RESPECT BERZERKER

"It had only been two seasons since he was born, but already he was making an impact. Leaving his mark. In only two seasons... he had become a man."

Unute, or Berzerker, is an immortal demi-god that has walked the Earth for 80,000 thousand years. Originally born as a blessing to a tribe on the verge of destruction, he was turned into an unstoppable murderer by his father. Since then, he has roamed from civilization to civilization fighting wars and killing men to satiate his bloodlust. For when he gets mad, his eyes will glow and he gains the power of the Berzerker. This was until he began working for the United States Government as their super-soldier under the agreement that they will help him find a way to become mortal. With the help of Diana, a doctor dedicated to studying his immortality, he might finally find the peace that he is looking for.
STRENGTH

Blunt Force

• Punches through a man's head
  
• Shoves a pistol through a man's head
  
• Palm strikes a man's jaw off, crushes another man's head with a stomp, then rips out a man's spine to stab another soldier to death
  
• Flying kicks through an armored vehicles' windshield
  
• Breaks a man's nose with an elbow
  
• Rips the heart out of a man's chest then eats it
  
• Kills a bear with one punch
  
• Breaks rocks with an axe until it breaks, then he just breaks the rock with his fist
  
• Cleaves through a horse and a man's leg with a giant stone club, bisects a man, kicks the spine/ribs out of another
  
• As a child, he punches through a man's skull and stabs out a man's face with a horse jaw
  
• Kills a man by stomping through their chest and shoving an axe through the body of another
  
• Punches through a man's head that is wearing a metal helmet
  
• While mortal, he takes out a soldier with a jab
  

Physical

• Rips a soldier's arm off
  
• Rips a jaguar in half
  
• Tears a man's head off
  
• Rips a man in half
  
• Tears off a horse's head to use as a weapon
  
• Lifts an army tank and knocks it over
  
• Carries a man of a mountain for hours without stopping
  
• Lifts a man high above his head with one arm
  
• Uses a piece of metal to tear through the ceiling to get to the next floor
  
• With regular strength, kicks a man off of him
  

Other

• Kills a wolf with his teeth and tears apart the body of someone that attacked him
  
• Cuts a man in half with an axe
  
• Busts through the ceiling of a palace
  

DURABILITY

Blunt

• Jumps out of a helicopter without a parachute and sustains no injuries
  
• Tackles a man out a window, falls several stories, and slams through a food truck leaves him partially hurt if at all
  
• Falling out of a plane and crashing through trees breaks his arm, but he is relatively alright even with the spike in his head
  
• Being blasted into the air by an energy blast, slamming into the ceiling, and falling down just knocks him out instead of killing him
  
• While mortal, takes a tackle from someone with his super strength, which gives him internal damage
  

Piercing/Slash

• Pistol fire doesn't slow him down
  
• Automatic fire doesn't seem to bother him all that much
  
• Tanks machine gun fire without issue
  
• Having a hole blown through his hand phase him
  
• Spears penetrating his body don't seem to be an issue
  
• Survives having an axe stab into his back and being filled with arrows
  
• Has two spears shoved through his body, then takes a flaming spear to the heart, but he carries on
  
• Having his hand sliced off didn't slow him down
  
• Someone that stole his powers was barely slowed down by sniper rounds that caused a regular soldier's head to explode
  
• While mortal, he is shot through the hand but can still use it
  

Esoteric

• Holding a grenade capable of blowing the door off an armored vehicle and tearing a man to pieces only blows all the flesh off of his hand
  
• Survives the explosion after he rams an armored car into a plane, but it leaves him badly injured
  
• Sticking his hand in fire as a child doesn't bother him much
  
• Survives an explosion that completely destroys a tank, but it leaves him extremely wounded
  
• Blasted in the face with a Edo-period rifle
  
• Flamethrowers cannot stop him
  

Healing

• Can heal injuries quickly
  
• After having hundreds of warriors tear him apart and mutilate his body, it takes a day to regenerate completely and be reborn
  
• Having his body burnt doesn't stop his regeneration
  
• Only a day after being blown up and injured badly, he is already healed up
  

Other

• Survives several months under water
  
• Even after having his immortality removed, he is reborn again on a different planet
  

SPEED/AGILITY/REACTION

• Reacts fast enough to avoid being shot in the head, but the bullet tears his nose off
  
• Catches up to a jaguar running away from him
  
• Leaps higher than a bucking horse
  
• Outruns horses while on foot
  
• Catches an RPG shot at him and throws it back
  
• Easily catches up to a soldier trying to run away
  
• Ducks to avoid a bullet at point blank range
  

BERZERKER

• The Berzerker is a power that builds up inside him that sends him into a blind rage that wants nothing more than to kill. It increases his strength, durability, and reflects
  
• Sometimes, it can even make him kill his allies if they get too close
  
• Animals fear the Berzerker because they remember him killing their ancestors in their DNA
  
• When put under extreme pressure or emotions, he can explode with overwhelming energy
  
• Under special conditions and more pressure than he has ever experienced, Unute explodes so heavily that it makes a crater that is 2 miles in wide and sends him back to the beginning of time
  
• While Berzerker, he tears through dozens and dozens of soldiers with ease
  

SKILL

• Shoots out a man's eye with a pistol
  
• Has a perfect memory that allows him to recall anything that he has experienced
  
  • Even remembers being born 80,000 years ago
• During his first time throwing a spear, he immediately killed an elk from a distance
  
• Fought alongside the Greeks, the Persians, the Edo-period Japanese, and in Napoleon's army
  
• Learned telepathy from the ancient Olmecs
  
• While mortal, he casually disarms a soldier and takes out two others with the gun
  

MISC

• Has a perfect memory that allows him to recall anything that he has experienced
  
  • Even remembers being born 80,000 years ago
• Is a child of an unknown lightning god, and was born only after sixty days of pregnancy
  
• Has lived amongst numerous civilizations, even becoming a Samurai and a Viking at times
  
• Knows ancient Sumerian because he lived amongst them
  

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El Farolito (NPSL) – International San Francisco (LQ)
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2:30 PT - Ohlone College Soccer Field; Fremont, CA
Stream

Time	Event	Team	Player	Score
1'	-	START OF FIRST HALF	-	EFA 0-0 SFO
9'	Yellow Card	El Farolito	L. Bacerra	EFA 0-0 SFO
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7:00 ET - Ted Mackorell Soccer Complex; Boone, NC
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Time	Event	Team	Player	Score
1'	-	START OF FIRST HALF	-	APP 0-0 NCF
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Manhattan SC (USL2) – FC Motown (NPSL)
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7:00 ET - Marillac Field (College of Mt. St. Vincent); Bronx, NY
Stream

Time	Event	Team	Player	Score
1'	-	START OF FIRST HALF	-	MAN 0-0 MOT
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Club de Lyon B (LQ) – Nona FC (USL2)
7:00 ET - Austin-Tindall Sports Complex, Kissimmee, FL
Stream

Time	Event	Team	Player	Score
1'	-	START OF FIRST HALF	-	LYO 0-0 NON
2'	GOAL!	Nona FC	W. Eyang	LYO 0-1 NON
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Chicago House AC (LQ) – Bavarian United SC (LQ)
Chicago House AC vs Bavarian United SC - U.S. Open Cup 1st round preview
An Open Cup Romantic at Home With Chicago House
7:00 CT - Langhorst Field (Elmhurst University); Elmhurst. IL
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Time	Event	Team	Player	Score
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Beaman United FC (LQ) – Des Moines Menace (USL2)
Des Moines Always a Menace for the Big Boys
7:00 CT - Dean A. Hayes Track & Soccer Stadium (MTSU); Murfreesboro, TN
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Time	Event	Team	Player	Score
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Tulsa Athletic (NPSL) – Brazos Valley Cavalry FC (USL2)
7:00 CT - Hicks Park; Tulsa, OK
Stream

Time	Event	Team	Player	Score
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UDA Soccer (LQ) – Park City Red Wolves SC (USL2)
Meet The Underdogs: UDA Soccer
7:00 MT - New Mexico State Soccer Field; Las Cruces, NM
Stream

Time	Event	Team	Player	Score
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7:00 PT - Ohlone College Soccer Field; Fremont, CA
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Open Cup Debutants Capo FC Grown up From the Grassroots
7:00 PT - Ventura College Sportsplex; Ventura, CA
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Time	Event	Team	Player	Score
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RESPECT BERZERKER

"It had only been two seasons since he was born, but already he was making an impact. Leaving his mark. In only two seasons... he had become a man."

Unute, or Berzerker, is an immortal demi-god that has walked the Earth for 80,000 thousand years. Originally born as a blessing to a tribe on the verge of destruction, he was turned into an unstoppable murderer by his father. Since then, he has roamed from civilization to civilization fighting wars and killing men to satiate his bloodlust. For when he gets mad, his eyes will glow and he gains the power of the Berzerker. This was until he began working for the United States Government as their super-soldier under the agreement that they will help him find a way to become mortal. With the help of Diana, a doctor dedicated to studying his immortality, he might finally find the peace that he is looking for.
STRENGTH

Blunt Force

• Punches through a man's head
  
• Shoves a pistol through a man's head
  
• Palm strikes a man's jaw off, crushes another man's head with a stomp, then rips out a man's spine to stab another soldier to death
  
• Flying kicks through an armored vehicles' windshield
  
• Breaks a man's nose with an elbow
  
• Rips the heart out of a man's chest then eats it
  
• Kills a bear with one punch
  
• Breaks rocks with an axe until it breaks, then he just breaks the rock with his fist
  
• Cleaves through a horse and a man's leg with a giant stone club, bisects a man, kicks the spine/ribs out of another
  
• As a child, he punches through a man's skull and stabs out a man's face with a horse jaw
  
• Kills a man by stomping through their chest and shoving an axe through the body of another
  
• Punches through a man's head that is wearing a metal helmet
  
• While mortal, he takes out a soldier with a jab
  

Physical

• Rips a soldier's arm off
  
• Rips a jaguar in half
  
• Tears a man's head off
  
• Rips a man in half
  
• Tears off a horse's head to use as a weapon
  
• Lifts an army tank and knocks it over
  
• Carries a man of a mountain for hours without stopping
  
• Lifts a man high above his head with one arm
  
• Uses a piece of metal to tear through the ceiling to get to the next floor
  
• With regular strength, kicks a man off of him
  

Other

• Kills a wolf with his teeth and tears apart the body of someone that attacked him
  
• Cuts a man in half with an axe
  
• Busts through the ceiling of a palace
  

DURABILITY

Blunt

• Jumps out of a helicopter without a parachute and sustains no injuries
  
• Tackles a man out a window, falls several stories, and slams through a food truck leaves him partially hurt if at all
  
• Falling out of a plane and crashing through trees breaks his arm, but he is relatively alright even with the spike in his head
  
• Being blasted into the air by an energy blast, slamming into the ceiling, and falling down just knocks him out instead of killing him
  
• While mortal, takes a tackle from someone with his super strength, which gives him internal damage
  

Piercing/Slash

• Pistol fire doesn't slow him down
  
• Automatic fire doesn't seem to bother him all that much
  
• Tanks machine gun fire without issue
  
• Having a hole blown through his hand phase him
  
• Spears penetrating his body don't seem to be an issue
  
• Survives having an axe stab into his back and being filled with arrows
  
• Has two spears shoved through his body, then takes a flaming spear to the heart, but he carries on
  
• Having his hand sliced off didn't slow him down
  
• Someone that stole his powers was barely slowed down by sniper rounds that caused a regular soldier's head to explode
  
• While mortal, he is shot through the hand but can still use it
  

Esoteric

• Holding a grenade capable of blowing the door off an armored vehicle and tearing a man to pieces only blows all the flesh off of his hand
  
• Survives the explosion after he rams an armored car into a plane, but it leaves him badly injured
  
• Sticking his hand in fire as a child doesn't bother him much
  
• Survives an explosion that completely destroys a tank, but it leaves him extremely wounded
  
• Blasted in the face with a Edo-period rifle
  
• Flamethrowers cannot stop him
  

Healing

• Can heal injuries quickly
  
• After having hundreds of warriors tear him apart and mutilate his body, it takes a day to regenerate completely and be reborn
  
• Having his body burnt doesn't stop his regeneration
  
• Only a day after being blown up and injured badly, he is already healed up
  

Other

• Survives several months under water
  
• Even after having his immortality removed, he is reborn again on a different planet
  

SPEED/AGILITY/REACTION

• Reacts fast enough to avoid being shot in the head, but the bullet tears his nose off
  
• Catches up to a jaguar running away from him
  
• Leaps higher than a bucking horse
  
• Outruns horses while on foot
  
• Catches an RPG shot at him and throws it back
  
• Easily catches up to a soldier trying to run away
  
• Ducks to avoid a bullet at point blank range
  

BERZERKER

• The Berzerker is a power that builds up inside him that sends him into a blind rage that wants nothing more than to kill. It increases his strength, durability, and reflects
  
• Sometimes, it can even make him kill his allies if they get too close
  
• Animals fear the Berzerker because they remember him killing their ancestors in their DNA
  
• When put under extreme pressure or emotions, he can explode with overwhelming energy
  
• Under special conditions and more pressure than he has ever experienced, Unute explodes so heavily that it makes a crater that is 2 miles in wide and sends him back to the beginning of time
  
• While Berzerker, he tears through dozens and dozens of soldiers with ease
  

SKILL

• Shoots out a man's eye with a pistol
  
• Has a perfect memory that allows him to recall anything that he has experienced
  
  • Even remembers being born 80,000 years ago
• During his first time throwing a spear, he immediately killed an elk from a distance
  
• Fought alongside the Greeks, the Persians, the Edo-period Japanese, and in Napoleon's army
  
• Learned telepathy from the ancient Olmecs
  
• While mortal, he casually disarms a soldier and takes out two others with the gun
  

MISC

• Has a perfect memory that allows him to recall anything that he has experienced
  
  • Even remembers being born 80,000 years ago
• Is a child of an unknown lightning god, and was born only after sixty days of pregnancy
  
• Has lived amongst numerous civilizations, even becoming a Samurai and a Viking at times
  
• Knows ancient Sumerian because he lived amongst them
  

Tout d'abord : Merci /sex.
Lien vers la vidéo en question.
Lien vers le fil de discussion précédent sur la question.
Bon, alors l'histoire de fond : c'est que ma petite amie et moi sommes ensemble depuis cinq ans, et j'ai toujours considéré que j'étais assez bon pour "les trucs" (comme dirait Rachel sur Friends). J'ai toujours pu faire jouir ma petite amie rapidement (moins de 5 minutes) avec seulement mes mains (avec ou sans insertion) ou ma langue. Par rapport à des amis qui disaient que "les femmes ont des orgasmes ?" ou "Oh oui, mon petit ami n'a jamais réussi à me faire jouir", je pensais que je m'en sortais plutôt bien.
J'ai toujours été sceptique à l'égard des vidéos qui vous enseignent comment devenir un amant / partenaire sexuel nettement meilleur en une courte leçon de 20 minutes, car elles ressemblent tellement à l'une de ces publicités "ONE CRAZY TRICK". Mais après avoir lu le fil lié ci-dessus, j'ai décidé - pourquoi pas. Donc, pendant la mi-temps du match Bulls/Nets, j'ai mis la vidéo et j'ai regardé.
Lorsqu'elle est rentrée (elle travaillait tard), nous avons commencé à batifoler et j'ai décidé d'essayer les techniques décrites par Hartley - plus précisément deux techniques :

1. Pincer et remuer la vulve
2. Sucer la chatte avec une pression constante

HOLY FUCK, les gars.
Sérieusement.
HOLY FUCK.
Ce qui s'est passé :

• Je me suis allongé à côté d'elle et j'ai juste pincé sa chatte - c'est tout. Je l'ai juste pincé et maintenu relativement serré. Si je me souviens bien, Hartley dit dans la vidéo que cela fonctionne parce que vous ne restez pas vraiment immobile - il y a toujours des micro-mouvements. Quelle que soit la raison, ça marche. Lentement - comme au cours de 10 minutes environ (tout en s'embrassant), j'ai commencé à faire des mouvements lents de remuement (toujours avec un pincement serré). Je vais vous dire - je peux faire jouir ma copine en moins de 3 minutes avec mes mains, mais la regarder avec cette lente montée en puissance est 500x plus satisfaisant. Elle l'a ensuite décrit comme un "plaisir tortueux".
  
• J'ai sucé sa chatte pendant environ 15 minutes d'affilée - juste une succion constante. Je n'ai pas eu à faire grand-chose - je l'ai laissée se frotter contre moi (comme Hartley le suggère dans la vidéo) pour que la langue ne soit pas engourdie comme peut l'être parfois le sexe oral. C'est le plus grand plaisir qu'elle ait jamais eu à faire du sexe oral (d'après ce que je peux dire), et c'est le moins que j'aie jamais eu à faire pour que cela arrive. J'utilisais une combinaison de
  
• Je n'ai pas utilisé de stimulation interne des doigts, uniquement parce qu'à ce stade, elle me suppliait de la baiser. La prochaine fois, je le ferai, mais je savais qu'elle était super proche de l'orgasme et elle préfère jouir pendant les rapports sexuels PIV.
  
• Elle a joui au cours des deux premières poussées du sexe. Et c'est l'une des plus difficiles (si ce n'est la plus difficile) qu'elle ait jamais connue. Je parle d'un orgasme intense de plusieurs minutes d'affilée, suivi de plusieurs minutes d'agitation.
  
• Elle a dormi comme un bébé par la suite, littéralement recroquevillée avec sa tête sur mes genoux.
  

Leçons apprises :

• La chatte est bien plus solide que je ne le pensais. J'ai continué à augmenter la force avec laquelle j'agrippais sa chatte (j'ai une forte poigne grâce aux marches des fermiers et aux poids morts) et j'ai découvert qu'il était pratiquement impossible d'agripper trop fort. Je suppose que je le savais parce que nous aimons tous deux le sexe assez brutal, mais pour une raison quelconque, j'ai toujours été beaucoup plus doux avec la stimulation manuelle.
  
• Une aspiration constante sur la chatte est une aubaine. La meilleure chose qui soit.
  
• Vous pouvez obtenir une femme 10x mieux avec 1/10ème du travail que vous fournissez en ce moment. Sérieusement. C'est incroyable à quel point la technique l'emporte sur l'effort.
  
• Traitez le clito comme un pénis. J'avais déjà entendu dire que le clito est un pénis miniature, mais je n'avais jamais vraiment intériorisé ce que cela signifiait pour la stimulation avant de regarder cette vidéo. Penser que le clito et le pénis sont morphologiquement équivalents et s'arrêter vraiment pour considérer ce que cela signifie m'a ouvert les yeux.
  

TLDR : Un autre témoignage pour la vidéo de Nina Hartley / Sunny Lane.
En conclusion, je cite un autre utilisateur :

PUTAIN DE MERDE, OÙ EST-CE QUE C'ÉTAIT PENDANT TOUTE MA VIE ? Je veux dire, j'ai déjà reçu des compliments sur mes techniques manuelles, mais j'ai l'impression de me prendre pour Michel-Ange alors que je ne suis qu'un élève de troisième année, qui tâtonne avec sa toile, jetant de la peinture de façon négligée et désordonnée.

Throwback to 2018 when I lived with my grandparents due to me not being able to share a house with my Stepfather.
Start of 2019 my grandmother (65 at that time) got diagnosed with rheumatism and simple all-day tasks were very uncomfortable for her to do, so I took on the role of keeping the house clean, getting groceries, preparing dinner, etc. It wasn't much work to do and I felt like I was giving something back since she and my grandpa basically raised me.
It went downhill from there. I went out partying a lot. Freshly turned 18, finally able to LEGALLY drink. I didn't have a job. I was living off of them. She never said no to anything I wanted. She gave me the world. Looking back now - I was very ungrateful most of the time. We had a lot of fights. I was an absolute menace.
Fast forward a bit: March 2019 my grandpa got diagnosed with a chronic lung disease and had to be on oxygen 24/7. Due to him being scared of moving and therefore shortness of breath, he spent most of his life on our couch. Because of that, he basically had no muscle strength left. I took on caring for him because at that time I was wildly interested in anything medical. Changing diapers for my own grandpa changed me. I had to grow out of the partying phase. A few friends stuck around for a while but at some point I had no time for them anymore. I found a job. A good one. I felt alive. I felt useful. I had a perspective. And then my grandmother fell very sick. She was losing blood internally and no doctor could find out why. 15th of August 2019 I had to call an ambulance for her because she was not responding. Pale as a ghost. That night still haunts me every day. Doctos told me they had to perform emergency surgery on her intestines because that was where she was bleeding. But her body was too weak for the anesthesia. She was in the ICU for 3 days and I said my last goodbies because I was losing hope. But she was FIGHTING. The strongest woman I ever met. She recovered. And we decided to take some pressure off of me and put her into a care home. It was rough.. I won't go into detail because no one wants to read novels on Reddit but.. it was the hardest 6 months of my life. They did not care for her. She was getting weaker and weaker. At one point I could've basically work for the care home because I did everything they wouldn't.
Fast forward to the start of the pandemic, March 2020. I got the call. She fell asleep and never woke up. 35 kilo at 1,58 cm height. That's what the doctor told me that examined her. I was broken. I started drinking again. I lost my will to live. I was only going on because I still had my grandpa at home waiting for me. I did nothing else than caring for him. I lost my job. I lost my friends, I broke up with my boyfriend of 3 years.
After getting in contact with my mum again, she decided me and my grandpa should move to where she lives and so we did. We spent an amazin year and a half in the new apartment. Trying to start fresh. Caring for him still was very rough but I pulled through.
At one point it struck me. If he dies, I have nothing. No home, no money, absolutely nothing.
8th November 2022 I called an ambulance because he was not responding to me. He was awake but not.. in the same room with me. I had severe ptsd going on and couldn't sleep. Next morning I got the call.
That's it. Nothing left. I'm now typing this because I feel awfully guilty for taking things for granted. For living off of my grandparents. I'm now 25 and I have no perspective. It's the sad truth - companies here refuse to give me a chance. They think I'm lazy, which I was. But I changed. I WANT to work. I want my own life, since I did not have one for the past 5 years. I don't know what to do. I did not choose any of this and the only thing I'm doing right now is live one day after another. I miss them so much and I wish I would've done things differently.