy on me. I would like to state that before this relationship, I was in an all over abusive relationship (That was actually my 1st serious relationship, happened in high school) that was very traumatic. Within and after that relationship, that ex was telling me that no one would love me or love me like he does, would physically hurt me as he would tell me that ‘he is not hurting me, I am hurting myself’, blame me for everything in the relationship, his mom would make excuses for him even as she heard him hurting me.. It was a LOT. And I guess that was also why I was so susceptible to my next relationship which is the one I am inquiring about.
So, that relationship lasted 3 years.. I went to therapy.. A year and maybe a half later, I met another guy (which is the one I am more confused on and questioning myself the most..) My 1st bf was known as not a good guy so it was easier for me to come to terms with that it was not me? But this one… Everyone LOVES him… We met through a friend of mine at a theme park.. I guess for a good month he was trying to get my number from her (she was a good friend of mine at the time, she was dating one of his good friends, they knew each other. She took us to where he was). I got a text from him saying “Hey beautiful, can you guess who this is?” and it all started from there..
He had previously gotten out of a 4 year relationship, 2 months before we met (Stupid me; HOWEVER, i did not know how short of a time span it truly was until I went through his phone and laptop), but he made it seem like she was just cheating on him and not doing right by him majorly, he was over it, and it was done. I didn’t know his part until the 4th year when I went through his laptop and saw that he would call her names, he would be trying to be sexual with her friend which is the same girl who told him that he couldn’t cheat on me with anyone besides her and he agreed (Same girl that would be mentioned in a bit), and so on. We ended up going to the same college, and hanging out a lot; However, even from month one he was trying to get with me and saying that he “had” to be with me because I was sweet, beautiful, xyz but he didn’t have time for that at the moment due to him just getting out of the relationship (which I was ok with tbh. But when mentioning that I don’t think I wanted to date he would be like why?… As well as I think this is what got me too because he was not prioritizing a relationship so it did not seem like he would be using me). He would call me while he was at work a lot, and he even showed up to my house once randomly because I was trying to avoid hanging out with him and me and my friend had to lie and say I wasn’t there. He would explain a lot of how we would make sense together in a sense and why I should not be opposed to dating him.. Within the 4th month, he confessed that he loved me and hoped that I felt the same… In my gut I felt that it did not feel right… But everyone was saying that he liked me, everyone loved him, and he seemed like a good guy and totally opposite of my 1st ex… So I thought, maybe this is love and maybe I do love him… One night I stupidly explained what I been through before meeting him (my previous relationship and friendships) and how I just did not want to go through that again… He said he would never put me through anything like that, will treat me how I deserve like the princess I am, and how laid back he was (but I did not think laid back would mean flirting with other women in front of me or in general, etc which he would mention at a later time when bringing things up to him “Well I told you I was laid back”).. By this time I was lowkey babe, his princess, etc… His friends telling me that he really liked me, and I made him happy… That he talked about me a lot.. I thought maybe this was it…
Around month 8, he asked me out… Immediately a shift began… Right after he asked me out he stated “You’re lucky because there was someone else I was supposed to date”… I instantly knew that something was wrong… But at the same time… A thought that ran through my head was my 1st ex telling me how no one would ever love me like him and other things… and tbh I think I just went with it and accepted fate Ig. I got in his car and we drove off… But now that I even look back, he would question me sexually compared to other women.. call himself the “booty king”.. and talk about how he was sad that he lost his old phone containing photos of all the girls’ pics he had while we were talking… so.. Yeah… Ig that wasn’t even the 1st shift.. I guess I was just used to that type of treatment now that I think about it..
To add more information before getting to the main portion, before so much occurred, I did not mind him hanging out even alone with girls.. He made me feel safe and I trusted him and even told him that. To the point where he told me that he was going to Disney with the girl mentioned above and that she liked him, but I need to not worry because he wasn’t going to do anything and liked me and other stuff. This was after he told me he thinks we shouldn’t be talking to other people (so this occurred a little before he asked me out). During this time, if he saw me with a guy he seemed to get jealous. For example, I was saving the table, and the janitor who looked like a guy my age came over, we nodded, and he just kept working. He came back as the janitor moved and asked me if he was flirting with me and thought that I was lying about him not flirting with me. Another time, I went to the movie theatre with my friend and he brought it up a few times and was asking about it and claiming it was a date.
But anyways after we started dating, he immediately started ignoring me as I was talking and would always be on his phone. One such event was when we were headed somewhere with his friends… Once they got out of the car, and I began talking to him, he immediately got on his phone and was kind of ignoring me but giving ‘mhms’, ‘ohs’, and other sounds like that.. Eventually I went quiet.. When his girl friend 1st got back into the car, he immediately put his phone down and started conversating with her… I was hurt.. which led to him doing some actions and admitting that he did them because I was sad and wouldn’t tell him why and shrugged. He would be on his phone looking at girls.. Even when my parents were going through a divorce, and I was venting to him over skype.. He was just ignoring me.. and I could see through his glasses that he was just browsing on tumblr which already made me more sad and alone, then I saw him staring at and sharing a picture of a girl showing her butt, and I got upset and he got upset with me for being upset.. On our one year anniversary even, I was talking to him, and he was ignoring me.. But I caught him looking at a picture with girls showing their butts and just became quiet and upset.. He’d already called me insecure and such by that point.. Another incident which I’m sure sounds stupid and may just be really stupid.. Was 2 months after we dated.. I told him all that I wanted for my birthday was to take him to HHN for his first time.. He said he didn’t have any plans to go with anyone else and pinky promised me.. I would say maybe a couple of weeks later he told me he was going with one of his girl friends that worked there on that night, and I immediately called him.. He invited me to go, but I couldn’t because I was busy, and I asked if he could wait, and he brought up that he couldn’t just say no because he already told her yes. I brought up the pinky promises, and stupidly begged him if he could just wait.. He said he couldn’t and he had to go.. Later he posted on snapchat about how much fun he was having and how cool and crazy it was.. Later told me he just went with her because she could get him in for free.. which I would have paid if needed, but I didn’t know.. He would manipulate me into letting him do whatever because his ex did (For example, going to stay on the beach with his girl best friend, her mom, and her sister, but by this point he already kind of made it clear that he did not care about me, so I was uncomfortable with it, but he kept pushing until I said yes and would guilt trip me for being unsure). During this 1st year, he already called me a whore for having guy friends, crazy, insecure because of above things etc. One incident we went to the club with one of his guy friends, I didn’t know the plan was to find girls for him to get.. So while I was trying to dance and interact with them, I noticed he was just looking around and point out girls and kind of didn’t acknowledge me a lot of the night.. Which did make me sad.. I became standoffish, and that led to an argument and him hitting the steering wheel yelling at me and asking what the fuck is my problem with girls.. Which I remained silent after trying to explain.. Another incident is when at some point in the first couple of months I told him I would have sex with him.. We ended up at a resort because I have timeshares.. However, I got extremely sick to the point I couldn’t breathe and was worried. I did say I would have to pass on sex because I really could not breathe and didn’t feel well. He was more upset that I didn’t give him sex and said how I lied.. Which I really didn’t mean to.. and I did feel really bad about. He would say how he didn’t care about how I felt about something, would go do that said thing, and then would come back and apologize after talking to one of his girl friends about it, and how she made him realize it wasn’t cool. He would be really mean and say mean things.. he would start denying his actions and words so I started keeping screenshots to make sure that what I had remembered was accurate.. Adults would tell me that I better take good care of him while this was happening and he would look at me and smile and do like a jerking movement with his head like "yeah you better" if that makes sense..
I noticed after a while, I couldn’t control my emotions… I started becoming more and more emotionally reactive. I became increasingly jealous and trying everything to get him to care.. I also begin to try to find ways to get him to understand how he was hurting me and kept thinking of ways to get him to stop.. When I would react he told me that he showed his friends or told them what I did and their reactions and comments.. He told them I was crazy.. I began trying to try to control situations so I wouldn’t get any more hurt. I started becoming passive aggressive and started saying mean things.. I through my toothbrush at the bathroom door once.. I started taking sleeping pills because I got anxiety when he would text me that he was going out. I started taking the pills as well because I couldn’t heal and move on from the things that had happened as fast as he would’ve liked.. I would try to leave but he would say what I wanted to hear of course.. But if I tried to talk to him about the things, he would hardly say anything or just be like “you’re right, I’m trash”, change the subject, or tell me he would break up with me if I brought it up again.. Eventually he would tell me how I needed help and kiss me on the forehead.. At one point, I asked him if we break up, would he consider trying to work on things in the future after we both do growing, and he responded by shaking his head and telling me only if I had changed… I always made him not want to do things or not want to go to things.. He was more cool than me and had more friends than me he would say or imply at times and even brought it up because I got more likes on my insta posts.. One day I would be wifey and he would be so in love with me and not want any other girls.. and the next day I should understand if he wanted to breakup so he can go be with other girls.. His family said in front of me that he could just go get another girlfriend.. and he would shrug his shoulders and repeat that to me.. Major heartbreak events would happen after I helped him in someway, and he would feel a type of way that I wouldn’t want to help him or do things.. Like I helped get him jobs, get back in school, be on time for work, took care of him when he almost died (which led to a major event I will talk about in a few) he would tell me or show me that he didn’t care about me and I couldn’t count on him to be there for me either.. Like when I tried to tell him that I am becoming more severely depressed due to stuff, he was just like “I care less and less” because I brought up depression due to different things.. Which I know.. Stupid for staying.. However.. He would be “hurt” that I didn’t believe that he loved and cared for me.. That the trust I had was diminishing.. He would ask me why I thought he was lying to me and tell me that there were and are no other girls.. Everything led up to the 4th year..
After being with him in the hospital after he could’ve died.. I was with him and making sure he was ok afterwards.. Something was going to happen with a girl I didn’t feel comfortable with him being alone with and he told me.. surprise he didn’t care and had to go.. Told me she said I was pretty.. I asked him if I could go through his phone a couple of days later, I guess I just needed that final push.. I found so much, from him talking to other women about our relationship but being more concerned about how we were having less and less sex, him cheating and flirting, him texting his friend about how he thought him and his ex were getting back together, etc. And I just lost it.. I woke him up shaking him asking why me.. just why… and before I knew it I slapped him.. It was like slow motion, I tried to stop myself but I couldn’t.. I immediately felt guilt.. and that was the first time I ever hit someone.. I know it’s not ok.. but that started an altercation and he dug his nails into me and so on.. I went to the bathroom bleeding.. and the next day.. He asked what happened to me and the marks.. I told him I just had a depressive episode.. and he told me that I shouldn’t hurt myself like that.. Like he didn’t remember anything.. It was like me and him switched places.. He began being afraid to communicate with me.. and to this day.. It’s been almost 3 years.. I feel extremely guilty and re-enact that night but begging myself to stop.. to just leave.. I still feel angry at myself.. His close friends were like “he really tried.. he really loved you.. ah I don’t think he’s like that”.. and sometimes it makes me doubt my experience..
At the end of the relationship is something I can’t forget.. He smirked and told me that he knew he’d be ok.. and that he already moved on and accepted everything.. and that has been something hard on me too.. I removed him from a lot but stupidly texted him a month or so later apologizing.. After the relationship when I would hear or see him or his name, I would have little panic attacks.. everything would go blurry and it felt like I couldn’t breathe..
Therapy isn’t helping.. I feel like I can’t move on and sometimes I idealize or day dream about suicide heavily.. I keep trying to stop myself from looking at his postings about loyalty.. being faithful.. giving everything to the girl who is always down for him.. not lying.. how his friends post how amazing he is and his quotes about cheating and such.. but it’s like a bad addiction I just can’t seem to break.. I keep asking myself was it me.. and if I’m just the narcissist.. He did take the blame and apologize near the end of the relationship and then once I reached out and apologized for my actions after the relationship.. But I still am so confused..
I feel consumed by rage.. envy.. Jealousy.. I see him being blessed with everything and thanking God and Jesus which diminished my faith.. If it wasn’t me, then how come he is getting so many blessings and get to be so happy.. I keep saying how it’s not fair.. I feel guilt.. I feel shame.. I don’t trust myself.. I can’t tell who I truly am after lashing out.. I feel like I want to give up.. Like it’s never going to end.. I keep seeing things about narcissistic abuse, and then I get scared because what if it was me….. Then I feel guilty for not wanting to watch any more things on narcissism or abuse for a while.. I keep praying, begging for it all to go away.. I have resorted to tarot and spells.. Faking it til I make it.. Nothing.. and then I get frustrated.. I keep reliving and trying to play things out differently if that makes sense.. I feel so alone, and I self-isolate so much.. It’s almost 3 years.. I am just confused.. and I am sorry for this being so long and possibly confusing and all over the place.. and I know I should have known better in a lot of this situation..

This is the first time I am verbalizing this problem because I have been too ashamed to acknowledge this weird, juvenile fixation before now. This is definitely going to sound batshit crazy so please go easy on me.
There have been short bouts in my life where I have had male attention (maybe a few months in grade 8 and 9 when I had lost a lot of weight), and boy was I hooked. I was excited to go out, to see who would gaze at me that particular day, and loved the idea that for a few moments I could effortlessly make an impression on someone. Since this period, I have never gotten any attention. I do not have anyone look at me or approach me, and I am wholly invisible.
The more I have been starved of male attention, the more I crave it. Whereas in my youth I was more concerned with being loved, I don't at all feel worthy of it now, but at the very least I want to be desired physically. I want many, many men to lust after me. The only way I have been able to gain this attention thus far is through faceless self-exposure on video apps. My long-standing porn viewing habits and withdrawal (due to social anxiety) certainly have not helped.
I know this is a sickness but I just don't know how to end it. It's like a leech. As hard as I try to get away from it, the fixation on male validation remains. All paths seem to lead back to it. I work on myself, build up my knowledge, do art, lose weight-- and then I realize I'm doing all of it to have a 'selling point' to attract men.
This obsession has even ruined my relationships. I used to be very close to my younger sister until she blossomed into a beautiful young woman who turned heads no matter where she goes, especially from the exact types of men I find attractive. It is an extremely painful experience for me to see her beauty and the attention she gets, so I avoid her as much as possible.
My days are constantly ruined because I look in the mirror before leaving the house thinking I look decent enough to attract someone, and then spend the rest of the day of being invisible.
It's almost like my life goal is to be achieve beauty and command control over men's libido. Day in and day out my fantasies revolve around being desirable. I am apparently nothing except a work-in-progress for male validation. I am prepared to sacrifice my mental wellbeing for just a glance or two.
How the fuck do I overcome this? I want an escape.

Tldr: My advice would have saved her from being stolen
I have always been able to get by everything by myself. I like finding out ways to solve problems, and I love helping people. Lately, there is only one person I’ve seen, it’s my gf of 2 months. Whenever we faced problems, we found solutions and we solved the problems together. But sometimes I tell her easy solutions to implement to solve her problems and she doesn’t do anything, so either the problems remain or they most likely worsen.
Now to the point (context): lately, we had a few problems, one of them is she doesn’t have a phone operator anymore (bc she didn’t pay) and she wants to change the operator. I’ve been saying to do it ASAP as it is important, but she sees otherwise and only focuses on what’s "important" for her, the rest she will do later. I point out the fact that we can’t talk when she’s out but she says it’s alright because we live together and the only time we’re not together is at work and she has wifi there. I say that it’s not very safe out there and in case of a problem I want her to be able to reach me. She says there’s not gonna be a problem. But I don’t even have her location anymore because she doesn’t have internet (she proposed we shared live location of each other so we did). I know she has ADHD (undiagnosed, I put the diagnosis myself) but this is very important and I wanted her to get internet ASAP.
Most important part is now: Last night we went to a very touristic place where it’s known to have pickpockets (if you guessed Paris, you won) for a nice date. We sat on a bench kissing and all, I noticed her bag was next to her and I saw a guy sitting right next to her when every other bench was free. I directly placed her bag next to me and the guy left. I told her to be more careful with her belongings, she must know after living here for months that Paris isn’t a safe place. She should keep her bag on her shoulder at all times. We left then came back 1 hour later sitting on a bench and when I decide to get up, I’m asking where is her bag. She panics and we notice it’s been stolen. Yes, she did put it next to her on the bench again. But this time I didn’t prevent it because I didn’t even know she left it from her shoulder. The only way to find it was through the live location shared, but she didn’t have internet so I couldn’t locate it to follow the thief.
I also feel guilty because I think I saw the woman stealing it but it was on the side of my eye so I couldn’t ask her directly to give it back, all I did was to ask her if she saw a guy with a black women’s bag and look at what she wore but I’m now convinced she’s the thief and I should have forced her to open her jacket to see inside. Also, I could have watched where my gf kept her bag, or could have kept her phone instead of giving it back to her just because my pants were falling (I thought my pockets were too heavy so I had to lighten them). There are also NSFW photos of me in her phone and I can’t imagine what my life would become if they’d become public.