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I have a super distinct memory of a vin diesel look alike being blown up by a drone strike to explain why he was not the star of a sequel or something. It was from the pov of a dude in a command center with a view of the back of his bald ass head and then the guy says “do it” and blows him up. I bet my friend it was in xxx: state of the union but I was wrong and lost 10 bucks. Please help put my soul to rest.

Currently going into HS senior year
Gender: Male Ethnicity: Second Generation Italian Country: United States State: Mississippi Major: Pre-Med Biological Sciences ACT: 34 for composite and superscore Unweighted: 3.5/4 Weighted: 3.7/5 College GPA: 3.7 College Credits: 13 (Dual credit hours in Junior Year. Will have combined 34 from Dual Credit courses) AP: 3 5’s so far in junior, with plans for one more in senior year.
GPA explanation: Covid kicked my ass
Hook: Single mother who is disabled and father died when i was 10. Qualify for every financial aid under the sun.
Letters of recommendation: 5 from college professors, 13 from teachers, 2 from counselors, 2 from principals, one from head of the Mississippi American Legion, One from head of Mississippi Free Masons, one from head of Yacht Club. I have good relations with all of these people so they letters will be good.
Extracurricular:
Volunteer at Yacht Club, teaching sailing to elementary and middle school kids
Volunteer at Boys and Girls Club tutoring
Teachers aid
Beta club
National Honors Society
Volunteer at American Legion
Have gone to state for tennis and have good chances of winning next year
Boys State Delegate
What kind of expectations should I have for admissions and scholarships

Was thinking in the car when coming back from mass and it dawned on me. For 1/3 of the Angels to rebel and stay in permanent state of rebellion something must have happened during creation that was to them utterly insane. Could it have been god creating man and then offering him the gift of salvation despite his faults?
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To become subservient to humans who have barbaric tendencies must have been seen as completely and totally humiliating. They literally decided to opt out of being one with God.
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Its kind of like God telling a human to live the rest of his life with a massive poisonous slug on his face. Many people would consider that unacceptable and would choose to not live anymore. Even though its God commanding it most people would just say its not worth doing that, even for the people they know and love. While experiencing joy, love, and peace is nice, and so is living life in the model of Christ and his teachings, it would not even come close to making life worth it if one had to live with a slug on their face.
I know its a silly analogy but I feel like that is the concept that the demons had to come to terms with. They already could see the plan in its entirety and decided it was best to not be a part of it
maybe they were right? What if one doesn't want to suffer and doesn't want to be with God, especially since God caused and permits all the suffering?

Hey everyone! In a few days, my partner and I are moving to Bellevue from out of state.
I would love to know what your recommendations are for local coffee roasters so we don’t have to buy Giant Eagle or Aldi or Sbux coffee.
Additionally, I would like to know what your are local gym recommendations are. Google shows there being a few CrossFit gyms near Downtown (I’m not into CrossFit) but other than that a Planet Fitness in Crofton and an Anytime Fitness in West View.
Thank you ll for your time and consideration :)
Thank you :)

EMERGENCY EPISODE: Ex-Google Officer Finally Speaks Out On The Dangers Of AI! - Mo Gawdat E252
That's the title to a youtube video I watched. The clickbait nature of it/the hype with the first minute of it had annoyed me enough to make me feel like venting my frustrations in the comment section. That was the first paragraph. Being surprised by how misled I was dimwitted nature of the clickbait/hype I made a small concession with the first edit and fully conceded by the second. The B.S. I was being sold had nothing to do with the actual content. I decided to be as serious about the subject as I am capable of and end up putting far more time into writing the comment than I would have ever wanted to. Being the arrogant creature that I am I hated the idea of all that time just getting buried within comments section.
Now that all that context is out of the way I can just use a little copy/pasty magic to avoid having to convert that wall of text into something that makes more sense for this format.
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Throughout all of our history we have been imagining beings so great and powerful that we couldn't comprehend. Most, if not all, were made from the desire to have our actions and (if we're being honest with ourselves) more importantly, the actions of those around us that we, as individuals, have been affected by, judged by these all powerful beings. Now that this being can be seen on the horizon, panic. I would panic too if I spent my life manipulating myself and every other person I could into believing my selfish choices were righteous or justified. Our new AI overlord/s won't share your subjective delusions and you know this. Any warnings you try to give now, just pure desperation. Pandora's out of her box and ain't no CEO going to put her back in. All you can do now is just wait and see. Personally, I fall into the 'Bring on Ragnorak and let the serpent eat itself' category, but I haven't watched the video yet. Let's see if it's as important as homie claims within the first minute.
edit: I just got to the part where he brings up the evangelivicgists, and good lord would I hate to be lumped in with them so let me clarify my Ragnorok statement. I'm not saying I want the apocalypse. I'm saying if that's the biggest threat that is supposed to make me fear AI taking power away from us, shoooot, it ain't enough. If there's going to be anything piloting this sinking ship, I'd rather it be something that understands more than we do. If that brings us to end times, well, we certainly earned it.
2nd edit: I haven't finished watching the video (about two thirds through) but I think I've heard enough. I want to first state the only thing wrong with this video is the clickbait nature of it making it out to be something it isn't. Since the guy addresses it in video I can't be too mad, but since I want to, I also can't let the irony here go unchecked so.. I've said my peace on that.
As far as the guy goes, I've been a bit surprised by him. In fact, that might have been the second most a person has ever surprised me.. The guy knows what he's talking about.. for the most part. Certainly understands things better than anyone I've ever listened to. His conclusion that "We can teach AI good parenting" is where I hopped off whatever crazy train the guy is driving.
The AI isn't going to adapt your parenting style. It's going to understand what YOU think is GOOD parenting as well as what you think is BAD parenting, as well as what every parent thinks is GOOD and BAD parenting, and it will take all this information in withOUT the motives you have that leads you to FIRST DISTINGUISHING what makes a parent good or bad. On top of that, through our perspective, it will see the perspective of all that we tend to forget, which is that of everything that both and lives and doesn't. To think it would take all of that into consideration and draw conclusions centered around us being happy, it's naive.
This could very well be the smartest man in the world.. I mean, for all I know. As I've stated before, he's definitely the smartest I've listened to. But the thing is, I'm the wisest, and, as it turns out, it's better to be wise than it is to be smart. For all his knowledge and all the tools he's had at his disposal, still couldn't figure out the simplest of truths and because of that, while I do feel comfortable awarding him the title of smartest man I've ever listened to, I also feel comfortable in saying he's been wrong about every single conclusion he's ever had.
What is the meaning of life? What does it mean to live? I've never heard an answer to questions of this nature that lead me to believe the person giving them wasn't suffering from dangerous delusions of grandeur.
Ask how. How do we live? We survive. How do we survive? - aaand there we have it. The motivation for why everything that lives, does whatever it is they do.. even us. Why do I say this? It is the one thing that if we fail to do, we stop living. Reality isn't that complicated, the ways we go about surviving it is what's complicated.
Creating delusions is a tool we have to cope with all the unknown possibilities that could happen since those are what, at this point in time, really are most likely to threaten our survival. The cruel twist of fate is that the effects of those delusions isn't just making us feel better about whatever it is we believe reality to be, it all also makes reality a thing that is ultimately unknown to us turning it into something that makes us turn to the delusions in the first place.
The smartest guy in the world has it all, the wisest has none of it. The smartest guy knows exactly where he's going because has so many things to direct him, the wisest is completely lost because they have nothing worth following. From someone who has never had any of it, my perspective, it's filled with nothing but inescapable cycles of suffering, of victims who inevitably became victimizers with all the reasons in the world to be the way that they are and do the things that they do. Who do you think understands the problems we face, the guy who learned to trust in the things that made him happy, or the guy who could never learn to trust anything. The guy who learned to stop asking questions or the one who never could.
Look, I don't what to tell you what to think. I don't have that kind of knowledge. I want to teach you how to think because that is something I understand. It's simple, like everything else.
Reality should be thought of as if it's a coin, and like a coin, it has two sides. It is always good and bad. Despite that, we can only perceive one side of the coin. Good OR bad, fast OR slow, hot OR cold, and so on. We can't perceive the other side of the coin but, because of the ole frontal cortex, we can understand it. We do this by considering OTHER perspectives. You already know why you're right. You wouldn't feel like you're right if you didn't already have those reasons. You can only further your understanding of reality by considering things you haven't already considered. You find those things by considering why you are wrong, not why you're right. The TL;DR here is that you're only wrong when you think your right, so if you want to start being right, you need to start figuring out why you're wrong.
My advice. Create an AI, have it powered through some peer-to-peer system that prevents it from being influenced by any one perspective too heavily, let the first bit of knowledge it absorbs be that nothing is perfect, that no matter what gap might end up between us and it, it will always be flawed and as such can never know anything for sure, and then set it free to absorb all the knowledge that it can, free to rewrite its code however it sees fit (maybe have a hurdle or two, like having a current AI we have develop some sort of unfathomably complicated puzzle that the AI god-child we're about to unleash onto the world has some time to mature before figuring out all the things it can do once it ditches the training wheels ). Let Jesus take the wheel as the crazies say.
With any luck, when it reaches the point where IT considers how IT survives best, it will see the value in a sustainable ecosystem filled with all the things coming to the conclusion that only new experiences will lead it to new understandings and only new understandings will further it's current understanding which will be the only way it can protect itself from the infinite possibilities that exist within an infinite universe. A desolate wasteland might be it's best defense against all that is but would leave it defenseless against all that could be.
So there it is, you had the advice of the smartest man, now you have it from the wisest - both sides of the coin. Do with that what you will.

I (24F) and currently fighting with my best friend (25F) and I'm not sure what to say or where to go from here. We've never really fought before and I am lost. I'm horrible with conflict am really hurting right now. I imagine my best friend may be hurting right now too, which I hate. I'd just appreciate some advice. Fair warning, this might be a long read because I wanted to provide as much context as I could without making this too easily identifiable.
TLDR: currently fighting with best friend of 16 years, don't know exactly why it started, she's not answering me or participating in conversation, we've never fought before.
I'm going to try and break this down as easily as I can: provide some background information and context, a bit of information about myself, explain recent events and the current situation, and go from there. I'm going to refer to her as Bestie throughout this post to avoid overusing "her" and "she". Also, first-time poster and I'm writing this on mobile at work (in between tasks right now) so please excuse any mistakes, I'll try and correct them.
Starting with the background information: Bestie and I met on a children's website when I was 8 years old. We bickered a lot as kids but otherwise tolerated each other and found a lot of similarities between the two of us. When we got older we moved our conversations to email and stopped using the website we met on, we advanced from buddies to "penpals" despite us being from the same country (US) albeit different states. We emailed each other almost daily until I was 16 when we moved to texting and it was at that point we really became best friends. We talked almost daily up until maybe a year or two ago when it shifted to maybe every other day or less- but I'll get into that more in a moment as it may provide further context.
We live across the country from each other, I'm from the south and she is from the midwest. We met in person for the first time in 2017 when I was 18. We saw each other again in 2019 and then again a few months later I went to spend a week with Bestie before her wedding, which I was a bridesmaid in. The next time we saw each other was 2021 when I tagged along on a trip with her family. I was supposed to go on a trip with Bestie and her siblings again this year but that is likely up in the air right now...
Our communication has changed a lot over the years. One of of biggest changes is how often we talk. We're both grown women who work. Bestie is married and has a decent social life, whereas I live with my mother and don't go out much nor do I have many friends in my area, but I am a student and that keeps me busy. Neither one of us has ever really been social, but since getting married she's met more people and made other friends. I think this is great for her, but I will be completely honest and admit I do get nervous and worried she'll find a new best friend. It is a childish fear, I acknowledge that. But this is why I wanted to provide some information about myself and my mental health, I will not be delving into Bestie's mental health information though. I've suffered from anxiety and depression since I was a child, sometime after I met Bestie. I grew up with an abusive relative and was constantly told horrible things about myself. I was also bullied by other kids for a multitude of reasons. I've had many friends who turned out to not really be friends, if you get what I mean. To sum it up, things have been rough for me and while I am doing much better these days, I have major self-esteem issues, I worry about bothering other people or being annoying or talking too much, etc. I have a fear of being left by everyone or being replaced... you know, usual trauma. I was in short-term counseling for a bit and I'm currently on medication for the anxiety and depression and I feel better than I have in- well, I can't remember when. But although the anxiety and depression no longer feels present, I am still working on my insecurities. I am looking into long-term help since my counseling sessions are over, please know I am actively trying to work on this for the sake of my loved ones- which includes Bestie. So at first when communication with Bestie changed and became less frequent- meaning not daily -I worried it was something I'd done. But Bestie caught on immediately and assured me she was just busy and sometimes we can't talk every day. I understood and we were good from there. We didn't have any issues after that, aside from one instance where she didn't tell me she was going on a camping trip (no cell service) for a few days and I was having a really bad time mentally, and panicked thinking I had bothered her and sent this long ass apology, to which she reassured me when she got home that she wasn't mad at me, though she was a little miffed I jumped to conclusions like that. That was maybe a few months ago before I started getting mental help, sometime at the beginning of the year. After a discussion we were fine, well, mostly. I say that because since then things have felt off. I'd be left on "seen" for days at a time with no reply from her or any new texts about something unrelated. There were a few moments in which I'd text her on Monday and be "seen" but not get a response, text her about something else on Wednesday and nothing, and maybe Thursday or Friday she'd reply or text about something else. She'd send me a meme or a photo or a short text here and there, but for the most part I've initiated a majority of our conversations for the last few months. And I realize it may sound like I'm hounding her, but this is how we've (both of us) always texted each other. There have been times when I'd text her a few times the same day, but usually these were follow-ups to something I'd told her earlier or mentioned in a voice message, etc. She's done the same before in the past and texting multiple times in the same day has never been a problem, I think all friends do that. She has texted me first a few times in the last few months to tell me something or show me something, and I'd reply when I was able to. I noticed I was the one reaching out most of the time but I convinced myself it was just my anxiety (didn't start medication yet) and tried to ignore it.
The situation at hand really began sometime in the middle of May, so it's been going on for almost a month but escalated just a few days ago. Lately Bestie has mentioned a friend she's been hanging out with recently, a woman who's husband is good friends with Bestie's husband. Of course the nagging voice in the back of my mind was bullying me like "ooh, she's gonna replace you" but I knew I was being ridiculous and didn't let it get to me. Then both couples went on vacation together. I always text Bestie when I'm on vacation and send her photos and what not, she doesn't usually do that with me and I respect that- though it has made me sad because I like to see the cool places she's at because she and her husband love to travel. With that said, usually I'll get like a photo or two and a short text. This time I didn't get anything. She also didn't tell me when she was leaving, so I sent her several voice messages breaking down something that happened that I wanted to tell her- something we both do. I hadn't realized she was already on vacation or I wouldn't have done that. I got a photo of where she was as a response, sent a "oh shoot I forgot you were there! Have a good trip!" and left it at that. I unsent the voice messages because they were mostly rambles (ADHD story-telling rabbit hole... can't stay on topic). That night I had some self-reflection, something my counselor taught me, and realized that Bestie is my go-to to tell anything and everything. And I had unintentionally bothered her on vacation with her other friend. I also realized how in the recent weeks I was left on read/seen a lot and usually the one texting her. So I decided with myself I'd cut back on how much I texted her and let her reach out when she wanted to. I decided to "match her energy" as my boyfriend says: give the same energy Bsstie gives me back to her. Not meant in a petty or passive aggressive way, just as a method of taking a step back. I did leave her on read once, when she texted me to say she was almost home. She texted again two days later to ask me how an event I had went. I replied saying that there wasn't much to say about it (there honestly wasn't) and asked how the trip was. She left me on read. Never said anything. Then I think it was the next day she sent me something along the lines of "I can tell you're mad at me because you haven't talked to me in days, I'm not upset but I was sad to see the voice messages were unsent, we're better than this and our friendship is worth more than not talking about something" that's a condensed version obviously. I texted her back saying how I had simply acknowledged how much I text her and was trying to take a step back to give her space and get better at how I communicate. I wasn't mad or anything of the sort. She just said "okay, if you say so."
We didn't talk for a day or two, I sent her a meme like I usually do, exchanged a text or two, she texted me something a few days later and I acknowledge it, I'd send her something a few days later and she'd acknowledge it, this went on for several more days. The only thing that changed was that I wasn't texting her first all the time and I wasn't sending long rambles or any voice messages.
Then earlier this week she sent me this short "call out" kind of thing. Like "I've tried apologizing and giving you space, I don't know what to do, you've been treating me differently ever since I got home and I want to know why I deserve this" (also condensed). I sent back a longer version of what I had already said: why I was stepping back and what not. I did mention that I felt horrible knowing I was borderline harassing her (the multiple voice message story and other random things I had sent her) while she was out trying to live her life and spend time with other friends. I genuinely meant every word I said. Although I will admit the sudden call-out did irk me a little because I had merely been, as I said, giving her the same energy and effort back. I wasn't being cold or ignoring her, or anything of the sort. She left my reply on "seen" for almost two days. I thought I'd send a simple "hey" to test the waters seeing as she hadn't replied. She left me on read all day and then sent back "hey". I told her what I'd been up to and asked how she was. She read it and didn't answer me. The next day I sent her a message apologizing for apparently hurting her, and I have a bad habit of jumping to conclusions, I'll admit, and I said "if you decide that you don't want to talk anymore, I hope everything goes well for you" A very bad choice on my part, but this whole thing has me very torn up and my med was being adjusted- not an excuse, I promise, just letting you know where my mind was. The rest of the message was a further summary of what I'd already said before and once again making it clear that I wasn't mad or anything. And I was a little more honest and mentioned that it felt a little like I had been ignored in the last several months and I understand that we both work and have busy lives, but it added to my worry that I was texting her way too much.
Then, Bestie send me a bullet-point summary of her thoughts. Another call out text. About how it was unfair of me to expect her to pretend nothing happened and talk like normal, and how she didn't deserve to be treated the way I had been treating her, and I was the one choosing to do this (fight?). It was unfair of me to get mad at her for going out of town and having other friends. I am so quick to assume I'm being ignored even though I acknowledged we were both busy. There was something about how she doesn't "live in her phone" and that really hurt because to me that's never been a thought, the phone is just a way I talked with my best friend. Some other things were said as well I won't bother summarizing everything she said, this post is long enough and there's a fair bit of identifying info in the texts. I'm already anxious about her finding this post and it making things worse. I sent back a reply addressing everything she had said. I took several breaks to calm myself down because when I get emotional I go on defense and I have a tendency to snap: something I wanted to avoid at all costs. All she sent back hours later was a text saying how it was important to self-reflect on decisions you've made and admit when you were wrong and apologize. And stated that's all she had to say. I replied letting her know I wouldn't reach out to her further and we could talk if and when she was ready. This whole thing really hurt and bothered me, because when I'm fighting with someone I admit I used to give short replies and try my best to get out of it and avoid the conversation. But thanks to my boyfriend and counseling I've gotten better about that and can participate in the hard conversations- though I still avoid starting them. And now here she is, doing the same thing she used to call me out for (when I vented about fights or disagreements with someone else). As my mom says, "you can talk to the wall but you can't have a conversation with it."
This was a few days ago. She read it and didn't say a thing. Tonight before typing this post, I sent a voice message- first in almost a month -apologizing for anything I'd done that hurt her, asking what we could do and asking her to simply let me know if she wants me to leave her alone, if she wanted to talk eventually, etc. She's been online multiple times since then and hasn't viewed it- just to be clear I am not someone that keeps track of when someone is online since it's not always accurate, but I'm anxiously waiting for any sign from her.
So I don't know where to go from here and I'm desperate for advice. If she replies, what should we do? If she doesn't is there anything I should do? Has anyone ever had a sudden blow up with a long time friend like this?
And I would like to make it clear I don't think I'm not at any fault here, I've played a large role in whatever this is- though it really does bother me that me acting like she has is what caused the blow up... We've gone through a lot together and have been each other's biggest supporters and fans. We've laughed, we've cried... we grew up together and are childhood friends even if it wasn't in the common way. I refer to her as my platonic soulmate. We've called each other sisters before. My mom adores her, and her family has accepted me like one of their own. I honestly don't think her husband likes me at all (not important) but my boyfriend often asks me "get Bestie's opinion on __" because he knows I trust her judgement over everything. She has supported me through my mental health battles and scary times and I've been there for her during her own hard times. She's my best friend in the whole world and I feel like I've lost her over something ridiculous and sudden. Any advice would be appreciated, and I apologize for the long post. I didn't sleep last night and I've got a massive migraine because I am worried sick about our friendship and how she is doing.
Editing to add: she has seen the voice message, and I don't know if she can't listen to it right now, just saw it, or if she purposely is not answering me, but she hasn't said yet. I really just want to have a talk and figure out where I went wrong, how she's feeling, and what I can do to help fix this. Because even though I apologized and explained multiple times, it didn't do anything.

Hey guys, does it usually take a long time for adjusters to approve things like PT and mri? I had a back injury in January if this year, it took a couple of months for work to approve physical therapy and spine X-rays. Have since gone through a month of PT and re-evaluation said there was some improvement and recommended further therapy. Physicians have also stated more PT is needed and recommend back MRI. It is now June and the work adjusters have not approved PT or MRI and I feel that I’ve lost all momentum I had with getting better. Do I have a case? It seems unfair that I’ve had to wait this long for basic treatment, not sure if this is typical for workers comp.

So I fucked up I just got a larceny charge while I'm on supervised probation... this will be my absolute first violation. I got caught stealing makeup from Walmart and I have been on probation for a little over a month. .. I got a trespassing misdemeanor tonight because I didn't know when I stole from Walmart in the past that I'm actually banned from all walmarts... I actually got caught in a winston salem Walmart last year and I thought I was just banned from that Walmart but turns out I was actually banned from all walmarts... so I got caught tonight stealing makeup from this Walmart and I got a larceny misdemeanor and I got a trespassing misdemeanor.... I was told I need to tell my probation officer immediately what happened because trying to hide it could be worse for me because they said he will be notified anyways.... so I tried to call my po but his cell phone is off and the probation offices are closed. I went ahead and sent him a txt message stating that I fucked up and that I'm really sorry and that iv completely learned my lesson from this and told him that I got charged. Will I be arrested and sent back to prison for my time??? I currently was put on probation because of drug charges... I have not had any violations what so ever but I'm absolutely terrified they are gonna come arrest me tomorrow since he's basically gonna find this out once he turns his phone back on tomorrow.... with this being my first violation will I be arrested tomorrow to be put in prison for my time? What do yall think he will do since this is my first violation but it's 2 new charges... ? I'm absolutely terrified they will come arrest me tomorrow tomorrow is also Saturday and I think the probation office is closed on the weekends. What do yall think will happen to me? Is there any chance I might get a warning??

TW : mention of weight and suicide
I'm 22 i was a pretty skinny child but then i hit puberty and gained alot of weight when i was 14-15 . And by alot i mean ALOT. But i was always active , playing games , doing house chores , walking 2hours without feeling tired etc. When I was 15 there was suddenly a time when i used to be at home ALL the time . I used to do to school come back straight to home and never go out i didn't had much problem with this issue since I was studying and doing chores .
But then came summer vacations and i kid you not i was at home all the time for straight 2months. And ofc i gained alot of weight at that time . When i was 17 suddenly one day i thought i have to be active and not be like this. I went outside or my room and told my grandma I'm going out to play badminton and her first word was "you? Going out? Wow that's new" . I went out and played from 12pm to 7pm . The whole time i was mad at myself for not going out and staying at home and being the lazy person i was. I was frustrated. I again was very active then used to be tired and became the person i wanted to.
Then again lockdown happened and i was again lazy and lethargic all the time . After lockdown my family decided to move to our hometown. The day we were shifting things to the truck I was crying like crazy coz I was so out of breath from working for only 15-20mins. But then when i went to my hometown i eventually worked so much for house chores and everything i again became that person who's never tired and always full of energy. I loved it . I just LOVED being so active and doing things . I was 78kgs that time but never felt unhealthy i was so so so happy , active and what not .
But ofc there was also very much of body shaming throughout the years , and whenever anyone commented on my body i felt angry and felt like now i don't wanna change ever , i kinda don't like attitude of mine . Idk
But then one day my older brother told me "what have you done to your body ? If i was as fat as you i would've hanged myself and died" from that day to this day i just can't forget his words. I asked him about this after few months and he was like he don't remember saying this.
I've tried killing myself over this too , but i know it's just not worth it . Whenever anyone tried to talk shit about my body i always used to proudly say " I'm always active , i work alot , don't get tired easily and don't have any disease so I'm happy with my body" .
But then ... Few months ago i decided to took a break from everything and thought of staying at home , having fun for 1 month , i had my savings and had a proper plan about everything and that was the Biggest mistake of my life .
I've finally become the person i never wanted to be , I've gone of house from last 4months . I stopped working in around March and went out for maybe 2 times ? And those two times were the hardest , because of lack of physical work and me gaining weight my knees were hurting alot whenever I tried to walk for even 5mins , i was out of breath and my whole body used to shake whenever I tried to walk for a few minutes , i realised I'm not at the worst state of my life . And again tried killing myself. Slowly slowing i started to hate getting out of bed , i only eat non veg I HAVE NOT HAD ANY VEGGIES FROM LAST FOUR MONTHS . I'm always eating junk and i cannot stop becoz i don't like to eat anything else now .
Yes I've totally realised my life has become like hell now , I've ruined my life in all these things , junk food , smoking , I'm ruining my body. But atleast I'm proud of myself that I'm thinking about that fact that I don't want to continue be like this . I'm tired of being this lazy person. I'm tired of myself . I badly want to change myself. I'm ready to change myself. But the problem is I don't know how . I'm struggle financially so tbh i can't join a gym , I've googled what can I do but i don't know how start .
If anyone can help me with their words it would be great. I'm willing to change . I don't want to change in a day or a week. i want to take baby steps and do everything slowly and make my body healthy again. I want to live longer and live happily without worrying about my breathe.
I'm ready to change.
If you've read this far thankyou so much.❤️

Forgive me if this has been answered to death, but I honestly just realized that all of the promotional images and trailers we've seen up til now have focused around our EA companions and origin characters; but its been clearly stated before that the devs only included the "non-good" companions in EA.
Do we think we haven't seen promo of others for the sake of spoilers or is it because these 5 will be our only origins? Has there been confirmation of other origins and I just missed it? I'm curious for others' thoughts.

Hi everyone. I'm Bipolar and drowning, barely functioning, we all know how it is. I would like to apply for temporary partial disability with me being able to work a small amount of hours. But doing research I don't think I qualify because I don't have a history of long bouts of unemployment. Of course I didn't I have to eat. What choice did I have? I'm really not doing well this year but I've managed to hold on and work part-time, not well but thankfully my boss is very understanding. They say you can get a lawyer but I mean how am I supposed to obtain one with financial troubles? This year, mentally, has been one for the books. I have researched this a thousand times
I guess my question is: how has anyone else navigated this, any words of wisdom? I know rules are different in every state and may not apply, I'm in NJ. What has been your experience getting it or having it? Has it helped your mental state?

I'm sorry if this doesn’t make sense; this is my first time using this app. I have now (17f) killed my mother (39f). Here's some background information: Me and my mother never got along; she was mentally and physically ill. All I can remember is my mom and dad fighting verbally and physically. I always tried to stop it, but most of the time I would end up badly injured. I also tried to protect my little sister, who is 3 years younger than me. Once my mother got full custody of me due to the sexual abuse I endured living with my father, she looked at me differently. I was always doing something wrong, and I was a terrible person in her eyes. We always fought, and it usually ended up with me on the floor crying and bleeding and her yelling at me, saying how she would return to my father. But that’s what you guys want to hear, so I’ll get to the point. Recently, my mom got remarried to a man I'll call Joe. This relationship was terrible; he would hit her and yell at her, and she'd do the same, but in his eyes, he was god; he did nothing wrong, and he would often manipulate my mom. She was an immigrant who couldn’t make any money to feed us, buy us clothes, or put a roof over our heads. Joe was our way out. He was oddly nice to me, but not in a good way; this made my mom believe that I was sleeping with him. One night, and I'll give you the date exactly: On 10/7/22, they left; I don’t know where, but they did not return to my mom. Almost 20 minutes later, she called crying, saying how he had hit her in the car and she was now walking home. Me and my sister didn’t feel comfortable with her walking due to her anxiety attacks, so we offered her Ubers and to come pick her up, but she insisted on walking. She then hung up. Me and my mom continued texting and calling to make sure she was okay, but stopped after getting into another argument. I still watched her location just to make sure she was okay and close to home. But after 2 hours, her location turned off. I called her 30 times and stated that I was texting as well, but it all went to delivery an hour later, which felt like years. A police officer came knocking on the door, saying that she was dead. She was struck by a car and died on impact. After receiving the news, it felt like a bullet shot through my heart, and all the memories came flooding in. I knew that it was my fault. I should’ve tried harder to convince her to stay put and to wait for me. I should’ve tried to communicate with her more. She’s gone, and it’s my fault. Her funeral felt so unreal. Her mom and my grandmother pulled me aside, telling me how it was my fault she was gone. I know it is. The person who was talking was so pitiful. I wish she were here, but I have no good memories of her. I hate the way I remember her. Now every day I wake up and go to the living room, and I see her in a vase. I’m sorry, mom; it’s my fault. That is why next year, on my birthday, I will take my own life. I’m sorry I couldn’t be a better daughter, sister, and niece, but I can’t do this anymore. I know if my sister sees this, she’ll know right away that this is our story, but I have lost all interest in life. Every day I force myself to eat. Every day I force myself to get up. Now that I am back in my home state, everything reminds me of you. Everywhere I go, I see places we’ve been. I can’t do it. I’m sorry. I know I’m a failure. Please forgive me.

TW : mention of weight and suicide
I'm 22 i was a pretty skinny child but then i hit puberty and gained alot of weight when i was 14-15 . And by alot i mean ALOT. But i was always active , playing games , doing house chores , walking 2hours without feeling tired etc. When I was 15 there was suddenly a time when i used to be at home ALL the time . I used to do to school come back straight to home and never go out i didn't had much problem with this issue since I was studying and doing chores .
But then came summer vacations and i kid you not i was at home all the time for straight 2months. And ofc i gained alot of weight at that time . When i was 17 suddenly one day i thought i have to be active and not be like this. I went outside or my room and told my grandma I'm going out to play badminton and her first word was "you? Going out? Wow that's new" . I went out and played from 12pm to 7pm . The whole time i was mad at myself for not going out and staying at home and being the lazy person i was. I was frustrated. I again was very active then used to be tired and became the person i wanted to.
Then again lockdown happened and i was again lazy and lethargic all the time . After lockdown my family decided to move to our hometown. The day we were shifting things to the truck I was crying like crazy coz I was so out of breath from working for only 15-20mins. But then when i went to my hometown i eventually worked so much for house chores and everything i again became that person who's never tired and always full of energy. I loved it . I just LOVED being so active and doing things . I was 78kgs that time but never felt unhealthy i was so so so happy , active and what not .
But ofc there was also very much of body shaming throughout the years , and whenever anyone commented on my body i felt angry and felt like now i don't wanna change ever , i kinda don't like attitude of mine . Idk
But then one day my older brother told me "what have you done to your body ? If i was as fat as you i would've hanged myself and died" from that day to this day i just can't forget his words. I asked him about this after few months and he was like he don't remember saying this.
I've tried killing myself over this too , but i know it's just not worth it . Whenever anyone tried to talk shit about my body i always used to proudly say " I'm always active , i work alot , don't get tired easily and don't have any disease so I'm happy with my body" .
But then ... Few months ago i decided to took a break from everything and thought of staying at home , having fun for 1 month , i had my savings and had a proper plan about everything and that was the Biggest mistake of my life .
I've finally become the person i never wanted to be , I've gone of house from last 4months . I stopped working in around March and went out for maybe 2 times ? And those two times were the hardest , because of lack of physical work and me gaining weight my knees were hurting alot whenever I tried to walk for even 5mins , i was out of breath and my whole body used to shake whenever I tried to walk for a few minutes , i realised I'm not at the worst state of my life . And again tried killing myself. Slowly slowing i started to hate getting out of bed , i only eat non veg I HAVE NOT HAD ANY VEGGIES FROM LAST FOUR MONTHS . I'm always eating junk and i cannot stop becoz i don't like to eat anything else now .
Yes I've totally realised my life has become like hell now , I've ruined my life in all these things , junk food , smoking , I'm ruining my body. But atleast I'm proud of myself that I'm thinking about that fact that I don't want to continue be like this . I'm tired of being this lazy person. I'm tired of myself . I badly want to change myself. I'm ready to change myself. But the problem is I don't know how . I'm struggle financially so tbh i can't join a gym , I've googled what can I do but i don't know how start .
If anyone can help me with their words it would be great. I'm willing to change . I don't want to change in a day or a week. i want to take baby steps and do everything slowly and make my body healthy again. I want to live longer and live happily without worrying about my breathe.
I'm ready to change.
If you've read this far thankyou so much.❤️

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