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2023.06.10 23:51 Fellow_Gey MbtiTypeMe

I am an 18-year-old Male who likes to draw and play video games
• Is there a medical diagnosis that may impact your mental stability somehow?
• Describe your upbringing. Did it have any kind of religious or structured influence? How did you respond to it?
my parents were pretty strict with me. I didn't watch a lot of TV shows growing up, I had a lot of private classes and was expected an A+ from all of my classes. I wasn't allowed to have a phone until High School and although I went to a religious school, I don't have any opinions on religion, and during my time in school, although I didn't believe in religion I still paid respect and did what was expected of me. This lead to me becoming somewhat of a people-pleaser and would have outbursts when someone breaks my limits, which usually never happens.
• What do you do as a job or as a career (if you have one)? Do you like it? Why or why not?
I do not have a job right now but my dream job would be an artist, and my realistic job would be working at a restaurant. If all else fails however, I could settle to be a therapist because I feel like a listener in more relationships.
• If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed?
I would feel both lonely but also refreshed. I love to spend time with people but get tired easily, but when I'm alone for too long I feel tired too and need other people to help energize and motivate me. Most of the time I would call my friends online to keep in touch.
• What kinds of activities do you prefer? Do you like, and are you good at sports? Do you enjoy any other outdoor or indoor activities?
I prefer to draw and play games with my friends, but I also love to bike. I love doing these monotonous things because I feel like I get to think the best when my mind is consciously doing things while my subconscious takes over the thinking. So I like both indoor and outdoor activities. I also like dancing because it's very fun.
• How curious are you? Do you have more ideas then you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate?
I'm very curious but in a way that is kept to myself. Everytime I start thinking consciously however, it always leads to something gloomy and somehow everything I think about somehow ties to the inevitable end to all things. My ideas are usually things I've seen before and I like to merge them to see what would be the best idea from observing not the little details but the grand scheme
• Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be?
I hate taking on leadership positions and the only times where I have taken a leadership position was helping my friends who were in conflict back together. My leadership style would be to listen to everyone's perspectives and then creating an average perspective and go from there.
• Are you coordinated? Why do you feel as if you are or are not? Do you enjoy working with your hands in some form? Describe your activity?
I am very coordinated within myself but I hate making decisions for myself because it feels selfish. I never feel coordinated however because I feel like I'm always just going whatever my path takes me and figure it out when I get there. I love to draw with my hands and fold papers or do monotonous work like I said earlier because it helps me focus on other things.
• Are you artistic? If yes, describe your art? If you are not particular artistic but can appreciate art please likewise describe what forums of art you enjoy. Please explain your answer.
I love to draw both traditionally on paper and also digital paint. My art usually has an underlying meaning and also in my head I think was perfect at the moment, which is why so many of them are unfinished because I've grown to not like that idea and focus on the ones that are more perfect.
• What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them?
I'm always thinking about the future but I really hate to because every time I do it always leads to something bad and gloomy, usually death and how the fabric of reality we're living on may not even be real. As a coping mechanism, I would focus on the present by being around my friends because they help me live in the moment. I see the past as more of as experiences that when averaged up helped me make decisions in the present/future. I also have incredibly bad memory.
• How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so?
I usually try to stop what I'm doing to help them, unless I'm doing something really important and I would reassure them usually over text that I'll help them later. I help them because it makes me feel better that they appreciate me for my efforts and out of everyone they could've asked for help they came to me.
• Do you need logical consistency in your life?
No, I think my sense of logic can change all the time and it's completely personal. I can learn many things from proven sources but how everyone perceives that knowledge is different to themselves.
• How important is efficiency and productivity to you?
It's only ever important if I am demanded of it or if it's required, otherwise I rather spend my time making everything more perfect and presentable.
• Do you control others, even if indirectly? How and why do you do that?
I'm not sure if it's control, but I've realized just recently that every since I was young, I've learned how to appeal to every individualistic person as a good friend even if I don't like them so that when conflict happens people will always be by my side. 90% of the time though I'm nice to people because I genuinely believe that everyone can be a good person if you get to know them.
• What are your hobbies? Why do you like them?
I love every form of art, from drawing and poetry to dancing and theatrical acting, because I think art is the meaning of life and I genuinely just enjoy them. I love to play video games too and although playing alone is fine, but usually I really open my computer to talk to my friends.
• What is your learning style? What kind of learning environments do you struggle with most? Why do you like/struggle with these learning styles? Do you prefer classes involving memorization, logic, creativity, or your physical senses?
My learning style is slow and group oriented. I take in information very slowly because I need a physical teacher in front of me to give examples of how it works internally, because I have trouble just memorizing equations; I actually need them to make sense to me. I struggle most with environments where I have to figure everything out by myself; it's not impossible but I would DEFINITELY rather have someone who can guide me. I don't really prefer any classes because I don't like complaining.
• How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go?
I always just wing and improvise because if I paid attention to the teacher, I've learned to trust my brain to know exactly what to do and how to do it.
• What are your aspirations in life, professionally and personally?
• What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why?
• What do the "highs" in your life look like?
In seventh grade when I had all A+ in every class, I made a ton of friends in my new school, had swimming classes everyday so my parents were happy, my friends and I played games together every weekend, and I was just happy because I had no idea what was going on
• What do the "lows" in your life look like?
A period of time when I had really really bad grades, stayed up with all nighters doing literally nothing, thought I was genuinely developing a mental illness, didn't want to talk to anyone, had no idea where my life was going, moving somewhere else where away from all of my old friends I've spent my life with, and I suppressed all of my emotions because I thought that there was always someone who had it worse than me.
• How attached are you to reality? Do you daydream often, or do you pay attention to what's around you? If you do daydream, are you aware of your surroundings while you do so?
I daydream very often but I'm always very connected to reality. sometimes I wonder if I hate being connected to reality or I hate that I love to daydream, because I'm always believing that there is good out there, but I get disappointed every time yet I still belive in the same thing. I'm usually aware of my surroundings when I daydream, but I will forget everything someone says until I hear something that snaps me out of my daydream.
• Imagine you are alone in a blank, empty room. There is nothing for you to do and no one to talk to. What do you think about?
It would be my nightmare because even without the room being blank and empty I'm always thinking about the worst things ever, and I always need someone else to talk to to break me out of that chain of thought. I always think about the future and what it holds but I can't control myself when doing it and sometimes I even have trouble falling asleep because I'm trying to not focus on my thoughts but they override my brain anyways.
• How long do you take to make an important decision? And do you change your mind once you've made it?
Very long, because I need to know every perspective of the situation and I trust myself to not change my mind unless something new is added to the equation.
• How long do you take to process your emotions? How important are emotions in your life?
Emotions are very important to me and I love to share my emotions with people I'm closest to, which really sucks for me because when I'm outside I always have this need to make my emotions be appealing to the people around me.
• Do you ever catch yourself agreeing with others just to appease them and keep the conversation going? How often? Why?
Very very often because I hate conflict.
• Do you break rules often? Do you think authority should be challenged, or that they know better? If you do break rules, why?
I usually don't break the rules because I see no reason why to, I never really put much thought into it (to both not breaking the rules and breaking the rules). Authorities should be challenged when they're wrong and being selfish. They probably do know better but after all they're still human like us and how should we not know better?
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2023.06.10 23:51 suprisepopsicle Feeling like I’m not good enough and don’t know why people treat me like this.

I’m a bisexual girl and I’m sick of feeling like I’m not good enough. I feel like I’m everybody’s second choice, or 3rd, or 4th. Everyone I’m involved with makes me feel so worthless. 1. My ex bf of 3 1/2 years looked at pictures of my sister naked. So that’s over obviously. 2. This girl and I have been hooking up for the past 5 years. Last night we had such an amazing time together. We went to a water park, held hands, kissed, called eachother babe, baby, my love. When we get back to my house we took a shower together and had sex in the shower and then in my room. In the middle of sex her mom calls her and tells her to come home. She has a very toxic relationship with her mother. And I’m trying to comfort her, and she pushes me off her and tells me to give her a second. And I see that she’s texting her ex bf “coming home” and then she calls him and is like please come pick me up and then telling him her mom said XYZ things which her mom never said as I heard the entire conversation on speaker phone. At this point I felt like trash and was like “are you seriously calling your ex boyfriend as you’re naked in my bed” and turned my back to her. She’s like I’m sorry I’m such a piece of shit I have no where else to go or anyone else to talk to. I told her that I said she could stay here as long as she needs and that I would do anything to help her and that her calling her ex bf til he answers her after we were in the middle of having sex makes me feel worthless. She literally left. And I texted her hope you get home safe and have fun fucking him. Which might have been mean but at this point I am not letting people walk all over me like this. Like what the hell. She’s doing this right in front of my face! It made me feel like this is just a game to her and like she thinks I don’t have feelings. I doubt she would have done that if she was in another guys bed. But since I’m a girl she doesn’t see the issue. 3. I hooked up with a coworker earlier this year. He made me feel like he was actually interested in me and after we had sex he basically ghosted me. Would go months with no attention and then he’d start liking my stories or responding to my posts. I was told by another coworker that he is involved with another girl at our job and I’ve worked with her once. And I’m not sure if she knows about him and i but she told me they had specifically made their schedules to where they can work together. Which is like whatever, this guy doesn’t owe me loyalty but at the same time i compare myself to this girl and I don’t even feel respected by him. For example, he hit me up to hang out a few weeks after this happened. And I said okay come over at XYZ time. Then he never responded until the next morning and said he fell asleep. I stopped engaging with him. He makes me feel like I’m not even worth a hookup. I would never even tell a friend hey we’re gonna hang out, and then once they answer never respond. That’s insane to me. 4. I’ve been hooking up with this girl for the past year and she has a boyfriend. We hooked up twice before she told me she actually wants a threesome and I declined the offer and said I wasn’t interested. Well after she hits me up all the time, she texts me to come over and it will just be us. So we do that and then the next time I message her to meet up she tells me she wants a threesome. I feel manipulated despite our open communication about their open relationship and our feelings. I should’ve known better but she probably just slept with me by herself to make sure she didn’t lose me completely and like a lure into actually sleeping with both of them. I’m seriously starting to get insecure and wonder what is wrong with me. I can’t believe people I’m involved with romantically/sexually treat me in a way I wouldn’t allow friends to treat me or ever do this to anybody. I start to say hey these things are okay because we’re not in a relationship but no I’m learning my worth especially after being blindsided by my ex bf. I’m sick of it, and I’m okay alone but I want that sexual compatibility I have with these people but they make me feel like trash. Men I’m interested in don’t even give me attention, and girls I’m interested in treat me like a piece of meat with no feelings.
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2023.06.10 23:50 glassishalffull23 Addicted for over 20 years, new developments

As the title says it, I have been addicted to p* for over 20 years. I am in my late thirties and I started in my mid-teens. I. HAVE. TRIED. EVERYTHING. TO. QUIT. I am married with a young child.
For the young people here, don't be like me. I have full-blown PIED caused by years of this garbage and as such, I need ED drugs to maintain during relations. I told my wife about it in a gesture of honesty. We came to the brink of divorce during multiple occasions. Constant fights, cold shoulders, lost moments. It has almost been 7 years ago that I announced it to her and she is still suffering from trauma and betrayal because of what I used to do behind her back. Once again, do not be like me.
Alhamdulillah my work has decent insurance so I tried three different therapists even an Islamically centered one. My latest therapist was a CSAT whom I saw for almost a year. We did marginal improvement but I reverted back again to p*.
Last Ramadan, I broke my fasts 5 times as the p* tension was too much to bear. So for this Ramadan, I told myself, I have to keep it all. And alhamdulillah, I did. What worked was I became addicted to the gym. Protein, proper diet, you name it. As I have a 24/7 gym close by, I used to go 3-5 times a week even at night after an extremely tiring day of taking care of a toddler and even if I had work the day after. Also during Ramadan while fasting. It killed me physically.
But subhaAllah, I started to see some improvements. My sobriety of 30 days of Ramadan eventually became 41 days as I continued after Ramadan. What made me relapse was a stupid work trip where I stayed at a hotel for 3 nights and the tension came back full blown. Right after relapsing, I took a shower, dressed up for the gym and went to the hotel gym to workout till 9 p.m. It helped as I did not relapse anymore.
Two day ago, I relapsed again but I made it to 44 days. Once again, intense gym, and keeping busy with family life. For me, this is a massive achievement, by the grace of Allah SWT. I have never made it this far in over 20 years of addiction.
Some observations of what is happening to me now:
I desire my wife much more than before. I do not need ED pills to maintain during relations. Before spontaneous sex was out of the question as I needed to take the pill and wait for it to activate. It took out the enjoyment from instant passionate sex. Now, I can keep it up on my own without pills. Now the frequency of relations has increased as I am more confident to initiate spontaneously and achieve pleasure. Also mind cloud has almost dissipated. Confidence has significantly increased because a) I workout far more and alhamdulillah, I am happier physically and b) I feel happiness that I am at a glacial pace, extricating myself from this garbage, by the will of Allah SWT.
Some rules that worked for me:
1) IF you relapse, only one hit and then shower IMMEDIATELY after. Otherwise, Shaytaan will tempt you for multiple hits. You are in a state of vulnerability post-ejaculation. The idea is to decrease exposure to this garbage in any way you can.
2) Gym, gym, gym. My addiction is very very slowly shifting from this garbage to the gym. So much so that I feel guilty now going to the gym during rest days. I am not sure if this is a better alternative but that is another story.
3) I really hated Allah SWT for making me go through the gazillion times I relapsed and tried to get back up. I cried and cried for relief from this. It's tough, but don't give up. Hold on to Him even if it it is as thin as a hair.
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2023.06.10 23:50 raggedyrachy21 A little put off by my photographer?

So I hired a photographer that was well within budget. She had really great reviews and I loved her style. She also seemed really open to working with my budget and had a deal going on, essentially we’d be getting her for 5 hours for only $700 and it would be +$100 for any added hour after that. I signed the contract and put down a deposit of $350 since I didn’t have the $700 all at once.
Well, now it’s getting closer to the wedding (October) and we’ve hit some hiccups.
My fiancé’s best friend already shot our engagement photos, but since they were also included with our wedding package with our photographer, we figured we’d do some but include our dog this time since he can’t come to the wedding. We scheduled to meet at a nearby park for the photo shoot. I also asked to schedule some time on a phone call to discuss a list of photos and an outline of the day since I’m a new bride and very busy with school and stuff, I kinda wanted to get it done.
She said she could schedule a day to chat on the phone, but the days I gave her to call me came and went without a reply.
Now, she had to reschedule the photo shoot to a few hours later in the day because she shares a car with her fiancé. That’s fine. It kind of ruins my photo shoot ideas since my dog won’t be able to come then (he’s very reactive and my bridesmaid has to be there to help with him between shots, but she works that day and time so now she can’t come).
Well now on top of that, my fiancé told me it might rain the day of the photo shoot. I emailed my photographer asking if she had clear umbrellas or an indoor back up since my dog would no longer be coming. She replied that she has to reschedule if there’s rain.
I’m not sure if I’m being overly sensitive/concerned here, but I was honestly a bit perplexed by this answer. I know so many photographers who shoot in various areas and under various circumstances, so I feel like this is a little weird.
I also got my nails done (which I never do) and have a make up appointment that day, so I don’t really want to have to reschedule everything and have wasted money over some light rain….
On top of that, it just kind of makes me worry even more that she is not the photographer for me. Is it too late to get out and find someone else? Am I panicking/overreacting over nothing? Please give an inexperienced bride some insight. I only ever got my senior pics done before, and otherwise have no experience with professional photographers.
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2023.06.10 23:50 PussyWhistle 100 Days!

For the past 10+ years I have been an avid gym rat, and a secret alcoholic. On the outside I looked fit, and lots of my friends would come to me for health and fitness advice. None of them knew that I was drinking myself to sleep, alone, almost every single night. When I’d meet up with friends for drinks, they would have a couple and call it a night, while I would pick up a bottle or two on the way home to get myself to the level I really needed to be at. I was a fun drunk, and nobody knew how I was silently suffering by myself.
That side of me is dead, and I’m no longer ashamed of who I am.
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2023.06.10 23:50 Sith_Reaper28 Landlord is doing house work and didn't inform us

Currently our landlord is doing work on the roof of the house we are renting with the downstairs tenants and apparently part of it required them to turn the power. We weren't informed before hand that anything was being done(he's done this in the past) and only found out after we heard loud banging coming from the roof and went out to see what was happening. When the power went out I left to see if everyone was ok because I thought something happened and one of them was hurt. They informed me they they were fine and turned it off and aren't sure how long till it will be back on. We're both quite annoyed because we would have charged our phones and other electronic before hand if we had known as well we had just done a large shop yesterday and with the heat are worried most of it will go bad by the time it's back on. I'm just wondering if it even legal for them to do work on the roof without informing us and if they can just decided to turn the power off without giving us a heads up. If anyone please let me know.
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2023.06.10 23:50 Icy_Rabbit6337 A bit sad/down today (Location: Greater Pittsburgh Area)

I feel awful for feeling awful about the fact that nobody called or texted me on my birthday. The same thing happened last year too. I've always been mindful of other people's birthday's and I know it's unreasonable to expect the same from everyone. But it sucks. I feel like I'm overreacting by feeling this way about some stupid birthday, but this feeling has been building up for a while. You're supposed to be loved on that day and I feel embarrassed that it's not like that. I feel awful today, but I'm not going to give up. I'll do my best and hope to be happier next year.
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2023.06.10 23:49 PSSD_Kara Had a medical trauma/panic attack and almost passed out at the doctors today lol

I had to go to an appointment today involving blood work and needles at a doctors office and just because I got triggered and started ruminating on what had occurred in the past with this PSSD shit, my stress response went through the roof, and I started blacking out and getting really hot and sweaty and my blood pressure plummeted. I told the phlebotomist and she grabbed me a juice box and an ice pack and stopped the appointment to just let me rest. She also told me to breathe deeper which helped reverse the sudden polyvagal reaction (can’t remember how she called it). I have no issues with blood work normally I just started mentally spiraling about my medical trauma.
I was able to restabilize and didn’t pass out. I was able to finish what I was doing there and felt ok afterward. I also started crying because I was so triggered by the setting of the doctors office. Anyways this really reminds me that a lot of us are dealing with PTSD inflicted in a medical setting as sometimes I can also have a more minor or only psychological anxiety reaction to keywords and context cues that feel like a psychiatrists office or the locations nearby to where I used to live and go to school where the psychiatrist is. Lookup signs of ptsd. I’m not saying ptsd causes PSSD but that fucking shrink and her therapist buddy that I was also working with inflicted both and getting support with it helped me survive.
For 4 years that was the best therapy I could find but I moved on eventually from therapy because a lot of therapists are psychiatry apologists and feed people to the system to be drugged.
Anyways trauma is also caused by loss and grief, it could be ruminating and obsession about what happened and how it happened, nightmares, sweating, panic attacks and flashbacks were a daily thing for years in early PSSD. Look up PTSD symptoms and medical trauma. Let me know what you think. PTSD can also cause suicide so I think it’s important for our community to be aware.
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2023.06.10 23:49 berkayozbek88 Chromatic Orb - The Battle for Nia-Koro Lyrics Video

Chromatic Orb - The Battle for Nia-Koro Lyrics Video
Chromatic Orb is a concept album project from Germany that started as a joke at a Dungeons & Dragons table. In early 2023, guitarist and songwriter Berkay Özbek decided to merge his two passions; music and table top role playing games by transforming his D&D campaign into a metal concept album. For recording he teamed up with a group of talented musicians including vocalists Onur Çobanoğlu, Elvya and fellow guitarist Faruk Aydın Toksöz.
Project's influences range from Pink Floyd to Opeth, from Blind Guardian to Soilwork and many others. Chromatic Orb's sound has both death growls and angelic vocals, bluesy guitar licks and dark acoustic passages, anthem like choruses and in your face groovy riffs. All driven by the story and serve as narrative tools alongside lyrics.
The first single of the project, The Battle for Nia-Koro, released in early June 2023. The composing and recording process is ongoing and releasing a new song each month during 2023 is the current goal.
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2023.06.10 23:49 Inevitably_Quiet My bf is overly nice to girls

Let me give a little context. We have been dating for almost 4 years now. And one of the things that made me fall for him was his kindness.
I (20f) had a some what glow up. Like i hv more men hitting on me now. My bf clearly doesn't like it or might get insecure so i spoke to him about it and i decided i will not entertain these men. I usually shut them down or if it's on text i don't reply or even open the messages if they try to hit on me. I don't even post on socials anymore to avoid guys texting me. In addition to this i hv a lot of guy friends. Not something i was trying to do but it just so happened most of my close friends are guys. And ik this might add on to the insecurity so i do maintain healthy boundaries b/w me and my friends and i made him them and he actually liked them all. I did in the hopes of making sure our relationship isn't affected by anything i do.
Now as for him (20m) he's a generally sweet guy and has a lot of friends. Recently he's been obsessed with the idea of getting a female friend cause he said they are more understanding than men. I get wanting more friends but he was so fixated on getting a female friend he started texting a lot of girls and being overly nice to them. And i pointed out to him that it's weird that he's so obsessed with it. And this inturn just makes these girls fall for him. And he knows that it will end up in some of these girls liking him if he's overly nice.
2nd. If any girl hits on him or anything he's not blunt he has a gf. He sometimes drags it out and doesn't mention for a while that he has a gf. This is completely the opposite of what i do. I make it very clear i have a bf without being overly nice something he ASKED me to do.
3rd. Recently i went to a sleep over with guys and i slept on the same bed as my guy friend. I slept on one corner he was on the other we were faced away from each other and we had our own blankets. I told him this happened and he said he didn't like it. Which is fine and i can respect that. But he did the exact same thing. We were in a sleep over and he was sleeping next to one of our mutual girlfriend and he was very close to her and cuddling cause she was sad about something and they were talking. I walked in on that and i didn't say anything at the time.
It's just overly frustrating because we follow the "put yourself in my shoes" kinda thing but it seems like only i am doing it. Why am I being so careful and trying not to hurt him when he isn't doing the same.
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2023.06.10 23:49 RiftWolfire What is the treatment of black people in Korea?

Hello. I am a African American college student in the U.S. Where I grew up, it was mostly black and white people. As I came to college, I coincidentally gained several Korean friends, as well as non-Korean friends who were big into kpop and kdramas. This led to me becoming interested in Korean media, too, as well as the culture and language itself. I wanted to learn Korean, and maybe visit Korea. But as I did more research, I'm hesitant to continue.
I've read and watched lots of articles and videos and comments about the treatment of black people (and foreigners in general) in Korea, hearing things like foreigners not being able to enter certain restaurants or clubs as well as being ignored by taxi drivers. I've also heard about more direct racism, such as comments and insults and actions towards black people and other non-white foreigners.
Ofcourse, being from the U.S., I know that every country has racism, and I'm sure a foreigner's view of racism in the U.S. is a lot more extreme than anything that I and others experience throughout our lives and on a daily basis. Still hesitant to decide whether or not I should contribute my time to learning the language and the culture, and perhaps visiting someday, I come to this subreddit to ask the question directly.
What is the treatment of black people like from your experience? Do you think it is worth it for me to invest time into learning the language and culture? Is it a good idea for a black person to visit or live there?
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2023.06.10 23:49 xplicit4monies Doc said it was to be expected, but hate it anyways

I was diagnosed with cirrhosis and came to terms with it. I did it to myself with alcohol abuse.
But does anyone have any tips for dealing with jaundice? I go periods of being so weak my body just can’t eat. I’ve told my doctor this and he said by the state I’m in its gonna happen. Every flu, every time I have an episode where I can’t eat it’s back again. Luckily there’s no edema or ascites.
But it’s like damn. This yellow stuff is rough. If my blood pressure isn’t perfect there’s a flare up. If I don’t eat there’s a flare up. My doctor told me it takes times but it’s exhausting watching people look at you twice.
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2023.06.10 23:48 Comprehensive_Risk23 Please stop telling demi people they must be allo (when they describe feeling aesthetic attraction)

Hi, I’m getting bothered by people here being unnecessarily gatekeeping - mislabelling peoples description of aesthetic attraction as sexual and essentially telling people on the verge of finally discovering they are demi that they must be allosexual because they can appreciate pretty humans and ‘that’s not what being demisexual is’.
Bluntly put if you don’t understand the split model of attraction you especially can’t offer people an understanding of their sexuality so trying to do so is harmful/irresponsible. One post can’t convey the full nuance - especially if the poster is lacking the vocabulary to fully describe what they experience.
So I want to first of all politely ask - beg even - that when people are looking for advice we offer how it sounds to us based on the context given and not definitive answers that only they can decide.
It’s so profoundly harmful if we turn people away who need the label to understand themselves. And it might not be meant badly but it’s actually really f*cked up to do that to someone so please be more careful.
Secondly I took a while to realise my own demisexuality as it was made more complex by 1. being reciprosexual - I fall in unrequited love and have actually never experienced sexual attraction I just feel clear that it’s possible and realise that deep down knowing the feelings aren’t reciprocated prevents me getting there 2. Not something I enjoy saying but I secretly find the concept of sex ‘hot’ (I think that’s renamed ‘aegosexual’) I just never wanted to be involved in it (esp without deep connection) so it took me an absolute age to work out that just because there’s sex stuff that I can find both personally horrifying and hot for others to do if they want; it doesn’t invalidate my ace spectrumness. The only label I had for myself before was ‘prude’ (and a secretly hypocritical one). I’m sure enough of my demisexuality now that no one can invalidate me - it bothers me to think others like me could be misdirected into thinking of themselves as prudish allosexuals and the amount of struggle that would cause. It also took a false start of mistaking my aesthetic attraction for sexual so assuming I wasn’t ace despite having never even wanted to kiss anyone.
So essentially I operate as both sex repulsed and sex positive in a way… so I feel a duty to use my understanding of both extremes to point out to the people who are like me in wanting only one sex partner forever that you can see the beauty in that loyalty without sex shaming sex positive demi people.
There’s beauty in extreme loyalty but there’s also beauty to the liberation of ethically sex positive people and having multiple friends doesn’t negate friendship so it’s funny we think that with sex.
For me realising my demisexuality I was finally able to stop judging others ‘choices’ around sex to realise they don’t have the level of choice I felt they had based on my own experience. Demisexuality can be tough but it offers us a lot of wisdom should we chose to not get stuck judging others for having different feelings to us.
For me now immoral choices around sex are purely assault, cheating and not seeing/respecting your sex partner as a full human. So things like Poly lifestyles are not at all my thing (I’m mostly weirded out by how extraverted it seems!) but they are perfectly ethically sound being (presumably) consensual and loving.
(I don’t understand flairs or whether this would be assumed a rant or not and I’m neurodiverse so don’t get mad at me if my communication style comes off as blunt! Also I’m super prone to typos and I can’t filter my thoughts enough to be concise.)
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2023.06.10 23:48 UniqueAd3861 Achr binding and blocking antibody-negative. What now???

Hey y’all. I’m getting worked up for MG but my neurologist was so convinced by my symptoms and exam that he started me on Mestinon and prednisone before the tests came back.
My questions are: why didn’t he include achr modulating and anti musk antibody in the test panel?? Should I ask for that or should I just ask for the EMG nerve test? My understanding is that the EMG nerve test is the gold standard for dx of MG. Am I correct?
With the Mestinon helping—I mean night and day difference—-helping I am more convinced than ever that I’ve got MG.
Also, my bloodwork consistently shows inflammation markers—esr, platelets, crp all high. Is this associated with MG or just a fluke?
How should I approach my neurologist now that I guess he might doubt the dx?
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2023.06.10 23:48 SubRaven111 I need help regarding my relationship 23&55

Before I get into it, I hope you can upvote and comment so hopefully you guys will help me make up my mind...So here is some info before I get into it,, I 23 male and my partner 55male have been dating for 2 years now, we have had our ups and downs, times when we took breaks etc...and not to forget to mention: 1-we are from a third world country in which homosexuality is a sin and you can even get punished by law! .. 2- my partner is mostly straight! He had been with guys when he was younger, but he described it as just being very young and horny! I'm basically the first guy he has ever dated... despite him almost being straight he started making moves on me as we were just friends before etc.. 3- he had truly fallen in love with a girl 5-6 years ago,he was mad about her and they dated until 4 years ago ,, thats when few months before their wedding he found out she is cheating on him... It made him depressed, lost his job etc... About one year and half afterwards we met and became friends... After 6 months I could tell that he was into me and was obviously flirting with me, It was not long till we started dating... For the past 2 years I have been waiting for him to say 3 simple words... Which is ( I love you)! Even tho I remind him and tell him I love him on daily bases, or sometimes call him just to hear his voice,, I have been trying my absolute best to help and fix the damage she had done to him. I have surely seen improvement but to be honest it's becoming tiring! Constantly and unconditionally showing love and not receiving much in return. Even when I say ( I love you) , he either says thank you or laughs and says (and I hate you) anyhow I understand it's hard for him to say these words after what happened to him and he is just trying to protect himself. But I believe 2 years of constantly being a loving boyfriend is enough for someone to build up the courage to say these 3 simple words and he knows how much it means to me .... And another hard pill to swallow is knowing he how he treated her like a queen and how much he loved her, and how emotionally available he was with her and I don't see 1/10th of that when it comes to me... Keep in mind I'm absolutely in love with and also want the best for him.. with him acting that way I'm starting to believe I'm not the one for him. What should I do? I'm happy to provide more context if needed
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2023.06.10 23:48 MonkManifesto I can't wait for a sequel from Kreese and Terry's POV

Just like Daniel Larusso was the real antagonist I'm Johnny Lawrence's life, I can't wait for a sequel revolving around a pair of caring war vets taking over a Dojo and helping their community by giving borderline free classes in state of the art gyms. The intricacies and moral ambiguity in assisting your students confidence by donating a portion of money to a judge in need. The tragedies and drama of having a bunch of Drunk men breaking into your home and defending yourself from a home invasion. Idk, call me crazy but I'm already tearing up just thinking about this morally gray tragedy.
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2023.06.10 23:48 jayezzers 37y male calling it quits

I'm leaving my partner i been with for 13years i have two children i feel Soo bad for and i love more than anything in this world. It's been more downs than ups for me i lost most my friends and family trying to make it work with my partner. She constantly acuses me of trying to catch attention from anyone she feels threatened by(aunt's, girlfriends, strangers) and it's s constant pattern for ongoing 13 years I've never cheated. She always has access to my phone ECT, nothing to hide. But as soon as we go out in public there is a issue! She does not get along with anybody and always feels like people are making comments about her no matter what the conversation is, i have to constantly explain things and sometimes she understands most times she fights because I don't give her reasoning, my kids see us always arguing when we go out or at home. I was very close to a sister and unfortunately lost that connection because my wife had a physical fight with her. Not saying my sister is not at fault but my partner escalated it physical! She calls her mom and both belittle me when we argue, her mom calls me a low life and my family low life's, i would never tell my family nothing they say but it truthfully hurts me to think they feel this way. I have never asked for a penny from my mother-in-law, she owns a house and made a comment saying my son said something about living in her house, she said we would never end up with her house and called me a lazy ass! I have never thought about living or ending up in her house i don't get it. Shes divorced single mom her whole life 2kids and i can truly say it effected my partner. I truly wanna leave cause I've been here many times and i seriously don't see a way out other than leaving! We got no house or nothing going for ourselves if i leave idk how she will do it. She talks to her mom daily about everything offering details about stuff she has nothing to do with. But refuses to go stay with her instead kicks me out with nowhere to go! I own three cars have a Mobil business pay all the rent all the stuff in the garage is my business equipment. If i leave i gotta sell all my shit, find a place to store my business ECT seriously I'm about to fucken dip out!!
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2023.06.10 23:47 butthole_crusader Why are FilAms problematic, not like the rest of the diaspora?

For a long time, FilAms discarded their cultural identity for the benefit of white adjacency, reaching to be a model minority at the expense of the POC community. Now that being ethnic is popular, they are culturally appropriating the identity they have discarded, playing up their victimhood for ammunition and control.
Now Native Filipinos are speaking up and don't stay silent anymore. Thanks to the internet and social media, we have voices to fight back against their half-truths, lies, and historical revisionism. FilAms are losing control of the cultural monopoly of showing up to their white "friends," and they don't like that.
constantly repeating accusations of whitewashing native skin despite being a product of precolonial classism that they culturally appropriate without doing any research whatsoever.
The remittances and balikbayan they like to dangle to Natives like starving beggars are insulting to the OFWs who work hard for their families by diminishing their loved ones. Their behavior reminds me of that colonial mother and daughter throwing bread at starving Vietnamese children.
We are not mainland Filipinos; we are from the motherland.
End Rant.
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